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really suicidal right could help depression long term roughly since started bullying getting attacked consistently school appearance not good looking somewhat chubby riddled acne hair basically skinhead bully called levi first week started fight warped school called mum told instigator bully kept antagonising mum waited come home walked door beat living crap fat sobbing wreck living room floor birthday came month later forced buy apology gift birthday money grandad sent since refused get anything year supposed bully forced give someone still making school life misery apology card chocolate well ask forgiveness made situation worse kept beating expelled friend blamed started bully group one point arm dislocated one pretend fell bike knew lived year pass mum decides divorce step dad tell still dad month later say not kid refuse speak mum get relationship drug addicted alcoholic partakes vice pick heavy alcoholism almost daily fight tried stop would attack call name step dad come pick half brother sister one day give old desk sit stair taking room asks said anything not accuses loyal call two faced backstabber say scum cry take desk upstairs get idea die not need keep keep dealing year old go bathroom slit wrist not cut deep enough exsanguinate go downstairs ask mum help show bloody wrist beat trying manipulate forward another month turn th really feel point celebrating birthday depressed ask alone say not care accuses fishing attention start hit boyfriend say make list write small list force write bigger list get forced put social medium others see see great mum month abuse boyfriend make everyone move house boyfriend move home city make everyone happier move still abuse time government lost school coursework get put onto math band level capped c grade eventually get girlfriend big group friend make feel somewhat human local college informed good computer science building pc offer unconditional spot level networking course enrolment day college kyan moving back would failed subject school bar english math girlfriend still lived friend still lived not experienced issue broke boyfriend leave get back used live get put resit course college not accept without gcse higher girlfriend life mile away not see often little brother sister allowed come see u every week mum irrationally moving much not take computer science college not course mum threatens kick leave homeless not find job say not care stressful top college tried get take doctor refuse think depression myth way fix sad going working told rest family fear abusive manipulative could not argue back ask threatened kick life feel meaningless right feel like tragedy script authored feel awful time please help | suicide |
shy internet irl somehow not know social skill far worse internet real life know people inverse not know well suck want make friend people like overthinking everything say although second thought not good new people real life either | non-suicide |
sadhello everyone not know right subreddit going amke post anyway corona thing whole sleep pattern messed woke like hour ago went downstairs getting drink thought hey would hilarious drank vodka tried olaying xbox drank decent swig drank plenty people tume alone first fun walking around kitchen sat closed eye started thinking hard sat like hr min basically outcome spoiled feel like not deserve not saying oh not deserve live shit mean spoiled problem much smaller everyone el still treat big past week playing xbox ignoring schoolwork eat dinner room not feel comftorbale family anymore awkward around anywayy done kitchen wanted go back upstairs felt scared go back trapped stupid sad lifestyle doubt going try kill tried twice not know getting post forgot making not know man oh yeah forgot say guy not know matter not really know dependent weed make really happy used steal dad started hiding every night know not find go downstairs look sad man think got sad sat hr min first place weed make happy feel nice man not tryna stoner vibe feel like need not want also another problem not want talk moment embarassing already said much sorry spelling mistake still intoxicated moment going watch youtube channel distract myseslf wish someone really close knew problem irl goodbye | suicide |
autism narcissismi not know posting think need get chest raised household run mother full blown malignant narcissistic personality disorder got pregnant part trap force father marrying started slowly destroying life ruining career coast guard told allegedly raped guy elevator though not want report bullshit never happened mentally broke badly ended getting discharged thanks angel though grew abusive towards would physically assault much would every time refused back something perceived wrong even sucker punching not bound not bother feeling sorry son bitch anyway mother divorced father moved destroying life controlled every aspect life allowed friend goddamn hair styled goddamn doll something became teenager started beating object could get hand tried defend threatened call police arrested assault one time stripped naked tossed cold shower mockingly laughed sabotaged education taking add medication helping concentrate school reflected grade failing th grade pulled school immediately put work multiple job none ever able receive promotion refused kiss ass superior one case audacity file formal complaint bos felt like could abuse power impunity turn hr woman neighbor decided firing easiest way resolve problem never able get ahead could never get away mother stay living drained paycheck get nail done take whenever got bored buy expensive gift birthday mother day christmas etc finally discarded good met girl changed life drastically started standing mother began refusing demand tricked visiting brother mile away got called tell not come back home girl fell someone else