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enough throwaway account obvious reason really enough everything thing kept death affect family kid mean parent brother sister friend thankfully physically healthy could give body somebody could make use would gladly reason feel guilty killing tortured inside head shitty childhood always physical pain sad inside not know feeling child not know word not gone away adult got worse tried year therapy point blank refuse med refuse med not actually fix anything also mother med describe functional zombie day drink take xanax prozac something else fucked anything else not want end like not want end half like fucking med thanks come conclusion year planet nothing torture think something wrong mentally not like learning disabled borderline schizophrenic something know not actual medical term one people spoke thought may bpd maybe anyway frustration feel torture head sometimes hear screaming inside head hear voice various people like family ask thing etc literally going around inside head like screaming roller coaster tell anxiety not seem understand asked help point not really care well feel anyway fucked come relationship sex not trust anyone sex reminds one bitch fucking despise make feel sick physically sick mentally often stopped said fuck not make look like total fucking weirdo god know make person feel zero confidence zero self esteem sex relationship something not apply think thing like would even want even get would probably cheat leave knew really like would not want stage life seeing friend little sister etc relationship almost everybody else somebody not saying even want relationship highlight loneliness feel feel not understand people not understand relationship not trust people angry hurt sad frustrated feel worthless word think describe moment suppose feel sick sick inside head go really angry family like stay worried sad kill not live life way wish would understand supportive going miserable planet hate enough want go | suicide |
every day try work courage go get somewhere new live finally end every day fail much coward go end every day know killed back long time ago know not put suicide scared hard every day try harder go get place wish done month ago end day sucked could live weak lazy people decide work hard try live not not depression not mental illnes weak pathetic lazy loser sorry loved one even though not see not danger go soon eventually love b | suicide |
one guy revving sport end street think trying convince u actually big dick shame | non-suicide |
asked crush said nice cool | non-suicide |
live not perfecti want start want reincarnate perfect idol people adore life never perfect not want mom find dead want found almost dying transported hospital die not know maybe cut deep wrist lay take nap people find like thought overdosing sleeping medication could also not kill rather make seizure organ failure tired go sleep wake feel write | suicide |
suicide care aboutif could one thing anything death would choose think not wait die | suicide |
think going implode filled rage not calm not directed anyone not fucking stop hating sitting room filled intense self loathing not know stop wish access drug honest know misery done abundance ever get hand going till nothing left need something ease pain really want self destruct not get help ease pain really fucking suck hate life edit really glad put ignored not even know try anymore everytime try reach get ignored like piece shit | suicide |
night light slow feel much discomfort care disappear moment know lot beauty sun life smile everything given know much last not would willing endure even would problem hear lot thing never liked promised wanted end night sound like whisper image look like not many friend see dream make friend even beautiful forever dreaming stay inside rain prefer cool open time enjoy together used laugh together angry make trouble attention mother reminds strengthens sorry never seen forgive | suicide |
nobody ever give chance friend umpteenth time row ghosted trying make friend someone suck time person connect bond easily flat ignore ghost sudden not feel like anything wrong respect boundary give breathing room ask without personal friendly funny not depressing got friend time fucking happens one step closer end trying make social hellhole noone let u chance | suicide |
anywhere get help get fast lot issue life not take anymore disappointed many people disappointed family shaking fear decided commit suicide today not even energy go forward lift bed not issue solved money contacted every single institution country via email person even contacted bill gate nearly month ago never replied tried get help many year cried loud not seem matter torn inside part not want not see way feel like life mistake | suicide |
finally going suicidal thought head year recall not left day row tonight going finally stop coward like everything life finally going end mixing alcohol every single pill find house post left visible screen informing every single hypocrite piece shit helped led current state not come funeral especially mother not care much find someone else something else lay sadistic behavior would like mention not want priest funeral since church corrupt since rd century wish much worse painful life mine anyone pretend liked good similar gone thing sentence implies would feel like existed point time make chuckle life could never purpose making decision full consciousness use alcohol give courage goodbye really not long time taking account detached feel anyone body environment posting throwaway otherwise rare occurrence survival society make life even unbearable not worry done evil thing past not kind person anybody would miss | suicide |
