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germany capital hamburg president kennedy ich bin ein hamburger | non-suicide |
need advice watch fori hope right place post not please let know better subreddit girlfriend love describe bipolar mean statistically time likely attempt suicide average person every often little fact creep mind break heart diagnosed knew attempted story not know detail big scar wrist recently hit depressive phase not get bed two week told time made preparation necessary including dress would wearing music would playing breaking heart write know method going use supposed clean painless made promise would get rid everything started dating according however not know whether could would acquire attempt know look mood action need able keep eye physical mean best not thread full easy painless method pm also mod want verification not use please feel free pm well thanks reddit edit med take disorder strong enough kill doctor know however limit prescription size smaller | suicide |
tiredi not know solve problem front not want burden anyone not want reason anyone feel unhappy tired | suicide |
reddit icon changed black orange mean racism filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
advice managing minimizing constant suicidal ideation daily suicidal ideation decade past year started attempting suicide lately suicidal thought persistent therapy psych ward stay not helped feeling hopeless | suicide |
parent trying punish meltdown basically parent mainly mom trying punish meltdown school virtual left zoom call yeah know sound bratty horrible processing emotion meltdown caused not understanding question written understand lot question written typed need verbally explained meltdown left mom trying punish | non-suicide |
teenager hit different go sleep | non-suicide |
not think take much bad newsi almost alone guess jobless thursday afternoon keep getting bad news not take much not get job confident honestly change usually super negative hurt much knew not gotten hope face news nan heart thing kill eventually jealous best friend hate usually tell not kill love niece nephew much starting think best got going pretty pathetic not know thought going hospital asking help not want parent disappointed | suicide |
ever feel like catcalling mostly applies ugly people know not every situation feel like woman would like attractive person asked number flirting unattractive ugly person person came called pretty age | non-suicide |
always end back herecutting cutting bleeding know not bleed death not get deep enough want pill wrote note maybe mom leaf get pill unlock door done shitty lock think not escape depression compared feeling open wound emotion reopen wound etc etc feeling nothing feeling much always extreme everything sorry abandoning know horrible not help help please not know want nice word meaningless nice | suicide |
good day maybe need | non-suicide |
point existence amp xb tired alone friend multiple relationship not even single person interested certain one ever think relationship unique type love person affiliation point decided worth want one relationship prove worth someone love know not never feel validation problem absolutely hate talking people equally hate alone could actually talk people maybe way could talk random people even hate talk friend reason result pretty much missing supposed best year life not even imagine relationship make feel bad every time crush someone realize would wasting time actually like back objectively inferior not even funny could much better know way someone could ever interested would settled settled would make sad actually care know would wasting life settled could better understand life relationship hard failure every aspect originally wanted become electrical engineer taking calculus ap chem realized objectively not smart enough everyone else get sit back class nothing friend try explain not know thing even slightly wanted impossible not know not really anything want life afraid growing going college continue alone want kind purpose know not find think people find purpose relationship dream not either many problem not fixed never get happy think people not made exist one people talent top really pathetic dream girl held arm lmao made really happy never experienced story made realize useless existence get excited girl dream held arm like damn pathetic not want exist anymore ready die | suicide |
thought better turn gotten worse denialive struggling depressive thought since lot bullying mental abuse friend classmate growing never felt like proper childhood back could not figure suicidal thought parent pressured getting therapy deep not want not feel ready guess first psychologist talked one doctor office write moment depressing thought told try analyse honestly made feel billion time worse constantly reminding felt like shit day day determined problem severe sent proper therapy clinic underage time setting diagnose depression decided go kiddy treatment program felt mocked ridiculed young fucking suicidal gave treatment plan named fucking dutch pun absolutely furious treatment involved advanced version writing feeling getting advice help recovering thought worst part felt ridiculed whole life went gender therapist psychologist realising trans lowest point life diagnosed treated several trauma still not think really treatment involved form meditation not convinced anything allowed sign transgender clinic still waiting list nearly year better got first year college found right place found stable job shithole mc donald found new better friend got extremely close support trans someone talk needed everything fine fine fuck feel garbage gotten worse ever nearly everything could wish feel goddamn selfish depressed hurt closest friend throwing depressive fit barely control something extremely wrong not know anymore not time money energy go back therapy feel going not helped suicidal thought back anger not accomplish something day fucked feeling everything massive waste time hurting one care feel like end road like never supposed get far life shutting away friend fear hurting every time think feel selfish way sorry long first time poster badly needed vent | suicide |