kid couple year later working multiple job hated field knew nothing one day started blacking falling unconscious ended hospitalized decided wanted get evaluated find something genuinely wrong turn autistic entire life idea unemployed waiting year receive ssi completely alienated family friend got lucky taken friend bos died heart attack right front stuck sort limbo waiting something happen every day reminder much utter failure want die tried twice already time life saved roommate future someone like normal looking regular people accept autistic autistic normal thing regular people head full chaotic thought tearing every direction try appease everybody demand not take anymore want life never asked would never want people know repeatedly tell not want know struggle go depresses much well fuck think feel mental emotional damage narcissistic mother difficulty put due autism much one person deal want alive supposed like would rather dead would rather die death live one day situation worthless pointless without purpose without hope without ever knowing unconditional love feel like one nowhere turn found doctor country created kind suicide pod lie fill sort gas put sleep kill due another country america not see top expressing much want die land hospital drug pacified twice end back swear god kill first person dare approach syringe want hellish nightmare nobody let go not want anymore let die not like hurting anyone else killing not anyone let die peace deserve much everything forced live anyone know painless easy way kill research online keep directing suicide hotlines similar bullshit help center | suicide |
aagaini got even closer time wrapped belt around neck squeeze head feel like swelling abd keep | suicide |
nothing left dyspraxic learn drive not job skill towards getting one driving kind like sex either high school amp experienced amp reaping benefit missed never able incidentally never relationship either partially due insecurity relationship home life growing female way fwiw going spend life adult baby not go trip everyone else seems going mountain exciting new town etc instead stuck home would never matured past middle school fuck fucking not care making people sad cry help though sorry make anyone sad want | suicide |
asking question answer thank | non-suicide |
sent grandma never played videogame life video game working response oh lovely nintendo switch not stop fucking laughing adorable | non-suicide |
used complex mathematics calculate bobby shmurda hat found bobby shmurda hat using math youtube | non-suicide |
confused feeling alone need get stuff headfour failed suicide attempt past eight month last attempt last week closest come succeeding find terrifying crossroad right either change life good simply longer care people think idea frightens going remain miserable living life feel expected seems easier short term one need know miserable really want escapeand escape either change life radically put scary unknown take easy route end not want end time seems easier healthy alternative thing get intense exactly wrong not sure love guy not relationship got ltr need find also feeling another man not relationship thing either cause intense anxiety perceived failing social awkwardness like depressed not feel good enough worthy something men offer worthy sort commitment problem see guy two willing share true self rationally know placing hold guy silly rationally know guy guy great guy learn trust let go not rational side winning day suddenly lost parent month ago something shook core two credit away obtaining honour degree depressed not able concentrate study whatsoever point not getting degree worked hard achieve serious issue come failure high school drop not getting degree pretty fucking devastating said not sure care school thing mostly fear others think methe degree not themit worry looking like failure eye ranting not know posting one talk fact came close actually overdosing last weekoh god | suicide |
bitch always say oh cute oh amazing come talk come right bored | non-suicide |
wish easy way iti witness endure many horrible thing growing memory haunt moment wake able fall asleep waste space everyone around friend going leave eventually dissolve distant insular parasite one ever love aspiration faded many thing wrong many thing not bothered address sort therapist grown old scared becoming person hurt scared started adopt behavior made life endless hell good anymore never good first place worst friend anyone could ever asked feel like need eradicated stomped existance like sort useless fucking maggot whose future turn fly suck life anything good hate | suicide |
pfft snapchat anti screenshot method effect capture card usb c hdmi dongle fillerm fillero fillerd filler fillerg fillera fillery filler filler filler | non-suicide |
looked dad phone suspicious something pretty sure cheating mom help title explains not know sent interesting thing female not mom not know bring anything plz help | non-suicide |
note writtenim bad feeling note bad miss couple people not know say done done later | suicide |
planning die painful lonelyi wish could like netherlands belgium assisted suicide psychiatric illness allowed painfully aware want die want enjoy thing ultimate date minister invited thanksgiving want go st time not want connect not want sit around table people hear death line not want welcome love go wasted need isolate contain fear conviction scared enough talk already known long time wish could die dignity family friend wish could die le potential traumatization never happen society people not open idea suicide right decision | suicide |
