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crazyausachick | Does anyone else hate this holiday as much as me? The whole month of October is a reminder of death (and in my case spiders). | 2019-09-25T01:40:53.000Z | d8wmkj | 1 | 1 | ptsd | Halloween | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8wmkj/halloween/ |
mwg1234 | Been having a lot of these lately... | 2019-09-24T23:08:57.000Z | d8v18i | 4 | 2 | ptsd | Panic attack... | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8v18i/panic_attack/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T21:30:16.000Z | d8trwq | 58 | 56 | ptsd | I got prescribed Prazosin for PTSD nightmares, I was wondering who else has been prescribed this | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8trwq/i_got_prescribed_prazosin_for_ptsd_nightmares_i/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T21:24:02.000Z | d8tovj | 0 | 1 | ptsd | Just need to vent. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8tovj/just_need_to_vent/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T21:22:04.000Z | d8tnvg | 2 | 4 | ptsd | Is this a trait of PTSD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8tnvg/is_this_a_trait_of_ptsd/ |
BPD_Queen_ | Hi all. I recently had a pretty severe car accident, my car drove under a semi trailer completely and everyone said i’m lucky to be alive- if i didn’t duck i would’ve been decapitated. This has been pretty hard to deal with, nightmares and i get triggered driving down the same road and everything. Not sure if it’s PTSD but i don’t know where else to do. After the trauma, i feel like a different person. Not in a bad way, kinda a good way. I’ve always been shy and socially awkward and anxious but now i’m very outgoing and loud and can express myself clearly for once. I feel like i have a purpose in life and i am trying to pursue it. Problem is, that i don’t feel the same way towards my significant other as i did before the accident. I don’t want to be intimate or even around him. Every little thing annoys me and i just don’t feel love anymore. Has anyone else gone through this after trauma/near death experience/concussion? I love being around my friends and being social but when it comes to me S.O i feel so irritated and annoying constantly and out of love. I’m sorry if this wasn’t the right place to go. i don’t know where to go. | 2019-09-24T18:29:46.000Z | d8r9jr | 4 | 1 | ptsd | Feeling like a completely different person after trauma | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8r9jr/feeling_like_a_completely_different_person_after/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T18:19:26.000Z | d8r4io | 6 | 4 | ptsd | How has your PTSD changed you in a positive way? | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8r4io/how_has_your_ptsd_changed_you_in_a_positive_way/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T15:35:24.000Z | d8ov0l | 1 | 19 | ptsd | Talked to a boy today! | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8ov0l/talked_to_a_boy_today/ |
throwaway0706199 | I’m an adult. Last night on my way back from college things were just too similar to the time of my trauma. The lighting, the temperature, the headlights on the road. I dissociated so bad I had to pull over.
I called my mom crying. She had to come pick me up and I was a trembling, crying mess. I could barely talk. I’m supposed to be an adult. I’m supposed to be able to handle myself, but instead I have to call my mom and have her come get me. I’m so so tired of this. | 2019-09-24T14:59:39.000Z | d8odmk | 2 | 4 | ptsd | I can’t help feeling pathetic.. (negativity warning, venting) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8odmk/i_cant_help_feeling_pathetic_negativity_warning/ |
coffeemuffins | I get severe migraines. I was getting them frequently till I saw a neurologist who put me on a great medication. My neurologist, therapist and psychiatrist all think my mental health makes them worse. Anyone else go through this? | 2019-09-24T14:42:36.000Z | d8o5qi | 4 | 6 | ptsd | Anyone have migraines? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8o5qi/anyone_have_migraines/ |
rumpleforeskin89 | [First post](https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d4srlh/ive_m30_triggered_my_partners_rape_ptsd_and_dont/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share)
So it's been exactly two weeks since the trigger. I was supposed to work with Rene the previous Monday (it was an optional work day, the restaurant was closed, people could come in and help with a deep clean if anyone wanted extra hours) which we had both planned on doing. in order to give her space and not make her feel awkward, I had already contacted my manager and told him I wouldn't be coming in. When I texted me on Sunday night saying she doesn't know how she'll react when she sees me and to just let her lead and to not approach her. I let her know that I had already said I wouldn't be going. That was the first time I had heard anything from her. On Monday I reached out and told her I was going to be in a therapy appointment that morning but afterwards if she wants to meet at a safe comfortable location for her to talk and see how she feels that I have good morning to do so. She responded many hours later just saying she's not ready yet.
I had not contacted her again until yesterday. Over the weekend she had a minor mental breakdown. She self-harmed, and almost check yourself into a mental hospital. I sent her a message to Facebook so that she could choose when she wanted to read it. the message just said I'm sorry for breaking my silence, I just want you to know you are loved deeply and I wish I could be there for her, but I understand why I can't. I went on to say she should feel no obligation to respond. Which she didn't, and that's fine.
In a week, Ann and I will be taking a hiatus from non-monogamy for a month as a way to strengthen our rocky relationship, and recenter with each other. Rene knows about this, she's upset to be losing Ann for a month. I have no idea what her feelings are towards me. And now Ann is becoming justifiably annoyed because she's finding herself in the middle of this. I know Rene feels that I'm partially to blame for this hiatus, and now she is angry with me about that as well. I'm beginning to feel strung along.
I'm willing to give her space and time but I feel very disregarded because she never checks in, got upset at the one time I reached out to her and I'm not allowed to talk to her about this. I really want to see her and talk to her before our hiatus, and I have no idea if that's going to happen. While we have not broken up, the relationship is done for the time being. I have no closure, and I have been given a little hope that she just needs to work through this and might come out on the other end being okay with me.
I'm here asking this particular community if anyone's been in a similar situation to mine, or if anyone thinks her behavior is abnormal, or am I just being a whiny baby I need to accept the fact that she just needs her space and is going to overcome this.
Thank you all | 2019-09-24T14:30:13.000Z | d8nzmr | 16 | 2 | ptsd | I've triggered my partner's rape PTSD and I don't know what to do (update) | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8nzmr/ive_triggered_my_partners_rape_ptsd_and_i_dont/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-24T14:28:18.000Z | d8nyqi | 0 | 1 | ptsd | PTSD from my dad's funeral | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8nyqi/ptsd_from_my_dads_funeral/ |
Streetquats | My trauma involves rape, assault, child abuse and domestic abuse as an adult. It feels like everyday on reddit I read about a new pedophile ring exposed, a new public figure abusing kids etc. And then in my own life it feels like every woman I meet has been abused in some way or another (whether as an adult or as a child).
I know in my logical brain that men are abused as well, that women CAN be abusers (my mom was one), and that not all men are inherently abusive. The following is my thoughts that I’m having a hard time reality checking and they’re really upsetting me:
I’m beginning to feel more and more that sexually abusing children is “normal” and “happens to everyone” and that maybe all men are inherently/secretly abusive? I fear that secretly all men are attracted to young women/teens/pre teens and that the only thing stopping most men is that they know it’s illegal? In so many cultures around the world, child marriage used to be the norm, and very young women and girls were sought for marriage etc.
I feel like my worldview is very small because I only have one friend and she was abused as a child too. My worldview is DEFINITELY being influenced by my trauma and I’m looking for places online that I can read about normal and healthy childhoods. Do they exist?? Did anyone really grow up without ANY abuse or unhealthy behaviors? It’s hard for me to believe, I don’t really “buy it”.
There are so many subreddits for people to talk about their experiences being raised by abusers etc and I really wish I could find a subreddit about normal healthy experiences so I can reassure myself that healthy normal men ACTUALLY exist. I KNOW in my smart brain that not all men are abusive! But my trauma is always whispering “maybe they are abusers”
Again, I know in my logical brain that non-abusive men exist, and this is my trauma speaking. I would love to hear from men and woman about this, if anyone has had similar experiences as me in how their trauma shapes their perception. | 2019-09-24T13:46:14.000Z | d8nf4o | 36 | 83 | ptsd | How Trauma Shapes my perception of the world (men, children, “what’s normal” etc). | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8nf4o/how_trauma_shapes_my_perception_of_the_world_men/ |
levissy | I am a college student. I have PtSd and I find it really hard being attentive in class and really understand the lectures.