suicide suicide number hopeline suicide prevention line kristin brook hope center call someone talk call talk not even say anything call throwin | suicide |
yep getting closer closerusually time year not depressed like christmas spending time family time around ok could feel something wrong everyone gone alone feel bad also girl started liking hier impressed lot thing basically superhuman like approaching thought maybe time happy endured especially also great success school getting back year basically killed dream one facebook conversation today definitely not stable enough right take well supposed study week final next week not point already said school basically everything not give satisfaction pretty sure last chance happiness thought suicide creeping head much insane year ago felt like could never something like even depressed nowadays thinking logistics cry bed | suicide |
pfp would make immediately talk person like lot people told insta pfp p hagrid lol make people step away not want talk wondering picture make opposite effect | non-suicide |
exhaustion almost year old grown abusive household probably worse father always verbally abusive mother always enabler five sibling eldest sister born father older brother sister born mother another man younger brother born parent eldest sister never really around much father always hated two older sibling point anything everything disrupt peace grew watching dad tear sibling apart along mother mother always refused leave due appeal security financial stability father bi polar disorder refuse treat sibling grown walking eggshell entire life gotten older thing slightly calmed not much not get along either parent sibling hate gut mean hate gut father though still abusive many way always treated better everyone family naturally disdain diagnosed acute depression generalized anxiety disorder panic disorder ocd psychosis depersonalization started receiving treatment going back forth ward mother started hate already seen many therapist many session parent sibling mend thing never work one recognizes behavior problem environment home always toxic place feel safe love one happy friend family moved new york oregon recently pandemic outlet also extremely self conscious socially awkward anxious never safe enough invite friend child struggle make new friend general mental health history parent not let anything not allowed go not allowed get license not allowed attend college trade school not allowed separate bank account without license not get job least not currently live job able walk without parent assistance not let one therapist suggested try get away family soon possible not allow older sibling almost parent forced move u want good others want fair chance life almost not allowed even try get license way going parent would undoubtably file missing person report tried get away want life peace screaming fighting guilt tripping gaslighting feeling scared anxious reason cry spell isolating room time pure peace would anything get away people try live decent life tired exhausted living way attempt better life shut not know two semi filled bottle xanax nightstand take start panic attack not try breathe not know enough overdose idea going ever get away family not care rich poor long free want | suicide |
planned st got told love life zero interest realize stupid sound get angry people irrational literally reason stay not anything else not know feel way every time close eye ugh sorry taking time not need read post not need reply want thought somewhere read know not spur moment decision part know much mean heartbroken | suicide |
tried choke belt felt greatfeeling life slip away fade death felt oddly peaceful made feel even determined end life anyone else felt | suicide |
died not | non-suicide |
hi everyone year old gamedev goal reach subscriber enjoy content subscribe help lot video | non-suicide |
not depression see majority people depression understand normal curious not | non-suicide |
quick conversation girl ah sleep dead said woke next morning | non-suicide |
want hug hughughughughughughughughughughughug | non-suicide |
not want make bust not even never diagnosed never taken medication never therapy done tried kill many time lost count self harmed stopped not explain scar stick scratching hitting break love life date sleep guy abuse deserve reason never taken care everyone mom need mentally unstable since born afraid never going end pain suffering not wait till support system become burden wonder job living mom try best people clean keep listen people support afraid not enough keep fucking think world slipped made definition useless sorry wasting time read | suicide |
ask question edit respond make seem bad possible bored lol | non-suicide |
yee yee going give post award free karma big brain time edit not | non-suicide |
life seems fake genuine human connectionno genuine human connection always something false human human interaction scared make relationship others ruining life boyfriend treat like shit scared leave feel like hope close relationship another human feel lonely whenever alone whenever people feel like pointless pain inevitable human experience want pain loneliness stop want happy normal come accept never | suicide |
r p teenage time leave subreddit | non-suicide |
life fucked come fuck deal pain suffering loneliness fear guilt etc point die end anyway anyone else feel like kind fucked video game controlled someone want see suffer fucked right thinking world want | suicide |