nothing seems real anymore starting plan suicide never specific plan started formulating used drive along car imagine crashing wall closing eye not stopping sudden thing quick spontaneously amp xb recently hit new low people around take take take anyone ever got divorce year old spent last year abusive relationship chronically ill pain day long job income car ever day journal heart attempt keep unraveling amp xb abusive mother finally apologized super nasty thing said last year not talked since sent clothes bought shirt new boot cold weather stuff freezing toe sent picture got two best friend saw not even reply amp xb one really care person huge techie diyer lot random hobby knowledge tool people use amp xb think going write letter everyone life address stuff say bye leave journal anyone care read truly see horrible mental state crazy inside amp xb due teeth ripped last week dental stuff later plenty med not know amp xb amp xb | suicide |
gender leg ok pronoun skin ball | non-suicide |
watch somebody head get split open horror movie relatively unfazed run finger printer paper shit fucking die | non-suicide |
knew basically going take access something small easy quiet quick pain anger sadness tear thing getting light end tunnel | suicide |
please not ignore need advice please not write lately struggling problem believe video game addiction play super smash bros hour day really high gsp online ranked point system well consistantly lost round lost much gsp main got de ranked feel sick angry not know near hour clocked game going waist mad feel like throwing someone please offer advice talent everything good slipping away | suicide |
think ready diei not want anymore done tired hurting not care even try happy anymore scared happen gone thing holding back go hell wish hit men not expensive otherwise would done | suicide |
stole idea guy stole idea guy anyway dome fact got white skin not caucasian asian little swallow ear make crunchy crackly sound started playing ghost tsushima today scar right eyelid falling bed hitting desk scar left eyebrow falling piece lego used reddit like year think clock room couple hour lazy change electric toothbrush | non-suicide |
way get person care pay themits ultimate definitive proof nobody ever ever life never therefore really even live perhaps meant died long ago accident mystical force simply miscalculation way suicide kind almost seems heroic fixing nature error | suicide |
american fascinating country not medical bill like medical bill not imagine walking doctor appointment not getting kind check weird realize greedy government holy shit think move | non-suicide |
birthday though guess stop using flair later kid sit big kid table oh yeah also say deep wow wild case filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
tunisia fact world strict gun policy impossible legally one american laugh ass fact | non-suicide |
rant really hating someone fuck n manipulative liar fucking horrible friend | non-suicide |
feeling feeling like someone much happy talk life happy happy alive | non-suicide |
depressed people help not depressed personally actually pretty happy person like one friend told try go walk told felt better would pick one nature not many people around trust try great reason convince life worth living suicidal | non-suicide |
someone want give really need volvo xc sale jay wolfe toyota kansa city missouri | non-suicide |
else scared going hell suicide really scared kill would go dante hell would not able move really freak really hope hell thought | suicide |
day living back momand want kill already great | suicide |
dear broken stranger voice heard existence matter say beauty life simplicity simple thing life make smile look forward another tomorrow dear broken stranger want say voice heard existence matter please not give life like fair share despair day truly wanted give learning find hope simple thing life would like invite favorite song played radio rerun favorite show taste favorite meal smell coffee first thing morning smell earth rain early morning stride nature past midnight sky gazing warm cup hot chocolate next fire winter clean bed sheet evening walk sea sparkle puppy eye pure laughter child smile loved one kindness stranger unexpected message text long time friend late night conversation unexpected love possibility yes possibility better tomorrow forgotten including worthy love life stay | suicide |
interesting inquiry tooth fairy ever get way drunk give money teeth | non-suicide |
hate valentine daybrowsing social medium see appreciation post people significant others reinforces lonely frustrated difficult even go class anymore manage go third class skipping first two see people stuffed bear crush soda meanwhile going go home eat leftover spaghetti eat go bed not want like anymore | suicide |
hahahah exam go suck dick finally fucking as licking degenerate even made oh god | non-suicide |