Can self-studying somehow help with PTSD and possibly treating it?? | 2019-09-24T10:11:28.000Z | d8l42r | 7 | 5 | ptsd | Can self-studying in general help me with treating PTSD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8l42r/can_selfstudying_in_general_help_me_with_treating/ |
ConfusionIn20s | Ive recently been through something traumatic. Brought lots up. Having a difficult time with physical & mental health. I have a weird feeling. Idk maybe I’m losing it. | 2019-09-24T06:50:09.000Z | d8jgy1 | 11 | 2 | ptsd | How am I supposed to know if I was sexually abused? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8jgy1/how_am_i_supposed_to_know_if_i_was_sexually_abused/ |
ladyintweed | When I come across a relatively large trigger, I like to call what happens next a “ptsd episode” where I’m screaming, yelling, throwing myself into walls, and
feel 1000% out of control. Like a small child throwing a temper tantrum, but it’s me, a grown adult woman, absolutely knee deep in tears and trauma without any idea of what I need to contain it. What do you call it? What are your experiences? It doesn’t feel like there are enough words in the English language to describe what an “episode” feels like to me.
EDIT: I realize I should specify that I’ve been diagnosed with cptsd. not sure if that makes a difference but who knows! | 2019-09-24T05:19:52.000Z | d8iorm | 2 | 3 | ptsd | Episodes | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8iorm/episodes/ |
Sweetwill_petal | I (F22) was diagnosed with PTSD this year after battling symptoms for months and being misdiagnosed. I also have another health condition that is manageable provided I take regular medication, am conscious of my diet and make sure I get enough rest overall.
I also graduated with uni and somehow managed to do well getting first-class honours. Prior to getting diagnosed, I felt I was an ambitious person but now I feel my priority is just getting by alive. People around me expect me to land a prestigious, high-paying job and part of me wants that for myself but truth be told, I also know I need to prioritize healing. I never thought my priority choosing a job would be whether I would be able to get paid medical leave, whether they would let me take half the day off to go for therapy etc.
Has anyone been in a similar position? How do you negotiate your different priorities while job hunting? Thanks for any help | 2019-09-24T02:58:53.000Z | d8hac2 | 2 | 2 | ptsd | Need advice about starting career | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8hac2/need_advice_about_starting_career/ |
throwawaybunnyrabbit | so, I've already been diagnosed with PTSD from something else, but idk what to do about this
I've had really really fucked up mental health since I was in kindergarten. I took a relatively large dose of Ablify for a 7 year old, and have random triggers that I have NO clue why they make me absolutly terrified
idk if I was molested or raped when I was little. I'm definitely hyper sexual, and have been since I was _tiny_
I only recently, like 2ish months ago, remembered something that I think might of been the cause? I only remember like. 30 seconds. in very vague detail. I dont know if my brain is making it up and I'm just confused?
I told my boyfriend when I was drunk, and hes been abused that way too. ngl I dont remeber all I said but he was like "yeah I felt the same way when I was remembering"
with my other abuse trauma I still have major memory gaps. but significant events I I remeber in like horrid detail, but only snippets of other parts
I'm scared to talk to my dr. i dont really know what to do | 2019-09-24T00:39:49.000Z | d8fnw5 | 2 | 2 | ptsd | I dont know? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8fnw5/i_dont_know/ |
HunterRuu | For the longest time I hated myself and what I became through my abuse and PTSD. I was also mourning the loss of who I used to be. I had written about a character that was strong, and brave, and didn't let anything fool her. I just wanted to be like my character. I couldn't see past the trauma.
I got an amazing boyfriend, who just recently became my husband, and during the time we were engaged I couldn't feel excited about it. I was! But I just wished he could have known who I was before, he would love me even more, and I wouldn't be a burden. (My words not his, he loves me to death!)
Anyway, the excitement of impending marriage and the eventual marriage sparked something in me.... Healing. I'm finally starting to heal! I'm finally starting to try to be who I want to be, despite some temporary set backs. I do still have PTSD.
Sorry if this is a long read, but I was definitely one of those people that read other posts like this one and thought. "Yeah right. You can't heal from PTSD!" But you guys!!! I'm actually, sort of, making a little progress into managing this!! Just wanted to share I guess!! | 2019-09-23T23:58:06.000Z | d8f5vs | 1 | 2 | ptsd | I finally want to be myself again! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8f5vs/i_finally_want_to_be_myself_again/ |
apathetic666johnson | One of my worst symptoms of PTSD is hypervigilance. If I'm fueling my car or getting some snacks at a store for example, going into the corner store, navigating the crowd, keeping track of the noises and standing in line while listening and keeping tabs on \*everything\* going on around me is not only the perfect recipe for a panic attack, but it also draws unwanted attention from mostly suspicious workers.
I walk in and scope the place out as quickly as possible and try to keep my eyes down and avoid eye contact, but I've been told that although I think I'm not looking at people my eyes jerk side to side for a millisecond, so I imagine I come off as an incredibly shady person. I'm awful at going with the natural flow of people in stores, I can never predict correctly how people are going to move and I can't easily flow through it like everyone else does, so that's just one more way I make myself stand out like a sore thumb.
The worst part is that store attendants come up to me and block whatever I'm doing to "ask" if I need any help. The amount of urgency they say it and how intensely they stare makes me question their authenticity, I'm 75% sure its because they're mistaking my nervousness for shop lifting, and it makes me feel really hopeless. All my friends who are loads chiller than me say no one ever talks to them in stores, so I've decided it has to be because of my issues. I'm wanting to know, anyone else have this problem? | 2019-09-23T23:10:00.000Z | d8el1l | 3 | 6 | ptsd | Does anyone else's hypervigilance draw unwanted attention from others onto themselves? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8el1l/does_anyone_elses_hypervigilance_draw_unwanted/ |
hufflepups | I know it's my brains way of protecting me
I know I'm not ready or able to cope with it
But guess what? I know it happened. I've had blips of it. The feelings I experienced
I'll never be ready enough. I just want to know so I can heal and move on
Guys.... I'm not doing good and just feel like giving up
Does it ever get easier/ better?
I feel like the only way forward is to remember it ALL (there's lots of crap I do remember which messed me up) | 2019-09-23T22:35:22.000Z | d8e4np | 18 | 15 | ptsd | I just want to remember | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8e4np/i_just_want_to_remember/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T21:20:43.000Z | d8d4ec | 0 | 1 | ptsd | I'm so tired of the nightmares. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8d4ec/im_so_tired_of_the_nightmares/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T20:43:52.000Z | d8cluv | 43 | 180 | ptsd | Anyone else live an almost entirely solitary life? | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8cluv/anyone_else_live_an_almost_entirely_solitary_life/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T16:35:54.000Z | d88zom | 2 | 7 | ptsd | Help with writing my narrative & using it to combat noise anxiety? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d88zom/help_with_writing_my_narrative_using_it_to_combat/ |
[deleted] | What do you do when it gets too difficult and your mind won't leave the place that's hurting you? I feel like I'm stuck and I just keep seeing people I know that have passed and all the bullshit from before is seeping through the cracks. They're all dead and I'm still stuck here trying to survive and not lose their memory. | 2019-09-23T15:30:12.000Z | d8834q | 3 | 37 | ptsd | It's like a cloud and it doesn't stop shadowing me. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8834q/its_like_a_cloud_and_it_doesnt_stop_shadowing_me/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T15:16:44.000Z | d87wjj | 8 | 10 | ptsd | PTSD and Entrepreneurship? Is it even possible? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d87wjj/ptsd_and_entrepreneurship_is_it_even_possible/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T14:10:12.000Z | d871mn | 2 | 3 | ptsd | How to pull yourself out of it when it gets bad | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d871mn/how_to_pull_yourself_out_of_it_when_it_gets_bad/ |
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* [10 Tips to Understand PTSD](http://healmyptsd.com/10-tips)
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## Insomnia
* [Self help for insomnia](http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/insomnia/Pages/insomniatips.aspx) | 2019-09-23T11:07:34.000Z | d8507e | 13 | 91 | ptsd | Self Help and Self Care Resources (Re-post) | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d8507e/self_help_and_self_care_resources_repost/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2019-09-23T10:42:57.000Z | d84rxc | 9 | 6 | ptsd | Is this PTSD? | 0.8 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d84rxc/is_this_ptsd/ |
mar_tara | So last week I got triggered and somehow remembered unknown fragments of my sexual abuse. It just catapulted me way back and I haven't been to work for the whole week, trying to deal with the sht that came at me unexpectedly.