anyone venezuela filler | non-suicide |
not know need whatever best ending fine sometimes selfish | suicide |
guilt thing done back killing mei done thing life not handle guilt anymore not move forgive stained disgusting action throughout last year without giving care moral pretty much gone lately come back realized bad done post private message whatever need help losing mind | suicide |
mental health systemi hate not taken seriously unless present er million pill already stomach even canada sure free visit refuse admit anything make sit hallway hour sending home alone soemtimes genuinely need inpatient stay not admit unless already made attempt currently dying | suicide |
cry helpi drunk near foot high bridge ready jump part screaming live forcing meto post | suicide |
f chat boy big math test today long problem roll sure getting right reached last question question worth lot mark literally made sense not finish time also work look like horrible mess might get like maybe not optimistic oh well part two test thursday wish actual exam even harder challenging would least hour verify work test minute | non-suicide |
sick existingi want die bad not take every single fucking day need dissapear way get motivation start actually attempting suicide hard like | suicide |
hey good day | non-suicide |
heard little sister say bi friend not mean support not anything know would bad bee | non-suicide |
deep desire suicide seeing therapisti living country suicide considered crime thing hotline form proper service would available cover caused would insanely long seeing therapist little money left let end | suicide |
girlfriend ditched detention atleast got touch booby sat top | non-suicide |
thank r teenager subreddit one best thing happened gotten meet new people see perspective different kind people age reminded together well turn dropped like hot rock still thanks new thing life thanks mod trying best make sure child predator not steal virginity whatnot wishing good sunday | non-suicide |
wonder feel cut dick like would hurt would much adrenaline feel pain would feel really want find | non-suicide |
not knowi not want die keep living not seek help without disqualified future employment would make impossible ever pay back student loan hate life currently see one way not know even dog know something wrong make feel worse | suicide |
anybody ever kind chill roommate laugh start looking movie watch not really paying attention cover art film looking cool film chill watch friend stumble across boy striped pajama not really bother read summary considering listed disney movie streaming service tv everyone assumes disney film forgot kid new one like ok cool bored eat special brownie chill watch disney movie someone turned boy striped pajama not disney movie different kind disney movie nazi auschwitz kid dying depressing depressing not even aladdin raise collective group spirit amp xb everyone sad movie made u cry | non-suicide |
anyone else automatically feel sorry fellow redditor whenever state female amount time see female redditors talking constantly get harassed dm whenever make post includes fact female shocking fact gotten point whenever see someone say female post automatically feel sorry amount creepy dm get wondering anyone feel | non-suicide |
abouti talkative person really enjoy spilling thought people topic find hard bring people care decided go anonymous not want go overly detail average male college student not go apparent hardship life loving family although parent divorced finishing highschool old enough not negatively impact plenty supportive friend enjoyed life traveled lot got relationship experienced thing many people not need much longer extremely strong urge die whenever alone not help feel strong pressure chest area describe feel like anxiety asking girl first time much negative although not examined psychiatrist though asked come meeting school mental heath test went told perfectly okay denying anything thew clearly guess feeling depression feeling keep telling end everything way make go away battle urge started cutting leg help although temporarily give feeling actually killing although not since not cutting important vein help ease pressure also make feel better next day make feel like healing reason temporary solution like drug slowly loses effectiveness time began cutting deeper make first time basically scraped skin cutting flesh basically become numb physical pain point mean still feel pain simply not care anymore depression going since highschool year already lasted kept finding kind motivation continue despite situation right not motivation not care not wake tomorrow enough feeling constant bickering time smart enough know not easy decision go back want absolutely sure resolute decided basically setup exact timer death based life going bought small glass vial whenever feeling urge point absolutely needing cut fill blood kill fill month since came idea filled would guess number would say pace month live honest not sure feel moment feel like not even last weekend ritual set least prevent anything extremely rash however guarantee fill not sure exactly expecting come post nothing else good look thought write welcome kind feedback even rule send pm managed go text find funny everyone meet mention positive cheerful even current girlfriend say one thing attracted positive vibe exact opposite really feel like compensating something lack others putting fake mask pretending someone not say confident extroverted reality extremely insecure not deal disappointment | suicide |
live like people tell live another day not disrespectful someone continue quality life currently living good pain misery tell get better someday probably day die tell someone face not power anything going someone supposed come state not care always think way | suicide |