question female feel like question better answered older teen started going party friend girl started hanging u drink smoke party even brought molly one party one buddy tried girl not seem set however talking recently think one girl like however take lsd shrooms coke thing nature occasionally not addicted anything friend asking question reason like stressed might scared girl talking mostly not know girl find people try stuff unattractive guy think something stress really like girl sorta overthinking | non-suicide |
date business purpose pretend relationship krma whore making post eachother like luviebuni gitgud not trying get boyfriend care krma | non-suicide |
watching dad anything online hurt ordering pizza dad not see menu thing say menu dad click say order dad want see menu know need click order see dad well stupid | non-suicide |
sus | non-suicide |
going cut neck tonighti not anymore constant feverish headache not concentrate tired come home school smoke weed crash done going cut jugular vein tonight | suicide |
way fuckin victory town | non-suicide |
hello yoyou read say spoopy season comment | non-suicide |
one note calculator x hit enter also equal | non-suicide |
yo fucking bored today anyone want talk discord something cuz really bored today nothing | non-suicide |
listening spotify listening spotify nutted man speaks hand came jamming got song made nut | non-suicide |
bored ball tiredlife fucking boring honest enjoy first year life constant hell school college working boring job not making enough want life maybe rich could enjoy life way always wanted right constant rat race probably always | suicide |
refused medication not anythingi live girlfriend anymore know death would probably kill not want family suffer not get depression med parent say not right even diagnosis spending day ward not get job even though well school not afford anything live paycheck paycheck girlfriend pay everything ashamed horrified useless husk absolutely terrible everything life not get minimum wage job revisiting place three time want leave want want partner forever not kill seriously considering anyway want participate individual not even | suicide |
twelfth night ah | non-suicide |
homework ate dog sad apparently give homework away not hand dog teacher going fail sad | non-suicide |
late meeveryday keep thinking life shitting everyone sense point noone not take anymore | suicide |
bitch say go talk people lol tried hate shut amp xb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
got first real gf never really dated kind stumbled relationship gf nice amazing need talk somewhere life side school little older like month spent bunch time house parent sibling cool let chill last week started dinner become pretty regular thing thanks listening rant also sorry mobile bad format | non-suicide |
struggling stop myselfi dark hole day struggling stop obsessing obtainable way die not med od gun anything intrusive thought die today | suicide |
wasting timejust holding finally get point life hell escape | suicide |
playing fall guy falling guy thisistruelydeep weliveinasociety | non-suicide |
may thfor thinking thinking nothing going get better still get heartache girl thinking not even life matter people die everyday people die get mourned move much lot thankful grateful year living not happy know sooner later plan take life push everyone everything away time come selfish may know not good person tired dealing people loving people much caught others life dealing anxiety fighting understand stupid world hope probably cry help typing feel either way hope everyone well enjoy firework | suicide |
good day wanted bless timeline little positivity today not know need hear keep going religious not anyone prayer request something get chest gladly pray chat want great sunday lol | non-suicide |
people genuinely believe drop everything something crazy common advice see lot people saying leave situation making suicidal depressed got decent amount saving enough fund something crazy like randomly traveling around whatever worked year save amount would likely chew lot process would happy back square one one life would respect decision like either not like job certain would happier somewhere else easy secure maybe contributes wanting die feel like would end worse packed bag flew australia thailand germany wherever else tried make work yet say not like job not like place living etc people tell quit drop everything something wild go dream state dream city dream country see make work go hiking mountain go partying mexico something not make sense not would lose bunch money might need something else not work really trouble nobody would support something like especially not parent super meticulous planner not support anything done without plan not answer anymore still would dampen enthusiasm sure seems totally unfeasible irresponsible yeah staying place might wear enough hurt kill not better stay crappy situation try work personal thing dissatisfied instead picking hauling somewhere else wanted get thought seems totally ridiculous yeah got nothing lose pull stop not work want die worse anyway | suicide |
mistakeim scared write need someone know gay kid saudi arabia place lgbtq people not accepted punished death scared family isolated everyone terrified know spent life bullied people kind tell made develop social anxiety depression feel like carrying heavy weight not anymore want let go two year hardest far depression bad point not going school general health shit one alone scared everyone around happy fun except not get something choice not way live fucking tired want love feel loved much ask find thinking letting go searching reason not maybe cry help | suicide |