So yeah I don't feel like it helped calling in sick because I don't know how to cope or deal with it and I'm still searching for a therapy place so that's that. Actually I have no one I can tell and admit I fell back again except you guys. I just try to fit in and I have worked at my job for a whole year now and that's longer than I ever managed before and I really like it.
But my boss came to me today and asked about last week and I call in sick a lot. I don't know how to deal with the shame now and feel like I have to quit again because I can't tell what really makes me sick.
So yeah I feel like I'm failing all over again and don't know how to fking manage my mind and work life and somehow heal and I hate it.
I don't look for help here, I just wanted to rant. I'm exhausted from myself. | 2019-09-23T09:20:57.000Z | d842xj | 0 | 6 | ptsd | RANT - Feeling like failing all over again | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d842xj/rant_feeling_like_failing_all_over_again/ |
[deleted] | Hi all, I was wondering if anyone else is struggling on finding/keeping a job because of their PTSD? I’m currently unemployed and have been since getting together with my husband. He lost his job in July due to the company he worked for going bankrupt and hasn’t found anything else yet. He’s always told me I didn’t have to work if I didn’t want to, but now I’m feeling an increased pressure from myself to find a job to help out. Except I mentally can’t bring myself to do it. I’ve looked at jobs and every time I think about applying for one, my mind starts playing different, awful scenarios that involve me getting hurt or killed. I panic and then give up on the job search. I wish I could do something more, but just being in a public setting triggers me. I can’t even go to any kind of store without feeling like something terrible is going to happen to me. | 2019-09-23T07:07:28.000Z | d830yk | 12 | 23 | ptsd | PTSD preventing me from working. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d830yk/ptsd_preventing_me_from_working/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T07:06:49.000Z | d830ru | 0 | 1 | ptsd | Troubles with connecting with people and making friends | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d830ru/troubles_with_connecting_with_people_and_making/ |
aconfusedflower | null | 2019-09-23T04:38:15.000Z | d81pqy | 4 | 2 | ptsd | DAE have trouble distinguishing emotional feeling from physical feeling? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d81pqy/dae_have_trouble_distinguishing_emotional_feeling/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T04:23:44.000Z | d81kp3 | 1 | 2 | ptsd | Help me understand what happened | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d81kp3/help_me_understand_what_happened/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T03:24:00.000Z | d80yzg | 0 | 1 | ptsd | Alcohol? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d80yzg/alcohol/ |
appilappi | I always like to walk away from. I don’t know why. How do I stop? Does anybody else experience this too? | 2019-09-23T03:05:36.000Z | d80rwb | 4 | 1 | ptsd | I get a kick out of dropping people, what is wrong with me? | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d80rwb/i_get_a_kick_out_of_dropping_people_what_is_wrong/ |
nottrynnaexist | Title basically says it all.
I just want to know if this goes through anyone else’s mind when they see a Dad and daughter or brother and sister in public (or really any two family members together). I think bc my family has a history of incestual sexual abuse, I just can’t help but wonder how common it really is... | 2019-09-23T02:38:14.000Z | d80gyb | 25 | 98 | ptsd | DAE ever see a father and daughter in public and wonder if he’s abusing her? | 0.93 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d80gyb/dae_ever_see_a_father_and_daughter_in_public_and/ |
[deleted] | I have had a diagnosis of PTSD for over a decade.
When I was younger I wanted to fight. I took anger and pain from my trauma and channeled it into working on myself and the world and creating a better life.
I met my husband and it was cloud nine.
I lost him in Dec 2017 and there was just, like, buckets of trauma around this. I was the one who told the nurse when to give him morphine and Ativan and held him while he died.
I am theoretically better than I was at the beginning of 2018 but... I want to retreat from the world.
If I could realistically take my dog and go live in a cave, maybe with a goat, or take a vow of silence and join a monastery, i would in a heartbeat. I don't want to be part of this brutal world. I don't want to keep trying.
I skipped out on responsibilities on Saturday. Today I went to a book sale with a friend and led a religious ritual and I just want to hide under my bed. I don't want to go to work. I want to get on a train to nowhere and wear a hair shirt in a cave and not deal with society.
I've talked to my therapist where my only ever real fully realized emotional bond was with my husband but that just makes me feel more alone and empty in this horrible world. | 2019-09-23T01:16:48.000Z | d7zje5 | 3 | 3 | ptsd | I want to retreat | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7zje5/i_want_to_retreat/ |
LolaFrisbeePirate | I had a night are the other night and I've been thinking about it for around 2hours then I was triggered by something and I'm wide awake with intrusive thoughts. I can't find much help online to break them. I just want to sleep and escape the thoughts but I can't. It's then making other thoughts resurface. Then I think of self harm as a distraction but know that's not ok either. Argh. I'm so frustrated by it all. | 2019-09-23T01:16:24.000Z | d7zj8c | 6 | 11 | ptsd | It's 2am and I can't break the intrusive thoughts | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7zj8c/its_2am_and_i_cant_break_the_intrusive_thoughts/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T01:09:16.000Z | d7zgdp | 0 | 1 | ptsd | sex scenes on tv | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7zgdp/sex_scenes_on_tv/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-23T00:02:26.000Z | d7yoix | 4 | 17 | ptsd | Glanced at my abuser's twitter account, and..... | 0.96 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7yoix/glanced_at_my_abusers_twitter_account_and/ |
misskateha | Several years ago I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I have gone through years of therapy, medication, and other help. I felt great and was going on with life until an unexpected relationship popped into my life. Things went fast, feel in love, but he pushed me away. That’s when it triggered me. I told my therapist and for the last few months I’ve been having the worst time with anxiety and depression. I lost my dog a month ago and again it triggered. I’ve been feeling out of control and scared. Everyone I talk to doesn’t understand and I feel like I’m not getting any validation or good support. My therapists has been helping me get through it, but it’s so gut wrenching and miserable getting through what seems like a process. I never knew I could have ptsd with abandonment. I thought i was doing so good and now it feels like a setback. I’m going to keep moving forward and working on getting through this. I’m just so scared and feel so weak. | 2019-09-22T23:11:28.000Z | d7y35b | 4 | 2 | ptsd | Ptsd with abandonment, feeling alone | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7y35b/ptsd_with_abandonment_feeling_alone/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T23:04:48.000Z | d7y0cc | 5 | 2 | ptsd | My Intervention and Need for Insight | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7y0cc/my_intervention_and_need_for_insight/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T20:20:38.000Z | d7vxsg | 2 | 13 | ptsd | PTSD from husband almost dying? | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7vxsg/ptsd_from_husband_almost_dying/ |
amatamaria | I struggle with feeling like my trauma is valid, that I’m just making a big deal about nothing and should be able to move on but can’t. I think I was being groomed as a young teenager, but the man was caught by my parents and he was removed from my life before anything advanced to more of a criminal level. Does anyone else know what I mean by this—I feel like I was so manipulated, but because “nothing happened”, I don’t feel like I have grounds for being traumatized or for having people see what happened as abuse. I’m not sure I can even call it abuse. Since it didn’t escalate, I feel like I can never know for sure what his intent was. I saw a counselor for a couple of months about a year ago, and she told me she was billing my insurance for our sessions as PTSD treatment. I struggle to know what to make of it all. I’m in a lot of pain, and I can’t escape my mind thinking about it pretty much every single day. | 2019-09-22T20:19:16.000Z | d7vx3x | 5 | 8 | ptsd | Possible child grooming “caught in time”—anyone have a similar experience? | 0.91 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7vx3x/possible_child_grooming_caught_in_timeanyone_have/ |
confusedkidinasuit22 | i'm so tired of symptoms associated with trauma. there's so much and it's gone on for years so i feel like i'm never going to process it properly and live a normal life.