kind hate mom think people not allowed parent honestly mom told kill told not want mom honestly make really sad | non-suicide |
honestly teeny bit confused people understand pride not bragging gay pride celebrating fact u lgbtq not flat crime anymore ik vast majority people understand seen lot least straight people not shove face sub lately also sure would much fun hyping u inside parade | non-suicide |
found hidden meaning name p ew p ew p ew p ewdie pie p p p pie pie_ | non-suicide |
quick question halloween dumb still going trick treating | non-suicide |
school joke go boarding ordinary school found day people cought drinking got week suspended one guy stabbed one compass got day suspended complete asshole stupid try murder someone get day drinking week people drinking boarder sorry bad formatting english not first language mobile | non-suicide |
not give not seen light yet much live tell come home tomorrow going kill write note easy | suicide |
girl liked spreading lie not know explain gradual decent today began laugh got concerned turn girl liked friend month last year spreading lie told wanted time guess problem standing people almost year told friend sent people make feel bad stood awake talk exact opposite reason said stalked followed around accidentally run school go bus talk friend accused sending perverted message furthest went telling looked nice not worry not know anymore | non-suicide |
would date danny devito encounter danny devito moment life would date sincere let know da comment | non-suicide |
want diei story not knowledge enough express not first language live fucking turkey country stole life yo feel like useless future nothing change want die afraid not know going death | suicide |
feeling hopelessly lostfirst not going kill gotten point obsessing death dying feel trapped miserable unhappy life way died tommorow car accident almost would not care say almost got kid reason not offed yet not know sometimes feel like going snap tell fuck not take feel like everything control hoping maybe someone else similar situation loveless marriage dead end job could really use advice smoke pot help depression seems lot le helpful lately | suicide |
today birthday not idea gift today birthday not idea gift anybody suggestion | non-suicide |
fantasizing suicide help cope fantasize suicide often fantasizing going take life not think negative life become like form meditation make feel calm like finally control something come close befor held back still people love responsibility people gotten tempting time go fantasy becomes plan eventually plan become reality | suicide |
mormon right get go build planet stuff least sim city includes suicide mormon drug terrorism sexual experimentation topic life story probably leave despite cap warning assure not terrorist longer consider mormon done experimenting straight mildly considering suicide drunk mod feel free move wherever appropriate exmormon suicidewatch foreveralone whatev hello quick intro wrote reason decided internet novel ready pretty long please ignore spelling grammar error drunk originally going put mormon board maybe belongs plastered right suicide seems better pretend like mormon read want quick laugh skip last line anyway born raised mormon know everything nothing great religion happens good fit however hate extreme recruiting retention tactic despite best effort not leave great mental stress point near insanity suicide consider agnostic mormonism family root not afford leave physically mentally read decide bad person improved greatly since lowest point ethic moral substance abuse though still life threatening issue depression anxiety want life help people live good enough manner matter happens death finally chance content actually experiencing true joy hear church time money not matter thing not matter treat everybody respect love not understand many people not see logic golden rule common sense act terror war world lately hurt level seems fewer fewer people fathom empathetic individual killed attack wondering somebody would kill make example also empathetic martyr murderer terrorist perhaps mislead believe killing imperialist american country suffers way heaven show absolute comradery brotherhood religious group took gave purpose whether not second guess decision everyone else see call arm initiate violence teaching even radical islam tell people kill not agree may idealize martyrdom not murder theory believe accurately describes terrorism happens consider u large western culture civilization oppressive empire infringing god given stake holy land want troop happened might feel appeased open way dictator government rest world believe not exist circle evil not stopped except maybe genocide usually not work well anybody belief forefather v belief child short not understand one person would ever even consider hurting another person often get existential ask difference make death unknown beyond imminent anyway radical reason need kill u want left alone different make feel justified killing even feel bad stepping bug hope made sense mention drunk know think tell story born raised mormon neighborhood imagine high school probably mormon mormon culture ever knew mother entire family mormon get father also mormon though convert sibling problem remain mostly active anyway oddball problem child family love love religion often get way often feel like love conditional try love unconditionally reminds get dog might prevent suicide epitome good mormon boy early teen puberty church parent policy complete abstinence sex even talking except single half assed warning father gave masturbating evil not knew gained incorrect belief sex moral general first time accidentally masturbated knew going hell physically mentally punished sleeping ground week mentally destroying little self esteem developing never told anybody