last therapy session made worsei started feeling numb tried tell therapist see numbness come suicidal self harm thought worse always follows longing end therapist not even listen properly always interrupted tried explaining numbness improvement desperately tried tell might concerning not get happy not breakdown session congratulatiolated making progress normally overly emotional person difficult open feeling gone bother well feeling returned way always meaning longing pain returned nothing else drawing usually help time not satisfiying need enough rarely drawing share anymore dark triggering receiving criticism help keep going improving art skill last thing matter right hurt even last skill beginning fail not even able feel kind bond connection anymore lonely even though technically not alone | suicide |
chosen life spite fear not really remember first started occasional suicidal thought kind followed long time blame variety cause mostly anxiety trauma last summer panic attack took whole new life quit smoking still not able get back whatever baseline started smoking got help form mg lexapro much low dose cut panic one breakdown cross city move back hometown later planning contact whatever local sliding scale mental health clinic pe morning get back med not live anxiety severe not going die either felt hopeless lately know want choose life not alone weekend | suicide |
favorite type potassium mine potassium citrate potassium nitrate moment favorite type potassium mine potassium citrate potassium nitrate moment like potassium citrate potassium citrate also known tripotassium citrate potassium salt citric acid molecular formula kcho white hygroscopic crystalline powder odorless saline taste contains potassium mass monohydrate form highly hygroscopic deliquescent food additive potassium citrate used regulate acidity known e number e medicinally may used control kidney stone derived either uric acid cystine potassium citrate rapidly absorbed given mouth excreted urine since alkaline salt effective reducing pain frequency urination caused highly acidic urine used purpose dog cat chiefly employed non irritating diuretic potassium citrate effective way treat manage gout arrhythmia medical citation needed patient hypokalemic widely used treat urinary calculus kidney stone often used patient cystinuria medical citation needed study patient recurrent stone found reduced frequency stone per year half per year also used alkalizing agent treatment mild urinary tract infection cystitis also used many soft drink buffering agent | non-suicide |
need friendall ever wanted live friend hard ask never really anyone everyone ever met hate not know not know change know one way killing talk family family not chose honest think family would happier really end line | suicide |
good conversation starter like real hear dumb crap like weather sum thing | non-suicide |
anyone willing listen could really need itas writing not know state actually went drinking friend celebrate end last exam instead feeling good got back suicidal thought not stage long know struggling mental help right back slump not wanting exist anymore not know go big part insecurity struggle come raised born mom raped outcome growing always felt distance u never understood despite everything could alone mother told instantly realized struggled lot always put need infront anything yet would say thing like life used perfect basically blame everything overworked worked job many year anger frustration struggle probably projected outlet yet feel singled never brother happy practically raised considering worked pm want best world beyond year difference u yet could not help realize difference behaviour never distance never projected anger continued moved lot arguing projectiled anger yet rape baby biggest part screw thought world would not outcome unfair world also issue brother father married mom abusive mentally physically obviously made insecure yet somehow still manage speak lot really speak much sometimes not shut made many friend part know feel like rock bottom purposely go way help people much always put people ahead one thing personality like long people care good deal pain thought teen felt really around despite many friend due everything home life developed suicidal mindset yet thought beat got job not kept coming back time time not exist fair world not exist ugly nobody thought kept hearing time time remember went party week turned ended taken er drunk much friend joke however biggest darkest secret not pas alcohol taken lot pill earlier plan drink make seem like died alcohol poisoning tried committing suicide still haunt moment completely blacked not feel sweet realese felt pain remembered pain feeling came point not feel realese remember wanting jell cry pain much body could not react blacked apperantly lucky not die somehow doctor never found trace pill blood made promise would would beat wanted prove wrong never ever feel like however battle seems forever upwards kept getting better thought earlier year applied university got dream field study bit late since felt like massive progressiol however moving completely alone ever finally could think past weak second suicidal thought decided get help help nice started realising feeling suppressed never happy life happy moment nowhere point life actually happy brings today going socialise fun yet could think not want exist reality not want die not feeling anymore want pain go away hurt hurt much not want anymore not know deal want life smile say content happy dream one day family wife love kid not need rich make big want happy life however day get le le motivated day feel like get closer closer ending alone like feel like crazy part blood vein father evil person blood running feel like deserve comment mom made feel like deserve step dad feel like deserve not want anymore want someone rip pain away not handle year worth pain not want anymore hurt much sorry long post anyone actually read | suicide |
launched album spotify think hello fellow teenager produced album called land nowhere nostalgic vibe like electronic indie song think album like anyway hope listen tell think spotify youtube apple music amp xb youtube channel | non-suicide |