any words of hope appreciated i'm having a bad day :( | 2019-09-22T20:04:15.000Z | d7vprv | 3 | 8 | ptsd | so tired | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7vprv/so_tired/ |
coffeemuffins | Things aren't going well in therapy. I've done EMDR on several traumas. I'm struggling with flashbacks of one. Therapist says the EMDR should have worked.
I'm struggling with body image. I know I'm a healthy weight but I have so many feelings of wanting to be thinner. She told me to get some excersise dvds and do sit ups. I dont think thats helpful.
My depression has been extra bad lately. She tells me I should be happy because I have a good husband and a job with good benefits. I know I have those things. It doesnt stop me from being depressed.
I don't know if I need to be forward with her that lately she isnt helping . I dont even know how to do that. | 2019-09-22T18:48:41.000Z | d7uobc | 1 | 2 | ptsd | Therapist isnt helping anymore | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7uobc/therapist_isnt_helping_anymore/ |
Salmon_Of_Iniquity | I meet my therapist every Thursday for the past five years. Never missed a session and it’s really starting to pay off.
My kids are enjoying my company and feeling safe to be themselves. They feel free to talk about their emotions with me and there’s more laughter in my family. I’m getting my life back and I feel happier everyday. It’s wonderful.
The recovery method isn’t hard to do or hard to understand. And the process of PTSD are understandable and have a logical and rational underpinning.
I’m saying this to you because if I can recover then you can too.
You can do this. You got this. | 2019-09-22T15:27:16.000Z | d7rwsd | 2 | 19 | ptsd | Steady forward progress | 0.96 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7rwsd/steady_forward_progress/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T09:07:04.000Z | d7o0ys | 3 | 5 | ptsd | Could really need somebody to talk to | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7o0ys/could_really_need_somebody_to_talk_to/ |
CrystalineOmission45 | Had a bad episode and a strong flashback. Now my whole body hurts. My skin burns under the surface. | 2019-09-22T07:35:10.000Z | d7nbeo | 0 | 4 | ptsd | Struggling to sleep | 0.84 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7nbeo/struggling_to_sleep/ |
[deleted] | i mean i hate the nightmares, both ones about the traumatic situation and just the general tendency i have towards really intense, scary dreams. but way worse is having a dream where i'm dating the guy who assaulted me and it's a perfectly nice and happy relationship, and then i wake up and remember what he actually did and i feel so disgusted with him and my subconscious and the dream version of myself who apparently forgot all that. we were never even in a relationship in real life.
bad start to my morning right here | 2019-09-22T07:05:04.000Z | d7n2v7 | 5 | 13 | ptsd | dreams that are somehow worse than nightmares | 0.94 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7n2v7/dreams_that_are_somehow_worse_than_nightmares/ |
CrystalineOmission45 | want to stay in a bathtub all the time. I feel like I'm always in the bath. How do you handle binging or self deprivation if you struggle with that? I disassociate and over / under eat or struggle to sleep or be coordinated physically which leads to me often accidentally injuring myself. | 2019-09-22T07:05:01.000Z | d7n2uu | 7 | 6 | ptsd | Does anyone else... | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7n2uu/does_anyone_else/ |
GrungeGuinea | Does anyone else sometimes forget they have PTSD?
It's not as extreme as it sounds. Like I'll forget I have PTSD but then I'll try to think about my past & then remember that my memory really sucks. & I just feel kind of empty... Not in a boohoo way, in more of an accepting way. Like okay let's move on from this now. | 2019-09-22T06:35:45.000Z | d7mues | 0 | 3 | ptsd | Memories | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7mues/memories/ |
HopefulLesbian | I've been having some trouble controlling my PTSD lately and I was wondering if there were any good apps that could help me manage it when I'm in public or just not at therapy in general. I only see my therapist once a week so for the other 6 days, I need some help with it.
Ps you guys are amazing and super supportive and this sub has helped me a lot | 2019-09-22T05:27:52.000Z | d7m9od | 5 | 4 | ptsd | Does anyone know any good apps to help them with this disorder? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7m9od/does_anyone_know_any_good_apps_to_help_them_with/ |
ray7989 | So short version: I have cptsd and often get angry easily or in situations I don’t necessarily need to be. In the moment of anger, my mind just starts racing and I don’t feel like calming myself down, and even after the moment le instance that caused my anger I can’t bring myself to calm myself down, being angry just feels too good. Any tips for how to shut that down in the moment and chill out? I take cbd daily and meditate to help me with this, but in the moment it’s harder to do those.
Longer version is a story from today, no need to read just more of an additional part/rant lol. My brother is extremely close to me and many of the traumatic events I’ve been through he has gone through with me. I often have trouble not feeling a sense of responsibility over him or being too overprotective, when in reality he is an adult as am I and makes his own decisions. Im working on that separation and letting go of the control I feel I need. However, his roommate is a jerk and has a huge ego and is manipulative, which heavily weighs on my brother because of its effects on him and that leads me to immediately feel anger towards him. There’s been many times of intrusive thoughts of beating up or humiliating his roommate because of the slight wrongdoings or disrespect he does to my brother. Anyway today, as I was driving my brother back to his place, he gets a text from his roommate saying the police showed up at their apartment. My brother calls him to figure it out, and the roommate is extremely vague and not up front. Hearing this next to me, I’m increasingly growing angry and adrenaline starts going. I convince my brother to let me go in his apartment with him to talk to his roommate, in which I cannot help but stare him down and raise my voice at him. We even began yelling, and he said to me I’m not about to be talked to that way, and if my brother didn’t yell at me to shut up and stop talking (and if I didn’t have respect for my brother lol) I would have told him to step outside with me and fight me and then probably would have just straight up attacked him in the apartment. The feelings I got in my body were so intense, my arms, torso, legs, all of it just adrenaline going nuts all over. Luckily, the situation diffused, and we ended up apologizing and all that. But for the next hour, I could not stop zoning out into intrusive thoughts of violence towards him, or revisiting the situation in my head, or even just other random intrusive memories and such. Took lots of cbd and being distracted by a meeting with my roommates to chill out lol. I’d love to be able to calm myself in the situation instead of an hour or two after lol. If anyone has anything that works for them I’d love to hear, thanks! | 2019-09-22T04:08:37.000Z | d7lj1m | 4 | 7 | ptsd | Tips on how to deal with anger ? | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7lj1m/tips_on_how_to_deal_with_anger/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T03:26:23.000Z | d7l3pq | 1 | 3 | ptsd | Ever feel like you’ve lost all your progress like your life is a game? :-( | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7l3pq/ever_feel_like_youve_lost_all_your_progress_like/ |
Iam0rion | I just need to share this with someone, even if it's the internet... it feels too personal to share with my friends or family.
My dad and I dont have a very close relationship, but he calls me at night sometimes before bed. He's usually very emotional. It starts off really happy and energetic, then really sad and crying---and then up and down and up and down.