anything prayed god repentance wished could take back month later similar topic came talking one older brother actually let know going relaxed bit actually got comfortable enough purpose occasionally still everything right pretty dang common even mormon boy guessing though seed darkness planted mind misunderstanding unnatural sexual experience mom also got overly intense ssri little depressed questioning belief probably around side effect destroyed never developed normal sex drive lead unnatural fetish extreme social anxiety never girlfriend not think possible ever wife family even though think would really like fast forward couple year graduating seminary attending temple mission prep course eager go mission experience another culture back mind though realize never really spiritual experience many doubt question not go much detail still basic one polygamy african american woman priesthood thing change god unchanging etc etc people absolute faith thing winner war write history book always take learn grain salt unless experience read scripture book mormon critically find lot incredible lot also insane everyone say ask enough faith spiritual experience receive one mind complex thing ask enough faith sandwich mind make think got one perception relative make unique reality sandwich not knew would not going mission parent plus still misunderstanding thing church would completely horrified decide start college putting mission paper prolong decision parent seemed ok semester ended reminder got frequent completely lost packed everything owned move crummy bedroom apartment bad part town questionable acquaintance high school temporary job barely paid car expense rent bill tuition long not eat dug entire life saving parent kind enough not cut completely even though devistated let stay insurance could keep med hopefully not get much trouble time probably every ssri snri ssnri atypical antidepressant antipsychotic known man plus several benzodiazapines order keep sane enough stay school even though hindsight harm good way despite crap found sort genius amazingly well school writing several associate degree close bachelor degree great gpa fantastic reference promising future likely grad school want anyway around time moved went completely insane trying everything figure identity tried bi gay med libido interest girl lot unmentionable thing going apartment though proud say back mind could not shake straight um penetration ever happened though everything else pretty good blocking year entirely mind also rampant substance abuse mean everything lot extremely lucky alive lot random use cigarette marijuana extacy lsd meth ketamine perscription drug hard liquor beer combination many often lead permiscuous behavior never really liked alcohol smoking pill popper group sometimes taking dos would kill anybody tolerance would cost several hundred dollar one weekend slowly got debt refinance car eventually falling roommate one considered boyfriend even though feeling not mutual decided not gay right decided throughout parent never found not talk often also never caught authority amazingly despite drug deal going horribly wrong beat weapon pulled lost thousand dollar common living could not stop would probably good caught able stay school least progress academically place go back home amazing parent took back never pressed much time away laid basic ground rule drug alcohol suspected happened importance staying school even though always important work chore etc also time high school friend coming home mission even started going church invited paying tithing brings u present several year later seen right doctor medication mostly right great school great family support system old life practically gone saw would not able tell ever anything good mormon boy completely understand lucky good got every second live hell something wrong brain understand concept brain plasticity know could probably recover would take drastic change drastic enough think would impossible every time join parent church someone mention eternal family see mom cringe one older brother baby recently know kill parent not going able part blessing stack men babtisms dead card need done not think mom not letting anyone else case every somebody sneakily say not late serve mission go date preach something not believe mislead girl liking scumbag try not get mad not church fine talking without getting defensive feeling worse every day catatonic depressive day nothing get done anxiety control whenever something frequent breakdown especially around final friend high school went mission not understand not seen month not really friend anymore thing going schooling decent intelligence could get handle thing could make difference world great thing not recently turned back drug year clean help thing make feel like worth anything know may paradox drug feel worthless first place would rather great high terrible low constant low get need leave circumstance least year school left not follow would optimal choice go far far away graduate school believe would fail anyway mental health drug issue finished temp job funding everything last year completely reliant family everything way leave leave good hope life better drug need make pleasant know enough make sure work enough beer vodka xanax klonopin enough allosteric modification gaba receptor allow medulla shut maybe would get e ice make fun would not make anybody sad show much miss sick miserable every day response change attitude force laugh shut fuck always get better always gotten worse may look ok outside broken beyond repair inside enough counselor therapist know internet message board not going help probably not back check throw away account anyway password already forgot admit pretty wimpy probably not anything rash right away hell probably never really commit suicide would not disappointed accidentally od something felt closer tonight ever wanted write like need another beer apple red stuff delicious dog basement apartment backyard suicide would not seem better life mention drunk beer god afterlife hope judged based intention value rather circumstance action mormon right get go build planet stuff least sim city | suicide |