tinder survey hi conducting research tinder perception brand within gen z hoping find people willing help not take minute complete survey completely anonymous question not intrusive basic question use tinder etc looking anyone age active tinder account willing help link tinder survey thank much ahead time | non-suicide |
would feel like fuck hopeless scared dieit strange feeling passively suicidal want not alive anymore not actually want die sometimes get far trying figure much medication would need take end never actually done battling depression last year past year especially hard not think med working anymore feel like want sleep rest life time truly free unconscious not want hurt family wonderful partner every day struggle worst part endless hopelessness not comprehend people go entire life complaining work life money family knowing endless cycle hardship little reward little life look forward much dread want curl ball ignore | suicide |
pointi not see point life would work kind life living get work never going happy world waste time suffer | suicide |
getting corona literally intention school sending u back inevitably going end going fully online probably not someone school tested positive | non-suicide |
give u funny story two one time went eye exam use device keep eye open brush dye eye extremely uncomfortable eye freaked panic attack optician freaked panic attack not know handle panic attack room vibing others panic attack making worse shaking like parkinson handed glass water spilling half sleeve one time ex cat month old playing game mimicking movement looked away knowing would trap took opportunity slap across eye scratched upper lower eyelid give u story | non-suicide |
list people know commited suicidewhen friend also commited suicide hanging changed life forever neighbour home hung family friend came university class mate commit suicide second year study class mate commits suicide rd year study flat mate studying actuarial science commits suicide brother law commited suicide last week today funeral struggle suicidal thought attempted lived experience conducive mental wellbeing nope keep living life painful sometimes feel pain physically hope pray not get point attempting | suicide |
wish would kill alreadyi much pussy family give shit grandma sister aunt covered probably anemic bed bug bite got month ago also hoarder actively see crawl around without even looking bad one raised feel like trash not able help time help clean despite using bfs last paycheck get supply get rid gave u boyfriend lost job got one bipolar spiraling control beat shit week ago police not shit becoming alcoholic facing shut gas broke cried heap appointment could not anything unless find id not get afford buy another id not birth certificate even could take week send via mail picked job within week starting take tell got beat not fucking know really not support one nothing problem stacked problem handling not know wish would kill | suicide |
wish something would kill mei not want hurt anyone not want parent thinking betrayed wish would get hit car something terribly tragic accident kill would leave last word much want say gone tired | suicide |
browsing goforgold someone said karma given give get award karma whore gift award hahahhahahahahahahahahahahhaahhahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahah see | non-suicide |
anyoneone want talk got get mind shit want talk someone thing | non-suicide |
not know doim kid suffer depression anxiety chronoc migraine time cry fucking migraine pop like not fucking cry mean not let burden carried month come back haunt bad not cry house time parent brother yell shut also serious suicidal thought probably going end tommorow shit way not rope medication gun house sorry really needed vent terribly anxious suicidal depressed sad kid typing ipad pm | suicide |
wish would fatal accident every single day read innocent people killed people want alive would anything position could take terminal fast growing cancer away someone would could head fatal collision freeway drunk driver would literally begging die not know could go suicide knowing pain scare not want family loved one blame easy relatively painless method suicide presented would not look gift horse mouth dealt really shitty hand life year age fucking exhausted not keep charade much longer | suicide |
easiest painless way kill | suicide |
reason still alive would hurt family much lot family looking right making sure eat making sure ok hanging know would hurt much lose tired | suicide |
not make introduce expect much think going unmute smh | non-suicide |
anyone discord want voice chat also listen cry problem pls | non-suicide |
live spain without spain not live spain | non-suicide |
yellow underrated colour going not know hate pretty colour not fav like pretty colour adn like | non-suicide |
would like tell parentsdear person love much give never lost hope want best asking every day since born confession make heart last thing want feel selfish state confusion guilt one hand feel useless selfish aware not repair think problem condition qualm know not confront not solve problem every day want every failure day something happens long time college even small wish escape house point making bag desire end point writing letter saying goodbye felt nuisance weight hurt thought way end come long ago always close feeling not last one day another country away despite talking week feeling became unbareable wanted stop feeling learned ate much hard time breathing thing felt full stopped feeling stuffed eat happened gained weight weight superficial problem since childhood learned get rid ate purged taken laxative not want eat not gain weight learned sleeping pill without hunger kept could spend hour sleeping without feeling without eating truth throughout semester not made friend not gone even except trip chicago anxious cost hour sleep go class anxiety not like see people talk not want anyone see really good actress sorry apologize love much not want feeling like reason feel every time see around feel worse everything yet not stop feeling way not want disappoint much faith many hope let wanted proud best call help get hand ask give hand not trust much say fine sorry wasting two whole year | suicide |