We got to a point where he said he's stopped taking the medication the VA doctors were giving him because he just feels numb...I asked him if he thought that was a good idea and I dont think he gave me a good answer but he continued on.
He started apologizing about how sorry he was for everything--this is pretty common in our conversations. I always reply, "it's okay---you dont need to feel sorry---I'm not mad at you---I love you", that sort of thing.... but I think today he was talking about being sorry for his time he served in the Gulf War (4 tours). He started talking about his dreams and how he hates going to sleep.
So stepping out of the story for a second, I'm a pretty good listener and I'm usually the go-to person my friends have when they need advice and need to talk about their problems. However I have no experience with PTSD or helping to talk someone through what they're experiencing from it.... but my dad kept hinting at the nightmares he has and how he hates sleeping. So it sounded like he wanted to share and he wanted me to give him the go ahead to do so, and in my experience talking about something that's bothering you has always been a great way of reliveing the stress of it.... so I said "do you want to tell me about them?"... and he did.
So what he shared with me was one of the most vivi and horrible sounding experiences, and theres no way I could make this sort of thing up. I would repeat it here but I dont think my words would do it justice because it wouldn't have my dad struggling through tears and sobs while trying to articulate the nightmare to me.
Why am I posting this? I dont know. I think I just wanted to share the talk I had with my dad tonight and ask you all if having him share his experience with me was the right thing to do. If you read this thank you. | 2019-09-22T03:25:14.000Z | d7l3bz | 2 | 5 | ptsd | Dad Called Me and Shared His Nightmares with Me | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7l3bz/dad_called_me_and_shared_his_nightmares_with_me/ |
CSE2K19 | [removed] | 2019-09-22T03:01:50.000Z | d7kum3 | 0 | 2 | ptsd | Those with successful treatments, how was it? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7kum3/those_with_successful_treatments_how_was_it/ |
sschwa45 | Just way too much to ask for a normal day without feeling like you need to jump out of your skin. | 2019-09-22T02:20:15.000Z | d7kex8 | 5 | 12 | ptsd | I JUST WANT TO RELAX | 0.94 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7kex8/i_just_want_to_relax/ |
_Kroni_ | I posted something here about my parent’s murder suicide a couple months ago and a lot of people commented some really nice things. It really cheered me up and left me in a good mood for a long time. Ever since then, things have been going better. I still struggle with it from time to time but I feel MUCH better than before. I recently turned 16 and I feel like things are looking up in my life after a long period of misfortune.
Again, thank you. I really appreciate it. | 2019-09-22T02:10:44.000Z | d7kb91 | 7 | 159 | ptsd | Hey. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7kb91/hey/ |
Throwawayuglyg | My half brother physically and emotionally abused me growing up, which caused me to dread going home and gave me a lot of hellish anguish. which contributed to me developing CPTSD. He has been and out of jail since he is a drug dealer and stuck with it, since his jail record screwed him over and he believed it was the only job he could do, since he is not really too bright in the head. (I believe he has some mental disorders himself) His latest jail sentence is the longest he stayed in (6 years due to being caught with a gun on him which he bought to protect himself against the thugs) and he is coming out by the end of next month and I am very very nervous about this.
Most likely because my mother (my father bailed out on me when I was a kid, sadly) is the main source of why I may have to encounter him, she doesn't respect my boundaries and wants me to forgive him and tells me how much he has suffered in jail and wants peace between all of us, I find that very selfish of her since that basically means she doesn't take my trauma and feelings of him seriously. I just think what if that wasn't her son? im very sure she wouldn't want me to be involved with someone like that if he wasn't family, even when i tell her that, she tries to rebuff it. She tells me how sorry he acted towards me and wants to see and talk to me again and how much he misses me. Even if he has "changed", the relationship between us can never be the same again, it will just be very awkward and uncomfortable to be around him, not to mention triggering. i have forgiven him in the past, and he ended up acting up again. i cant trust him. I do feel bad for him in a way though, he has lost his teeth, his health has declined, and im not sure if its true but my mom said he tried to commit suicide by hanging, I think I care for him from a distance and wish him well, but I am not ready to face him yet.
I also think in the end he made his own bad choices in the end and he many many chances to recover and change his life around, but never did. I hope I don't sound too heartless. I feel guilty sometimes of this but then I think if this was a friend or boyfriend, I would have ran away quickly, so why because he is "family" I have to feel guilty and be forced to reconcile with him?
The pro to all of this is that my other brother bought him an apartment and will help him pay his rent, so he wont be living with us. However, I know my mom will try to bring him around and try to reunite us, which I not what I want. at least not yet. I wish I could afford to move out but I can't. I have one option, an online friend I have known for years offered me a chance to move in with her and her father, I am considering this after I finish college, though I am scared to make that drastic move too.
For now I am in college getting my associates degree, my goal is to try and stay out the house and come back home late, everyday (I will try to stay in college longer until the night falls or try to find a job) in case she tries to bring him around, but then I get worried about holidays and birthdays, etc... I have no other friends or significant other, so I could hang out with/stay with a little bit to pass the time either sadly | 2019-09-22T01:51:03.000Z | d7k3w1 | 1 | 3 | ptsd | My past abuser (half -brother) is getting out of jail by the end of next month. How can I keep my distance and stay strong/cope when my enabling mother will try to bring us together? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7k3w1/my_past_abuser_half_brother_is_getting_out_of/ |
fumosi | Realised that a teenage experience had longlasting emotional impacts and upset a whole bunch of people including my brother and my boyfriend
I'm so scared. I don't know what to do.
I feel hurt and tender and upset and violated, overall horrible. | 2019-09-22T01:41:06.000Z | d7k048 | 1 | 5 | ptsd | Just had an absolute meltdown in town | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7k048/just_had_an_absolute_meltdown_in_town/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T00:32:10.000Z | d7j6q4 | 6 | 7 | ptsd | PTSD and anger management skills, any tips are highly appreciated! | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7j6q4/ptsd_and_anger_management_skills_any_tips_are/ |
agoodthinglost | Having a hard time finding other folks who have PTSD from a medical-related trauma. Seems that most of the articles I’ve found on trauma from hospital stays, surgeries, ICU, etc. (and there hasn’t been much) are fairly recent so maybe there’s never even been a place to connect? A few months ago I went to the hospital for the first time ever after having a sharp pain in my abdomen and ended up having two life saving surgeries, in septic shock. In the hospital for almost two weeks, which was hard. Definitely experiencing PTSD symptoms now and am seeing a therapist for it but finding others to talk to about it has been tough. Part of me feels like I should be over it but I’m very much haunted by what I went through. The anxiety and depression has been rough. Suggestions for groups, websites, books, etc. very much welcome. Thanks. | 2019-09-22T00:24:50.000Z | d7j35a | 8 | 9 | ptsd | Medical Trauma | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7j35a/medical_trauma/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-22T00:04:02.000Z | d7ispr | 5 | 2 | ptsd | Could this cause PTSD (possible TW)? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7ispr/could_this_cause_ptsd_possible_tw/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T23:59:54.000Z | d7iqty | 0 | 1 | ptsd | i need to stop being so afraid and fucking live. i’m tired of letting the past effect my future. i need to be free and let all the hurt go, the hurt in my heart and mind is what’s holding my back and i am tired of it stoping me from having a successful future. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7iqty/i_need_to_stop_being_so_afraid_and_fucking_live/ |
THELOSTREBORN | I don’t wanna talk about the legal matters as I’m still dealing with the situation.
My mom always has to have control over me and my dad sticks with her words no matter what.