keep trying found girlfriend year cheating past tuesday morning nowhere left night fearing something happened guy barber friend found stormed beat as got as beat badly friend got arrested stitch head lost dog suicidal met drug booze everyday since cant stop raging house mess tried get shit done got little bit done afraid ask help not want everyone worrying addiction ashamed showing far burst tear red want keep trying not sure | suicide |
give two band tell better opinion opinion uyshcduhdjdhdhegdhfgrjfvvjhgdufhsugshdgeuhefubfhbfegfyehfyegfhehfeufhefhefurhugeyfgeufhefuheufgefuegdyefyefgyefgedyegdegydgwydgeydgedygsdysgegfiyegyffegfyegfydfgeyecgducgdycgycgdycgdycggdcydgcydgcdygc | non-suicide |
saw someone unpopular opinion post thought would share mine drop kicking bos okay accepted society | non-suicide |
sad unus annus last stream channel getting deleted hr fun | non-suicide |
mother learning drive year learning concerning pray | non-suicide |
sexmasternumba lt homo pls | non-suicide |
ugly went uk inbred town stuck like sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing realised would need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred mean wanted look like girl london would need skull surgery rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implant starvation diet far uglier one world ugliest woman make feel sick | suicide |
guy masturbate stage one pain stage spend minute searching video stage second later clean time stage pain | non-suicide |
anyone feel burned videogames basically whatever title said also lost motivation watch anime not know | non-suicide |
poem motivate story begin story end life story began character grow trial tribulation everyday plot thicken go life life love story action movie ever choose maker destiny destiny not know write creative writing class | non-suicide |
song wrote year ago sing upload day planned dyingi wrote song hope making feel better everyone used praise trait people made feel bad trait stopped using part song one really like guess pretty ugly know good never understood could leave really would guess need sad never mad always used cry eye gone dry cut wing not fly tell go die ditch fourth july feel like hitch see firework home rehearse say last goodbye glitch trux | suicide |
hoping surgery know not really rant much vent hoping get stomach reduction end year cuz severe portion issue boyfriend try help get really sad end sad weight moment threaten not eat remember not help promise eat le better wake next day eat poorly issue portion since maybe rd th grade senior high school year weight stayed stagnate went school without breakfast not pack lunch went home ate make know surgery not solve problem hoping maybe not mindless eat often know make worse lack effort exercise hope back school tiny bit active wish weight loss easy weight gain would ask advice know not follow unless forced | non-suicide |
billie eilish soo underrated lmao nah man bitch probably play violin wrist deep lyric year old depressed girl fuck right thank | non-suicide |
okay fuck get super paranoid listening music street class like listen music earphone one always get realy self conscious everyone hear cringey as music known kid shitty earphone not shitty way not keep shitty music like constantly pull earphone hear cm ear turn sound even though one want go ft near cuz covid like everyone get paranoid weirdo look like fucking loser constantly take earphone like creep | non-suicide |
looking podcast guest run small podcast twitch looking guest talk anything really meme politics pet music anything go requirement must discord must able voice chat must ok twitch not show face | non-suicide |
girl told not know feel embarrassed not kind facetime girl crush last night talking ab aspiration college normal shit ask felt sensitive guy kind paused moment say not really know look like cry every night reply never seen cry final blow tell seems like turn freezing shower curl fetal position listen cold play gave chuckle deep highkey hurt | non-suicide |
dream r sleeping quick sp made subreddit called r formyfellowteenagers talk stuff dealing check feel free join | non-suicide |
anyone want chat right pl like almostabout liek eye burning leaking wiht like water somethifn allergy really bad not not eepsleep bore fuq | non-suicide |
not every time plan hang think time especially day not even act never managed position would able think maybe tomorrow not like deep not want never edit never mind please ignore going today | suicide |
thank meme advice start september parent ban kind social medium meaning grade absolute hell goodbye r teenager may force | non-suicide |
want tell joke invisible beautiful people | non-suicide |
push challenge day forgot post yesterday got push ups donebin one minute forgot many without stopping check back post history see progress | non-suicide |
got okay ill okay ill fight | suicide |
exam tomorrow going kil myselfi swear going kill tomorrow take exam fail take know nothing like jon snow mno seriously depressed af really thinking killing | suicide |
hate part yes | non-suicide |