kind want message coworker worried might inappropriate not super close text meme every today work acting really weird feel like something wrong like wanted message ask everything alright worried like might weird not close like not want business place hope everythings alright | non-suicide |
mom saw using r teenager told scroll not like saw goodbye mom not like cussing sex joke decided may time leave well may fit age group think matured past subforum bit time say goodbye cherished lot memory past two year goodbye hope better future course come back every see really think time move guy talking girl not hard guy make seem walk girl say hi lot time actually steer conversation trust happy talking someone opposite sex seems least tiny bit interested lol | non-suicide |
baby could build castle brick threw everyday like battle every night u like dream | non-suicide |
close killing right bottle tylenol not want die want stress anger sadness end lonely one semi close friend mom emotionally abusive always criticized every little thing feel like not even fucking breathe fucking stressed school right taking honor math class failing fuck follow high school th grade not concentrate anymore always exhausted fall asleep every class without fail every day many fucking end year project driving insane want rip hair cry right lost live hate stress loneliness never room breathe like crammed tiny box one tiny hole breathe anxious fuck anything school related thought school make chest tighten clue handle much handle maybe weak hate feeling way option ugh | suicide |
killing monday currently late saturday known since thurdsay monday going kill not know anyone ever see sorry hope die peace struggle hope god hears prayer peace second chance miss people love sorry sibling lost year u sorry could never forgive mother sorry jamie never making right choice regret pain know come death maybe meet another time place love would easier leave hope pain end paradise seek oblivion | suicide |
got new diagnosisi diagnosed mdd thirteen along couple thing today year later diagnosed bipolar become comfortable concept antidepressant knowledgeable ssri work today prescribed mood stabilizer kind dumbfounded like concept chemically looking kind get still new unfamiliar strange point post faring pretty poorly recently hospitalized last week considering suicide every day past couple month new information making little hopeful receiving type treatment year not helped much actually kind eager try something totally different sort pleasant update guess maybe not want kill soon thanks reading | suicide |
not find point living anymore sexual assault survivor every day wish abuser killed threatened close passing choking decided listen save mad way not take stuck deal assault top going one world best unis fucking hate not even kill lockdown much dislike parent not front mostly end saving really fucking hate university second year cancerous shit ever not care learning hobby not interest anymore cut friend still try invite reason alive bf said wanted wake one day living able not live together wish lockdown not even hugged anymore know skype discord not th week uni brain hurt much hate uni not even fathom taking another semester find not like anything else life apart bf not even know nothing else life care literally living lockdown grant bf wish kill tired wish could sleep day not | suicide |
give upi not know happening every time get relationship leave fault everyone around u want tell someone much pain not scared tell someone judge like one want around stay locked room want leave not sorry blake | suicide |
ok kind sus going back school since september teacher apparently putting homework online iv made first part school year not knowing somehow never told anyone homework online even stuff since september year past due date none teacher pulled said not done homework teacher told parent not homework reason even know existed mad not apparently responsibility find homework never knew existed not teacher job tell class homework wtf supposed | non-suicide |
forget guy skirt butterfly knife classy swordsmanship got documentary hometown not split nominee oscar documentary feature | non-suicide |
nobody care everything muchi want stop feeling stop overthinking stop anxious stop depressed want everything stop go away | suicide |
got question not study still get relatively high mark feel like cursed something one people everytime get assignment night last second would said studying rarely hit book everyone studying come along someone not studied getting best mark class may think blessing not agree work ethic almost zero something not easy get almost instantly get frustrated uninterested | non-suicide |
psychologist think kill exposure therapy not worki went black dog institute sydney late last year suicidal thought largely due anxiety psychologist recommended exposure therapy said thought would not work would talk committing suicide way live thinking clumsy way trying say really belief effectiveness exposure therapy anyway exposure therapy not work think psychologist also think kill year ago think especially really low point think mainly thought depression anxiety making think illogically guy basically like nope life suck definitely kill not work | suicide |
bad person bad person wanting die newborn wife possibly going lose job depression not seem ever go away feel worthless sure wife child better without | suicide |