One day it started when I was 6years old. I was just a stupid kid being a kid. I forgot what it was exactly but I remember I got my parents into a argument. The next day my dad and I are all alone in the apartment. My dad (former Army Airborne Ranger) just snapped when a made a innocent joke at that time. The only thing I remember is that he came in my room with a big kitchen knife and grinned staring at me. I thought I was gonna die. Me being 6 years old I cried a lot and pissed myself a bit. I never told my mom that story till later in life. At age 10 I was trying to be a cool uncle as my first nephew was about 6 years old and I wanted to make him laugh. So with my dad present in the room I tell my nephew watch this. So my dad comes in the room to tell me something and I called him doo doo as my nephew and I both laughed. He grinded his teeth on the bottom portion of his lip (he dips tobacco) and with a serious face he says go ahead say that one more time and you’re gonna see what’s gonna happen. Mind you him and I both started taking judo lessons so that I could bond with him and also learn to defend myself. So once again I called him a doo doo head joking around. As soon as I finish saying it he chokes me and then choke slams me in front of my nephew on this wooden bin that was on the edge of my bed. I gasped for breath as I couldn’t breath and was wondering why I’ve been hurt for once again being a kid. So while this is happening and growing up I was basically bullied from 1-6th grade. My mom never wanted to listen to my cries as she always had paperwork to attend to from her job. Always smoking cigarettes in front of me that I always smelled like smoke and clearly second hand smoked for nearly all my life. I got sick easily because of it but once I got home from the doctors or on a random day she would yell at me telling her how I cost her money every time I go to the urgent care. I don’t remember the days to be specific but there was one time where I told her I was really hungry after eating dinner which she made a big pot of food and forced me to eat it. As I was eating my second or third plate in front of my dad she was apologizing to me but I didn’t know why. At the age of 7 I believe I remember hearing the word hate on the Lizzie McGuire show but didn’t know any meaning of it. So one day when I asked my mom to take a shower she told me no and to wait till later. So I decided to tell her I hate her (without even knowing the meaning). She literally picked me up and dragged me into the hallway of our apartment and locked the door behind me (which we lived in a dangerous area which was surrounded by bloods as it was bloods territory). About 10 mins later she let me back in. One day in 7th grade I remember on my way to my grandmothers house that I left my homework in our apartment home. (My mother used to take me to my grandmothers house which I would then go to my school) She started complaining going on a rant about how she should’ve listened to grandma and never had a third child (which you guessed it was me). Later on in life my mother done all sorts of horrible s**t to me. She forced me for about a few days to go to high school with a really fractured ankle and told me I wasn’t staying home so I could play video games. Later on she took me back to the urgent care where they cursed her out because she was in the wrong and she then believed that I could stay home. Another time was I never stood over my uncle/cousins house so I asked my mom one Christmas Day if I could. Which my uncle was cool with me and he said he didn’t mind at all. So my mom said no which I ran out to the front of my grandmother porch as I flipped her off behind her back. My cousins told my mom what I did and my mom came outside asking me why I was crying. I told her it wasn’t fair and how I never got to spend time with them. She then said fair? What are you a faggot? to me. Being an adult I tried to fix up a car my dad gave me so I can use it to get to work. I knew a good mechanic because of my gfs parents and I told my parents I was willing to fix the car and pay for it like a responsible adult. They denied it and claimed how they were gonna fix it. Later on the car stalled out in the lot where we parked our cars when we got home. My parents told me how I wasn’t responsible and that how am I supposed to do things if they’re not here one day and etc etc. With all of that I kept arguing with them. I was trying to always better myself and find a job. (For the jobs where I live at you need a car as everything’s in a distance) Because of both of my parents I lost a job of helping the elderly and also special needs/cerebral palsy. I wanted to do good in the world. Still they denied me their cars or to even fix the car that I was using as I was constantly being lied to about how my dad was gonna fix the car. Because of them I lost good job opportunities, I lost best friends, I lost girlfriends, i lost my own mind. With all of this i don’t know what to do with my life. I was constantly being told how I had to be responsible and grow up but then was controlled by them both and set up for failure every time. I have bipolar disorder, ptsd (which I recently figured out), and God knows what else. I’m still trying to figure myself out. Even being incarcerated my mom lied to my girlfriend in which she told her that I didn’t want anything to do with her which I never said because #1 I love her and #2 They got me incarcerated because of a situation that happened because of my mental health. Even when arguing with them that I needed help they denied it, then told me I needed it, then denied it, and etc. My parents manipulated me to get off my meds which caused me to snap and then told me that I needed them again and so on and on and etc. It messes with your mind that you don’t know what to believe anymore. I made bail which I now have a job and are attending therapy meetings on my own and have been bailed out by gfs parents whom I’m living with currently and never had an issue. I’ve have more childhood ptsd factors that I can’t remember now because sometimes I need to dig in my brain to figure out what else it wrong with me. As of now my mother stands as a third party to a order of protection but when having my first court date was there talking to me and trying to support me. Idk if she actually does it because she loves me or is trying to get me arrested for many years making it seem as if I’m ignoring the order of protection (which I’m not). My minds so boggled I ask why am I even living. Not one thing I’ve done has made my mom happy. If I played video games she would blame me saying how video games are destroying my life. For every girlfriend I had (which I’m with my one true love rn) she always tells me how they’re bad for me (when my gf was the one to tell me what type of problems I do have). My mom didn’t like me smoking weed but decided to tell me to get off my meds and bought it for me as a replacement. Now I’m in this predicament waiting for another court case. Yes I’m working. Yes I have therapy appointments. Yes I’m currently living with my gf and her parents. Yes I’m back on my meds everyday and just waiting to go back to the Drs to get another med or two to help me out. I had to write this truth, my story, because I live in a constant fear and anger. I don’t know if my parents really care about me and are trying stop the case (which my mother told me it was the DAs doing not theirs as they “dropped the charges”. I don’t believe them then I do but I believe my parents are trying to get rid of me completely. They never wanted to understand my condition but then want to compare me to my uncle who’s in a folk home after being in a institution or my oldest brother who had two domestic violence records against him and has his own set of problems. I write this to the public because I’m afraid of what is going to happen to me. I feel like they’re setting me up again. | 2019-09-21T22:51:04.000Z | d7hs6z | 18 | 12 | ptsd | My dad physically hurt me. My mom constantly mentally abuses me. And because they denied me my help I ended up in jail because of them. | 0.93 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7hs6z/my_dad_physically_hurt_me_my_mom_constantly/ |
[deleted] | My doctor has prescribed me Mirtazapine for my PTSD/anxiety. I have been on Seroquel, lamotragine, wellbutrin, prozac, paxil, and others. All of them gave me some kind of horrible side effect (sleep paralysis, full body rash, worse suicidal thoughts..) My anxiety is consistently at a 7 or 8 out of 10 and I don't want to continue living with such high anxiety.
Has anyone been on mirtazapine before? What can you tell me? | 2019-09-21T20:07:52.000Z | d7fjb6 | 11 | 2 | ptsd | Mirtazapine (Remeron) for PTSD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7fjb6/mirtazapine_remeron_for_ptsd/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T19:59:01.000Z | d7ff4d | 0 | 1 | ptsd | Anyone else have nightmares about or fear of locks not working/someone breaking in? I don’t know if these nightmares will ever go away. (trigger warning) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7ff4d/anyone_else_have_nightmares_about_or_fear_of/ |
lynthecupcake | It just sucks when you know that so many young people (middle school to early high school) tend to pretend they have mental disorders for attention. Then, you're suddenly professionally diagnosed with something like PTSD and you can't tell teachers or anything because way too many people will assume you're pretending for attention. I hate my peers.
I'm fourteen now, was diagnosed with PTSD a few months before my birthday. That's so young for a diagnosis like this. I shouldn't be having constant memories of the past, I'm fourteen! I should be out having fun or doing classwork. This disorder is ruining my life, and people constantly make fun of it.