hey girl mimosa bark blended mixed ly left stand non polar solvent added collect crystal mimosa bark extracted turkey baster make dmt | non-suicide |
think going tonighti downward spiral last day trying give reason not kill think killing not handle anymore | suicide |
anyone creates anything medium well relate would say good film also art program every time looking something skill someone always ask something way big looking job related film keep getting local music artist vision equipment iphone sketch character boredom people ask draw oc real quick ask teach draw neither listen say working game either going ask make game ask add stuff game ask team idea guy situation result idea suck way big | non-suicide |
feeling little low lifei tried unsuccessfully obviously kill three week ago anything lower would like go tonight see stick someone fucking distract anything | suicide |
honest want know talk | non-suicide |
seems like everyone want die everyday bottle feeling struggle job help everyone else around want help badly afraid ask burden anyone feel like everyone else also hate life not want make anyone else feel worse telling want die look go motion wishing could psychotic breakdown heart attack anything change mindless robotic life created not know anymore overwhelmed responsibility manager family health problem not know need feel like duck life not deserve breathe everyday | suicide |
quick spanish rant like lang class not going spanish god hate class teacher incompetent old force thing respect not people deserve reason not make effort teach u still take class ah going km dude hate old people | non-suicide |
much viral post bost internet point today karma follower k karma follower | non-suicide |
sucidehonest opinion please not worry hurting school principal vice principal counsellor know raped moved country refugee not know explicit detail endured though currently job involved wanted commit sucide several time told time always call police still keep telling feel sucidal not know sucidal thought reduced december came hospital till april school finally happy feeling better sucidal thought came back strong wrote letter people applologizing every wrong including one teacher week bad people said bad stuff mind felt immature not done not immature year old feeling bad people said thing not like one people felt said bad thing bout really said needed improve better environment club team one school club not immature feel stupid school called cop hearing letter seeing one teacher another person confided pastor came school told worried last person counsellor suddenly wrote letter stopped seeing week school know still not better pretending principal also found razor blade fell purse know cutting applied perseverance award grade regretting thinking sucide year probably would given life not well study involved school community still think ending life think applied think week mean feel like meant grateful even canada not trying kill people probably suffered longer deal life feel like wimp weak really persevered dead not school would given life ending school year bad note school year caused much harm telling sucidal taken hospital time not better lot people care see pscologist still feel sucidal school tried lot stop baby stop thinking sucide concentarate present not past weak thought strong not everyone done still think sucide till people not even recieve help better right really percivevrred withdraw award win get called stage graduation day awkward seem like lied application people really know know many time think sucide even uptil end grade | suicide |
go not see selfish taking life people hurt bit people expect u continue not feel pain even though felt pain everyday eventually evolved back apathy selfish force move forward not sure worse depression apathy sometimes nice feel pain least something othertimes make everything awful not figure feeling not figure people feeling not figure human not figure earth always feel guilty many people planet way worse not see past struggle friend died would kill boot live another day biding time pas existence feeling sorry not one thing neccarsily drove issue trusting people since first started dating almost everyone fucked not reason leave planet though certainly force multiplier not figure feel way fundamentally flawed push away everyone love not know girl loved everything power screw life not help pill talking helped temporarily absolutely nothing not feel thing believe one goal pas genetics something ancestor accomplished year wanted nothing child would selfish pas genetics best end not believe god pas hopefully returned flora fauna reason continue let know likely not save | suicide |
thing stopping killing myselfmy mom lent car today accidentally scratched door handle driver side trying park screamed minute straight ended cutting cut right arm right leg texted bos asking company policy two week notice half google half wanted kill asked resignation change availability asked policy employee going die called check ended telling google work tutoring center computer science teacher center also college consulting reminded always tell kid not stupid not get harvard google could not help think getting google easy getting harvard would normally kill final round interview google also internal reference google employee famous enough wikipedia page could anyone throw away | suicide |