life ruined plastic surgery chance get help stupid made worsei got rhinoplasty involving serious implant two year ago fit psychosis pulled nose moved fucking implant course year moved septum nasal cartilage bone surgeon not help said mentally ill worst thing told family still needed help could not talk anymore would not tell not know implant grew crooked pressing bone surgeon kept insisting mentally ill told consult bad breathing felt pressure implant starting press bone told known felt would stopped responsible pulling fucking roof nose arrogant stupid important thing life horrible nose real structural support lot scar tissue like fucking idiot rushed rhinoplasty friend love said coming visit not come second time done funny rushed first nose job one surgeon put implant without notifying verbally stupid not even sort rhinoplasty would either one surgeon listened whole story vague idea turned away like asshole sent one overly long overeager email asking question fear instead taking good advice rejected went cretin misleadly low price promised take implant make nose prettier without ever read fucking operative report made nightmare come true nose healed ugly normal looking chose worst possible strategy could idiocy anxiety impatience not ask question not know anything three year hell time grown tissue taking worst thing could done thing many pocket much scar tissue nose way better open rhinoplasty pointless worst septum middle structure nose collapsed feared looking back knew would worse not know went known would not worth know heart let self hatred hopelessness delude could worse much worse able tell truth pulled nose maybe someone could helped surgeon chose one could afford chose horrible guilt third rhinoplasty second cost like fucking idiot going cost fix septum nose put back structure breath nose look exactly burden family fool one many decision made punishment thing failed anxiety laziness stupidity turned problem unfathomable not word dignity ask help understand request instruction people last one trying help fuckup stupid coward way made suffer thinking horrible painful revision ugly likelihood never breath normally thinking horrible choice heap grief pain fuck every single opportunity relief surgeon put implant begin lied stupid figure something basic septum vague idea could never talk doctor space cadet breathing issue pain made tired whole year actually got fucking rhinoplasty breathing bad tired time hard time getting day key fixing problem fixing septum instead let someone cut someone even warned blew advice not know not resident brain hurt family much surgeon offering revise want charge forcing fucking pay see another consult not even talk email knew knew everything could get worse still rushed surgery cretin destroyed nose never relationship never held job flunked graduate school going much worse program leave life series decision important choice turn nightmare crawling downward dark afraid confused learning nothing nothing drag family not want another surgery want go sleep not wake family forget want haert stop burning lung not think disgusting face implant made worse want go back day pulled fucking nose arrogant horrible piece shit hopped prednisone nose finally healed punch fucking arrogance use rib cartilage fix | suicide |
let u try get load people mario kart friend code amp xb sw | non-suicide |
laying bed cryingi reached friend stranger yet still alone tried different medication therapy still broken beyond sad everyday think hurting everyday think dying resist not think anymore tired | suicide |
someone tell okay please forgot password account not matter pound foot height took around pill mg acetaminophen within hour fell asleep quite awhile stomach much pain woke holy shit thought could handle pretty dizzy confident choice past hour getting scared want friday chill watch steven universe si | suicide |
thing not get better tired waitinghi thinking thing not actually change atleast not thing r kind hopeless pay attention big part life thing genuinely gotten worse like really even point not saying point generic die anyway progress make not really matter saying way specifically still trying alive reason not like important impression make anyones life temporary friend not last forever tired lonely sad ever since day one thing gotten progressively worse worse really think going not moment panic overwhelmed want peace sorry something wildly beautiful imagining dead not sure though blank expression someone finding would look like not even safe head adhd fuckbrain always running mile per minute new hyperfixation not able kept thought around people anxiety running wild one understand help really hopeless thing not change accepted not not tried make thing change get help not obvious minor not much speak everyone talk much topic suicide brought said straight family face want kill want die done math many mg certain pill need take even asked go mental hospital luck one ever take seriously see soon enough probably sometime october though promised friend stay alteast late september | suicide |
confessing crush reddit much weenie irl j sh kind may may not like since october know us plebbit pls not give negative karma lt j sh see not bully tehhee | non-suicide |
birthday forgottentoday birthday everyone close seemed forgotten maybe fault pushing away struggled nobody seems notice feel worthless not enjoy life anymore started seek alcohol drug may made worse close giving despise much even look mirror | suicide |
pay homework cheap need homework help hey guy emily year old junior high school trying make extra pocket change straight provide proof offering help assignment worksheet powerpoint presentation note outline essay reasonable cheap price essay presentation must warned least week advance extra buck charged due within next day proficient chemistry algebra precalculus geometry biology u history environmental science european history english class wood tech interested please private message could negotiate depending length difficulty work price may change worksheet dollar per page powerpoints dollar per slide note dollar per page outline dollar per page essay dollar per page | non-suicide |