I just wanted to know if I was the only young person here. If you're older now, how old were you when you were diagnosed? | 2019-09-21T18:28:55.000Z | d7e875 | 7 | 14 | ptsd | Any young people ashamed of their diagnosis? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7e875/any_young_people_ashamed_of_their_diagnosis/ |
lavendermerwitchmama | "Healing doesn't have to be a tight ropewalk. We don't need to drag ourselves through the mud and endure constant suffering in the name of growth. Life will always be serving up lessons and we have to make a choice. We can see the challenges put in front of us as evidence there's something wrong with us, or we can see them as opportunities to sharpen our inner-trust and and deepen in self-love.
Life isn't trying to break you down,
it's trying to break you open."
-RisingWoman | 2019-09-21T18:02:23.000Z | d7dvrz | 0 | 4 | ptsd | The seed must first split open before it can sprout | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7dvrz/the_seed_must_first_split_open_before_it_can/ |
061300 | I can’t handle guns. Like not just the noises but seeing them or seeing people talking about them, or talking about people getting shot, just all of it. Even as a joke. But guns are in everything, and people use shooting mentions and references in conversations and as jokes constantly. I’ve had so many breakdowns and panic attacks over this and never learned how to cope with it because it’s so bad.
Bunnies used to be a trigger of mine too, and I actually learned to cope with that one because it was manageable. But when you are constantly being triggered by something you can’t exactly do that... slowly getting used to it thing? And especially with something that’s explicitly used for violence/death. | 2019-09-21T17:59:56.000Z | d7dul7 | 8 | 4 | ptsd | Does anyone else have wildly common triggers? How do you deal with them? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7dul7/does_anyone_else_have_wildly_common_triggers_how/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T17:33:17.000Z | d7die8 | 3 | 2 | ptsd | the child of a parent with cancer | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7die8/the_child_of_a_parent_with_cancer/ |
uhhhj_what | My therapist told me that we should, as a family, try to eat together once a week. It would help with food issues and with my avoidance of the dinner table. Well it started Well today, then my Sister played some christmas music and made jokes about my brother Who had a panic attack over that. Then my Sister said she was goin to leave and that just broke me down completely. I don't know why but we as a family just can't do normal family Things yet. It makes me so sad that a simple family dinner at the dinner table can be so Hard for us. | 2019-09-21T17:09:37.000Z | d7d7io | 0 | 1 | ptsd | Family dinner | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7d7io/family_dinner/ |
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[deleted] | Warning, long and details on witnessed flashback resulting from sexual abuse.
Both of us were sexually abused by our stepdad, for me it was 5 years, her, 3 years, it started for her when it stopped for me. That was more than a year ago, I’m now 19 and she’s 17, we’re both in a good place and haven’t spoken to him for almost a year.
I’ve been smoking weed since I was 14, and I’ve found it to be a good time & help my nightmares so long as I’m prepared. Meaning, I have to be in a good state of mind when I smoke.
I’ve been a stoner throughout all of high school, and most of my experience with weed has been positive, I even have a medical card.
I’ve had weed paranoia before, but not to the degree my sister was at last night.
Her boyfriend’s the one who smoked her up for the first time, a few months ago, and described the way she acts to me as “crackhead”,”tweaking”, etc.
I thought he was probably overreacting and I assumed she was just really loud or expressive when she’s high.
Last night, she asked if she could hit my dab pen, that she’s hit her boyfriend’s before and she wanted to get high with me. I told her just one hit, I took three, and everything was alright:
We were watching videos, eating food, but we heard the neighbors up stairs, the kid was crying and it sounded like the dad was chasing the kid, making “monster” noises. “I’m gonna get you!” Type stuff.
It made her get really quiet, she looked around like she heard someone getting beaten, shaken. I explained to her that it sounded like parents just playing with their kids, it didn’t sound like anyone was hurt.
She kept saying, “I didn’t like that”, and my boyfriend called me.
He and I were having problems that day, and I talked it out with him right there, on the phone, high.
Things between us are smooth.
But anyways, while I was talking to him on the phone, my sister laid down next to me, her face in a pillow.
Her boyfriend called her, she was talking to him, saying “I don’t like what I hear, help me, help me, help me!”
She started screaming “no!” And hid behind her pillow and started whining.
I said, “(her name), it’s me, your big sister, (my name),I’m not gonna hurt you.” I touched her shoulder but she swatted me away, screaming “no, no, no!”
And she started rocking back and forth, so I took her phone and explained to her boyfriend that it might be her PTSD. He said she always does this when she’s high, I just told him he shouldn’t smoke her up anymore, in public or at home.
I was going to take her to see him that night, so I just told him I’d text him when she calmed down & when we would be on the way. I look at the text messages, she’s texted him random things. One thing she sent him was something I thought was funny while we were watching videos earlier, she also sent a bunch of random letters and numbers, just spamming him with texts that didn’t make sense.
When she calmed down, I gave her a hug, and told her I couldn’t smoke her up anymore. She said she was okay with it, but called her boyfriend, she was angry with him.
She said she sent all of that because he wouldn’t answer. But I understand why he didn’t, if my boyfriend was acting that way id be too scared to answer too.
They argued, i wasn’t listening in but it sounded petty.
Finally, i heard a silence and then her saying, “... I’ll be there soon.”
As if she’s about to prove a point, like a villain threatening revenge.
Obviously, I know this just simply means she shouldn’t do drugs, ever. But as far as why? I have no clue. I have a PTSD diagnosis as well, but I don’t act like that way at all when I’m high. She genuinely gave me chills, almost the whole time. It felt like more of a psychological break than a flashback, but what do you guys think?
Is this normal? | 2019-09-21T16:49:39.000Z | d7cy7b | 6 | 6 | ptsd | My sister gets flashbacks while high on weed, but I don’t? We have the same diagnosis. | 0.87 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7cy7b/my_sister_gets_flashbacks_while_high_on_weed_but/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T16:32:15.000Z | d7cq3j | 5 | 16 | ptsd | What are your flashbacks like and how do you recover from them? | 0.91 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7cq3j/what_are_your_flashbacks_like_and_how_do_you/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T16:23:48.000Z | d7cm5f | 0 | 1 | ptsd | struggling | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7cm5f/struggling/ |
throwaway0706199 | Please don’t send any anti-medication messages, I can’t live the way I am anymore so I’m trying out medication so I can get better.
I’m just on half a dose right now, but I’ve been super sick. Lucky me, I also got a viral sore throat (unrelated to the meds), so on top of the nausea and dry mouth, my throat is swollen. I keep waking up wired with anxiety and insomnia, feeling like I’m choking for air. My doctor said it would probably be around 2 weeks before I start to feel better and the side effects even out. I’m just kind of down right now because I feel so sick. Nausea, shaky hands, dry mouth, sleeping problems.
I could just use some words of encouragement or even some tips to manage the side effects while they’re here.
(Obviously if after 2 weeks I don’t feel better I will talk to my doctor about it) | 2019-09-21T14:35:54.000Z | d7b9in | 16 | 4 | ptsd | Starting Zoloft. Need some words of encouragement. | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7b9in/starting_zoloft_need_some_words_of_encouragement/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T14:22:27.000Z | d7b3of | 0 | 1 | ptsd | wish my dad was there for me throughout these years (sorry for the rant) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7b3of/wish_my_dad_was_there_for_me_throughout_these/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T13:32:55.000Z | d7aj8w | 3 | 2 | ptsd | Nightmares | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7aj8w/nightmares/ |
peri_5xg | Is it a common occurrence with sufferers of PTSD to be in denial? I am positive my close friend suffers from it but he is absolutely adamant he doesn’t have it. I’m worried he is never going to get well if he doesn’t disclose his past to his doctors and get treatment specifically for PTSD. What can I do as a friend to help him? | 2019-09-21T12:18:16.000Z | d79rwv | 9 | 4 | ptsd | PTSD denial & misdiagnoses | 0.84 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d79rwv/ptsd_denial_misdiagnoses/ |
journey1992 | Anyone else realize their constant shortness of breath was a trauma response/anxiety not allergies?