hmhkbnjhbbnhg hhnnm feel horrible | non-suicide |
please fucking help help signing petition | non-suicide |
logic livingi not know put english not first language thinking logic option would simply die mean think study work life year important thing even optimistic way not good realistic way would little miserable not see live struggle joy nice people work way not know not sure want simple logic end wish g | suicide |
point anything struggling feeling suicide year fucking hate planet literally die end anyway planet disgusting love respect mother nature u piece shit human made unbearable one even fucking like except mom even know love not think truly like person friend one not get merry christmas text today one receive jewish wanting someone acknowledge existence care laying bed fuck else pandemic wake sometimes eat go work smoke weed pas shit cycle everyday not break not want anymore oded last christmas almost died really hurt mom despite not thinking would reason not care much would not hate hate hate motivation anything life want nothing existence vanquished much potential long life ahead point life make one repel others point one spend could friend relationship everyone around age dumb naive artificial not get along want relax beach somewhere left fuck alone would fund life bitch not come easy idea direction supposed taking psats next month honestly daily smoking year not school anymore due quarantine able whatever fuck want since online forgotten everything killed brain cell much say already enough people see read | suicide |
todaytoday made justification reasoning behind wanting eventually depart earth moment realized certain area within showed basic human response feeling felt enough suffering not want continue living anymore reflective form innocence reasoning every day go extreme emotion come fact inner rage never go away long living not not mind sadistic drowned ocean rage often believe feeling wanting die started yeara ago funny promised would never attempt low behold tried twice year first attempt felt leaking inside head weird smell coming nose second time died ingesting pill woke hour later belive trying right thing save never ending torture chamber called life tried weird way hanging got tired last week sniffed carbon monoxide car exhaust pipe obsessed death suicide researched many suicide online read biography checked see open casket picture killed read quote suicide dream killing remember attempt starting fall asleep thought death way spread arm waited beautiful way naturally suicidal everyday take toll today hour experienced mysterious feeling essentially good not start heart mind somewhere generated type feeling not feel guilty sad depressed suicidal homicidal feeling sub human paranoid feeling natural aid not anything order experience came term almost feeling unconditional requirement not soley happiness happiness pure like form thought suddenly slow barely coming adverse reaction felt peaceful sad later emotion fading away ill wake tomorrow feel avoidant suicidal depressed homicidal paranoid insane past trauma waiting haunt sunday might inhale carbon monoxide try something bag not know psychiatrist appointment not want wait long want mysterious feeling back swim never depart tired human not need eternallu condemned raked proverbial coal need peace not need advice better thinking habit not need girlfriend message god need mysterious feeling miss much | suicide |
every girl played bad not find single girl good video game sorry true think played girl fricking noob omg angry bitch fricking killed team mate aah | non-suicide |
year old avaliable sex year old want commit war crime | non-suicide |
suicidewhats best way die without feeling much like quickest le painful one | suicide |
tw self harm rant hard not right semblance control body | non-suicide |
change mind horny see world different colour not see true colour akd get post nut syndrome | non-suicide |
minecraft p built house water would show guy not know take screenshots p kind stuff | non-suicide |
lactose intolerant rise cereal yogurt bagel cream cheese lunch fuck yeah | non-suicide |
tired never happy even going far digging find thing sad never endsi feel like constantly getting bullied brain matter many good grade get one c test suddenly feel like total failure never succeed life matter many people tell pretty one bad comment appearance think true start hating look feel like mercy external circumstance people opinion like solid core opinion constantly going back keep going feel like option total isolation society dying point | suicide |
not tmau permanent condition mysterious illness chronic pain undiagnosed emotional abuse childhood feeling stuck life not hold job even though graduated uni human want around consistently devalued perceived unhygienic diseased tmau bullied sheltered life not see supporting long term financially momentary joy life not balance weight shoulder not properly fit society tired mom breathing back tired shitty friend mock use entertaining pleasure tired moving time rent amp reside tiny space mother brother late twentier not hold down job long enough move shitty housing market enraging cycle repeat never truly unconditionally loved another tmau joy used bring pleasure gone plain bland shitty situation not deserve mention really really tired not | suicide |
honestly bored pointlike chilling boom mood drop great wow boring going fuck mind mental health least make interesting smh | suicide |