always mess thing upi fuck poor excuse person stay longer one real life love say action say differently tired | suicide |
try donothing none u matter | suicide |
first time saw serious post without wholesome award heaven heck happed | non-suicide |
attempted today attempted time past week hanging backed time not really sunk yet | suicide |
crush said seeing lot post people asking crush stuff inspired decided tell crush really feel sent message responded eew blocked feeling really needed vent thanks listening | non-suicide |
would easyim not even depressed right feel numb bottle pill desk drawer not know not take | suicide |
getting closer something stupidi ruining best year life work hour week still live parent town future mean get running mean going forfeit relationship family leaving thing cat behind not think could ever face explain not cry going work hate job lied keep trapped work as everyone sit play facebook way get college degree nobody give chance explain nobody want acknowledge friend falling deeper deeper away none u happy friend need commiserate try laugh none u stable sure tried end not acknowledge joke keep nightmare fantasizing want crash car headlong wall tonight drove home thought easy would even made home sleeping pill hell could afford gun even survived would put hospital would not able go back job parent friend could try scared make improvement worked hour day hour week week cancel plan friend need work next week wanted one fucking day retail binge afford thing never use not matter even spent nothing could not afford move not even cry right parent twenty goddamn four year old might well much autonomy not anymore not keep pretending trying march say apply something else focus something else go study gre go back school clean loose weight refocus fix situation one trying help weak tired anymore | suicide |
trapped rock hard place month pp suffered severe depression anxiety year prior getting pregnant worse ever getting treatment not helping getting support not helping feel trapped obligation son love every fiber desire stop burden problem everyone strong not want hurt son day wish could swallow bottle full pill done every morning wake consider another failure | suicide |
disappointed going ask girl today almost not not believe froze like honest pretty mad perfect opportunity could think say already dating someone gone not like not principle could done not going wait week probably result would happened asked today say fuck anxiousness bitch also declaration ask girl next thursday not going push ups | non-suicide |
statistically likely read whole post something really like interested since reddit many people many different taste would impossible predict topic get amount attention could use rick roll spanish inquisition not impactful reddit | non-suicide |
not deal pain anymoreive diagnosed cptsd childhood issue live lot mental pain always past year gotten much worse developed incredibly intense panic attack bad make physically sick vomit cry hour end try everything right take medication go therapy try eat well go gym nothing work not getting better feel getting intense rule life not fun anymore good day day not suffer one hate feeling whole life trying fight one attempted end got car drove fast could realised however something tell might not last time something like life not getting better know going get much worse not know anymore think everyone around getting sick leave running hope | suicide |
hope someone read writing stuff existential notebook hope someone read fully get removed matter hard try separate real world always cone back might hate belong plane existence sometimes choose embrace fantasy escape world endless torment end go back tell existence feeble one moment entirety time stay little live life way meant lived not always seek happiness make u feel sad content world offer grateful challenge faced molded grateful friend existed existence intertwined grateful universe might insignificant speck dust desert unknown proportion might never fully explore day fade time least get experience wonder world offer u smile never give problem arrive never permanently eventually fade eventually fade let u live wonderful life leave mark mark surely echo throughout eon come verse created importantly sake future nobody sure hope reached point whilst happy not skipped part reader fellow human life gift cosmos wise pay respect thank truly nobody | suicide |
oil company hope making quick buck worth making planet unlivable creating mass extinction guy messed climate much already mass extinction marine life care right climate change hoax even though scientist agree earth warming human causing really saying know ruining planet way could help fix involve not making precious dollar anymore know nothing important money even extinction specie | non-suicide |
voice journal got lot dream one old enough big part grandkids life realize not going live forever not want sad funeral one video man made voice message funeral like actually alive funeral kind wanted grandkids probably would not know sounded like not start voice journal instead regular journal not embrace technology voice instead going really fun bring smile family want hear voice one time even not anymore | non-suicide |
every time stupid mom askes search something youtube apparently not enough functioning brain cell click little detective icon thingy go know want know search something | non-suicide |
goodnight everyone peer pressured sleep even though not want | non-suicide |
ever parent wake work cuz parent every fucking day | non-suicide |