general thought constant pain everyday joint muscle always ache always migraine getting worse symptom like light headedness dizziness eating le le day appetite look sickly time memory gotten worse not remember childhood not remember thing read grade slipping not matter attendance poor summer got life track way went psychiatrist shortly overdosed pill wish died got scared heart started beating really fast scared go back not want talk know talked really nice said bipolar disorder type anxiety wanted follow appointment not go friend always say hang terrible friend home thing not good could write book detailing everything mom horrible person nobody anything dad growing older scare dy not know live | suicide |
ugh stood front mirror cried today doin fella text text text text text text text text text text text text | non-suicide |
made decision world got beautiful happy die plan heavily overdose acetaminophen combine carbamazepine initially planned hang way dying abrupt afraid permanent brain damage someone discovers early spend last hour day acetaminophen probably destroy liver slowly pain going excruciating not care surrounded nature forest place brings joy happy many year made decision beautiful good luck everyone else | suicide |
not going lie always wanted know kissing girl felt like not like going happen alive bother noose ready extra padding time | suicide |
anyone want chat little scared | non-suicide |
sad always sadi not want someone feel bad want rest head someone shoulder actually care want meaningful hug not want money fake love hug could not get act happy fake mask miss best friend died friend world cried three day not want cry anymore done | suicide |
title idkhow work courage actually tired ready gone | suicide |
last time actually horny also honest not lie lol judgment anything | non-suicide |
get uh someone caringly tell go bed not end getting insomnia spending time awake night getting harder harder wake heehee yeah post back session | non-suicide |
comment united state flag code u flag code defines flag star one state union also defines star must positioned blue background not however define star positioned accordingly position star shape say hammer sickle probably offensive lot people u would perfectly acceptable flag according u flag code | non-suicide |
girl like nice couple day ago met girl one mutual friend hanging eventually ended talking random shit fun talked couple hour since camp still see everyday randomly glance make eye contact like split second not one start looking get feeling look shoulder quickly glance away anyway hanging couple couch one ahead stood complained sun shining eye sat right next another thing chilling came sat right next started talking even though knew day could sat friend knew couple year like honest kind started crushing chance like not used people nice | non-suicide |
going put another cursed song parody made right ah gas gas gas ah like mien kampf guess ready kristallnacht waiting genocide going exciting got feeling really deep soul let u get want go come along get going take mien kampf going gas jew going blitzkrieg til get fuhrer soldier ready like want exterminate race shall kill gas gas gas going gas jew tonight die chamber yeah yeah yeah fight quick flash fuhrer gas gas gas going gas jew tonight die chamber yeah yeah yeah going step gas second great war not commie going burn like hot sensation got power supreme chancellor yes gonn crush ally ready ready go going take mien kampf going gas jew going blitzkrieg til get fuhrer soldier ready like want exterminate race shall kill gas gas gas going gas jew tonight die chamber yeah yeah yeah blitzkrieg quick flash fuhrer gas gas gas going blitzkrieg flash tonight fight winner yeah yeah yeah going step gas second great war going take mien kampf like mien kampf crazy hot ready like want exterminate race shall kill gas gas gas going step gas tonight die chamber yeah yeah yeah blitzkrieg quick flash fuhrer gas gas gas going blitzkrieg quick flash tonight fight winner yeah yeah yeah going step gas second great war gas gas gas yeah yeah yeah gas gas gas second great war ah sorry mod rule ban | non-suicide |
trueoffmychest post obesity really piss like agree not ok obese not always choice fat try lose weight starve sometimes go walking running almost every day try eat healthy possible never stay kg matter hard try gain weight even seems impossible happen yes health issue pcos insulin resistence not fucking choice way fuck think id never choose fat want lose weight need fucking not matter hard fucking try yeah fuck post bye | non-suicide |
anyone lay dark think different way dying one somehow find strange peace knowing one absolute way end hurt courage go | suicide |
urge play minecraft someone non friend play uh basically anyone want play anything | non-suicide |
one need math summative done beta bad grade fail not know anything literally nothing zone class much hell | non-suicide |
fucki want die not know handle actually never going kill guy much pussy not worry not bother asking okay whatever live life pain misery fuckinf build courage shit | suicide |
not sure anymore nothing helping not med therapy family lost friend not want keep living like unhappy even saying understatement not sure want die not anymore make sense | suicide |
seems like nobody know not know mean also every time ask lmfao mean people laugh | non-suicide |