really strugglingi not really sure got point really struggling life hoping someone tell get better whenever try usually end back frame mind way another trying figure got feeling suicidal think one thing another built time sexually abused two occasion friend teen think started never told anyone not want ruin one guy reputation occasion kind let happen not really know could complain know stupid big impact though never truly let get close friendship not know could trust played school college like game making friend necessity get ultimately not knowing could trust not sure going school loner led depression big part life always day better others day hell earth anyone suffers depression understand part home life ups mostly remember down mother loved dad love issue obviously never wanted child felt resentment lot life never really dealt emotion kind sat would get angry lash every wish open know not ruined life could friend hung stuff wished together ultimately sank deep depression lost job little problem anger would usually take brunt mother sister not see lost job lowest would sit couch nothing day hard try help making mother miserable aggressive generally not nice person around put lot pressure mother keep household running not good job ended working six night shift week support u stress dealing everything huge impact resulted almost dying heart attack moment grew survived grateful not know would without everything could help get better could tell shook deep stared death face not imagine must feel like dad not helpful say least somehow managed make made horrible situation even worse eventually helped mam find courage leave start fresh not forget dad helped get better place happy see found level happiness sometimes think not forgive hell put u whilst happening not really much social life various job help worked hard university got ok job field necessity financial support parent not want burden mother would helped regardless financial pressure put job parent settled realised fuck nothing going life close friend girlfriend one really turn living house share could afford not pleasant place hated job survive resulted turning anything numb lonely empty void found everyone cared happy not not want ruin new found happiness dealt not even really realise happened slowly becoming addicted thing negative impact life drink drug casual relationship numbing pain one casual relationship lead baby could kick could careless not know definitely father feel overwhelming sense responsibility right thing not commit suicide social judgement overwhelming always kind everyone rarely get return not one night stand dated casual not work supportive really struggling deal right afford live definitely not afford place not burden family supposed father child right really need help worst week not concentrate anything want dealing depression big enough battle overwhelmed | suicide |
serious issue opinion serious issue agree smart educated disagree subhuman | non-suicide |
help suicidal considering checking hospitalfeeling suicidal ever contemplating checking hospital not know expect heard left massive bill done not want die anguish feeling right unbearable | suicide |
might year old hot hot not make image link original jotaro hottest year old prove wrong not make image link original | non-suicide |
ooga booga lonely standard female born female still female nice please play game please preferably brown hair not really care much make toast cuddle nice respect treat like human not sex not ready buy stuff not job workin older least year mean unless angry case not mean understand girl language simple guy god dammit | non-suicide |
ever caught shiny pokemon long answer shiny gyarados lake rage johto game short answer | non-suicide |
politician younger not mean he better policy guy come quit dumb | non-suicide |
dislike sister okay house little recycling bin need emptied big recycling bin outside get full mom always complains one always take though constantly full can low key alcoholic anyways conversation ensued sister take recycling see full not take right sister not want proceeds sneer oh wow really mom proceeded yell saying sister whenever mom asks something say throw fit sick tired always get yelled sister say throw fit never take recycling not believe audacity right tell lazy proceeds look full recycling container delegate someone else | non-suicide |
hate word trigger hate focus sjws misandrists getting triggered taken away meaning not shaken bad feeling reliving flashback anything serious related mental health feel stupid feel stupid getting triggered stupid word tainted wave people using joke get triggered suicide seeing depiction suicide suicidal ideation suggestion set society view triggered feel weak pathetic stupid got first proper trigger remember tried watch birdbox broke feel embarrassed broke watching haunting hill house mentioned feel pathetic chest feel tight sucked back suicidal ideation like lowest hate hate laugh trigger hate triggered hate feel stupid yeah vent post probably get deleted | suicide |
woman course flirt get want x post r mmfb not fucking around dude exact quote chick dumbshit right well even dumber basically drove fucking hour bring as back home state one else would pretty much homeless week staying place though end fucking everyone knew told crush brought stuff anyway ended sex type sex multiple time problem though still boyfriend dude fucking loser whatever still not make part cheaty affair bullshit without telling not side bitch forgave go spend night bf came back not know let back oh right fucking retarded seemed okay spent day funest shit together going everything yo find told supposed best friend u end telling told go apeshit reason people care known eachother forever not unusually tell random shit happens life anyway start saying shit never attracted first place felt like raped not fucking joking said earlier sex break bf yeah keep going worst person ever liar not stand called liar quickest way piss never lied offered back every single word said proof took come anything lied turned misunderstanding explained nope biggest liar eve blah blah blah anyway say never want see talk thing actually cared friend yaknow fun crazy chill shit sex honestly know seems bit tame kind way worded really cut deep point almost not sure terrible person like seemed pretty got top orgasmed multiple time etc obviously told not id stopped not fucking case not rapist bitch starting regret cheating bf right tl dr bitch crazy not trust hoe go guy not know fuck relationship friendship w e hurt say wish world not really like shit man sw bonus tried slit throat yesterday happened cop ambulance came everything talked way going mental hospital reason suicidal alone atm hate alone friend friend hate except one girl maybe still going alone relationship turn crazy shit like feel used time even though lot people think id living dream not get attached not help matter hard try chick obviously crazy toxic still love still wanted friend really retarded | suicide |
sick itwhy not fucking brain work normally done not continue like feel tired alone fucking crazy | suicide |
suicidei not take anymore lost everything want die hurt feel nothing left live whatsoever need help scared ask feel stuck want end | suicide |
ex may killed tonight suicidal ever since breakup today especially started saying vague thing giving account information password stuff would not go waste told loved sorry last thing said anyone told friend life city moved away right broke couple month ago going called police showed knocked door one answered not see movement inside not probable enter supposedly car still sure home friend called ex mother trying get touch people live know one responded happening last hour idea anything anything done friend freaking waiting not know else | suicide |
lonelynone friend pickup girlfriend broke not want admit asshole need like conversation someone like hangout something like call chat super depressed kill sorry attention whoryness feel like lied | suicide |
fine go sleep gt nothing else way fucking comfy right fucking hate good night beautiful entity | non-suicide |
french furries like remarque votre renflement hon hon hon hon quwu est ce que c est | non-suicide |
stuff johnny deep amber heard like idea someone explain detail | non-suicide |
not boy girl get along | non-suicide |
list favourite user still updated waitingdowhat slugsoul wild relationship appleslice might wrong number thatname istaken number not remember reminder still updated | non-suicide |
bro sub super boring right tf everyone | non-suicide |
hey um kind mixed thought killing try second attempt long story th grade think remember much pressure school family attempted kill drinking bleach fast forward present day currently high school pandemic hit pretty sure know currently going not really much motivation live anymore think useless not anything world benefit anyone plus fact sister always overachiever mediocre school people really not want leave behind unfortunately sort losing motive stay alive clarify thing not diagnosed depression since parent never really took sort doctor concerning really young not older really hope somehow change thing option feel left anyways thank taking time read post really appreciate | suicide |
father last testament gifted bus ticket dad dying sometime minute care comfort stage heavily medicated icu always lot firearm hoping pistol willed single shotgun not really want go way gruesome brutal would rather pistol hang maybe exit bag lot pill drug mostly psychedelics alprazolam think zanax googled not kill also thousand mg ibuprofen suppose like normal headache pill not want vomit death found revolver drawer supposed go another family member id feel bad using know gf mother id body not want see gory skull blown apart shotgun love take badly | suicide |
pull trigger bruv nice shot | non-suicide |
life unfair not want apart world know life unfair somewhere world someone getting raped someone else getting showered kiss significant point life unfair done dirty life born abusive family point reference life trauma grew set psychologically damaged lot broken aspect like deal effect abuser | suicide |
need help soon possible find microsoft form answer | non-suicide |
hii anyone want chat dm f would super cool meet new people maybe make new friend pretty bad starting conversation love talking pokmon cartoon help | non-suicide |
muchsorry bad english not live usa english speaking country not noone never known father dumb ugly unloveable useless fuck year ago drinking getting high everyday suicide attempt met one friend broke ex gf obsessed ex gf broke started drinking taking pill lost hope life weak not know idc bout parent younger brother purpose alive friend know not take long anymore every single day thinking commiting suicide problem gone tried psychiatrist not help not talk anyone weakness problem trying act like cool guy fine really broken problem month breaking passed think love ex gf every day falling deeper want die hobby back suffering body hate nothing make happy cca week ago stopped talking parent stopped talking classmate probably everyone expect friend think fucking really want die afraid not failure | suicide |
sorry gamers minecraft stream cancelled internet bugged not connect twitch server allowing see not gorgeous face made phone mobile data not faking | non-suicide |
whole personality gay joke mythology knowledge like six different layer irony weird nonsense epic | non-suicide |
stop faking mental illness attention sick people say stupid shit like social anxiety acting depression acting self diagnosing not true stop not fucking cool depressed anxious eating disorder anything else along line selfishly taking time energy effort away actually need help please actually experiencing mental illness get diagnosed get help please stop taking attention ok rant ily great day | non-suicide |
seeing significant increase number minecraft post sub think like rip one guy dog though | non-suicide |
going kill within next week going slit wrist soon honestly could not care le fuck tendon hope afterlife definitely going hell goodbye | suicide |