I have allergies so in the past, I always thought when I was experiencing shortness of breath because of allergy induced asthma. I also am anemic so I know that can cause shortness of breath. These are definitely reasons I have difficulty breathing sometimes, however, I’ve begun to realize how much trauma has played a role in the breathing.
Recently, I’ve been more mindful of my breath and I noticed it changes through out the day. If I am triggered (which is constantly), I will often hold in my breath or start having shortness of breath/ difficulty breathing. If I try to calm myself down with meditation and deep breaths, my breathing can become easier. When I take cbd oil, I notice my breathing becomes easier because it turns down my fight or flight response that leads to shortness of breath. After sleeping, I notice my breath is better as well. So really a lot of this shortness of breath was due to trauma. I even got tested for sleep apnea recently because I noticed the difficulty of breathing and how I would stop breathing but I didn’t have sleep apnea.
Wow! So now I am really going to try to focus on my breathing and pursue Breath Work.
Anyone relate? | 2019-09-21T12:10:48.000Z | d79peb | 3 | 7 | ptsd | Anyone else realize their constant shortness of breath was a trauma response/anxiety not allergies? | 0.82 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d79peb/anyone_else_realize_their_constant_shortness_of/ |
tobecontinued89 | Hi everyone! Just wanted to share this moment. I've been having hard time for quite a while, and today I woke up actually rested and refreshed! I know that everyone has problems sleeping or not getting enough, but I feel that people with PTSD can appreciate this especially well. I am on sleep meds, so I have been getting enough hours of sleep, but even so I haven't woken refreshed in a long time. I had practical issues, and big changes going on, and I was off my meds and then starting them again... adjusting to new doses and so on. There has been a lot going on, and so for months even after sleeping 8h I still wake up wanting to go to bed immediately. There have been a lot of unsettling dreams or just sleeping a lot and still being tired, dragging through my days, needing to write down all small tasks like do the dishes so I make sure I do anything. A lot of time in bed especially with fatigue while getting back on my PTSD meds. A lot of practical problems making me dreading waking up. And since I was tired all the time every small issue feeling bigger.
And then today I woke rested and refreshed! My room was still messy from the tiring day yesterday, I still have issues to deal with, the weather is still colder and that affects me... but all these things didn't feel as hard and problematic to cope with as yesterday. I didn't feel the need to be horizontal right away after breakfast like I have had for weeks. I was feeling light, rested, restless in a good way, and did dishes and cleaned up after myself without having to think about it or schedule it. There is LACK of the usual heaviness and anxiety in my body and the last time I felt like this must've been 3 months ago, last time I remember. My body feels so much more relaxed that it constantly strickes me as odd, that's how long it's been since I felt this way. I am actually smiling writing this. I haven't felt like I have energy in so long, I was starting to feel all the resting and being in bed was a big my fault,being lazy or something- and now I am sharply reminded what normal energy feels like. Now that I have some, I don't feel like being in bed. I can actually think more clearly, I have enough energy to want to do things. It's amazing feeling. I just wanted to share to everyone struggling with sleep on here. It can get better:). (And I know- I'm taking sleep meds. It's less because I wouldn't sleep otherwise, and more because I have trouble falling asleep. But maybe in the future I'll be able to get off them. But for now being able to fall asleep around the same time feels important for getting healthier. Anyway, wanted to share this feeling with all of you who know what it's like waking every night from nightmares and feeling sick and exhausted. It gets better. | 2019-09-21T10:17:39.000Z | d78qbl | 3 | 48 | ptsd | I slept great! (first time in a while) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d78qbl/i_slept_great_first_time_in_a_while/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T07:47:46.000Z | d77nil | 1 | 3 | ptsd | Seizures | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d77nil/seizures/ |
Forkastning | Deleted | 2019-09-21T07:46:44.000Z | d77n99 | 4 | 5 | ptsd | PTSD and career evolution | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d77n99/ptsd_and_career_evolution/ |
EyeOfSolace | I am severely struggling with a issue with a friend I reached out and I feel I’m getting no where I have been in a very dark spot please anyone willing to help or listen and that’s willing to help get in touch | 2019-09-21T07:03:55.000Z | d77bor | 2 | 4 | ptsd | Trying this again | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d77bor/trying_this_again/ |
heccin_anon | Hey y'all. Kind of just ranting and don't know what to do. I feel like absolute dog shit. Anniversary effect is in full swing and I recently discovered that on top of my sexual abuse trauma I have blanks in my childhood because I grew up in an extremely emotionally and mentally abusive household. I don't want to die, I'm just in so much pain. I can't afford to go to therapy again this week. Any advice please. Bf is asleep and he's very loving and supportive and says I can always call him but he has been up until 2 am every night this whole week because of school. I don't want to call him because he deserves his sleep. I feel so sensitive and horrible. I don't have the money to go to a hospital either. I don't know what to do.
Edit: more info I missed. | 2019-09-21T06:41:38.000Z | d775jk | 5 | 3 | ptsd | Feels like I'm dying | 0.81 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d775jk/feels_like_im_dying/ |
JME_AS | I don’t understand why low flying jets cause my fight or flight response to kick in with a vengeance. I’m not a veteran and the events that caused my PTSD have nothing to do with jets or similar sounds. When they fly low over my house it’s loud it shakes my house. My anxiety gets so bad I start to see stars and feel like I’m going to pass out. I ran to the closet at one point yelling. My tiny anxiety ridden dog didn’t even care. It will be happening all weekend and I guess it’s supposed to get louder and last longer. My husband is going on a trip and I’ve texted family members and friends to see if anyone will take me out of town or at least sit with me. No one is available and I’m afraid to drive. I don’t want to panic and crash. I don’t understand why my reaction is so strong and it feels embarrassing especially cause I can’t pin point why the hell its messing with me so bad. At least my usual triggers make sense to me and it’s allowed me to find ways to cope. Everyone is so happy about the jets and have been bitching about people that don’t like it. So naturally there is a small selection of people I feel comfortable telling.
TL;DR- don’t know why I’m frightened of jet sounds but I am panicking so bad to the point of almost passing out. I am wondering if anyone had pointers on how to handle sudden triggers or panic attacks from things not related to traumatic event they weren’t prepared for.
Edit: using headphones make me feel like I can’t see and don’t help at all. Sometimes they make my anxiety worse. | 2019-09-21T06:20:48.000Z | d76zhk | 4 | 3 | ptsd | Panic over things not related to traumatic events | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d76zhk/panic_over_things_not_related_to_traumatic_events/ |
Starfire911 | Is anyone else scared of chainsaws (mainly the noise) I’m going to bush gardens Halloween event and they have chainsaws (fake of course) but it still manages to scare the shit out of me to the point where I will bury my head in my friends body and that only makes it worse and they target me and I hate it. | 2019-09-21T02:56:50.000Z | d754cy | 3 | 3 | ptsd | Anyone else scared of chainsaws? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d754cy/anyone_else_scared_of_chainsaws/ |
kmusk | I’m having trouble sticking to sexual boundaries that I know are safe for me. Making out leaves me feeling EXTREMELY bad, like I’m going to die, and I know that it does this (makes sense given my past), but I still find myself trying to make out with my boyfriend.
It’s not like he’s pressuring me — but I think the fact that my ex always determined my boundaries for me (pushing for whatever outcome he wanted, straight-up surprising me with whatever kink he wanted to perform, and then later making me believe that that’s what I wanted) has made me unable to stick to any kind of boundary I define. I can’t do it — I don’t know how to.
How can I fix this so my relationship with my current boyfriend doesn’t crumble? :////// | 2019-09-21T02:33:43.000Z | d74w0r | 3 | 3 | ptsd | How do I practice maintaining boundaries? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d74w0r/how_do_i_practice_maintaining_boundaries/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T01:08:24.000Z | d7408s | 0 | 1 | ptsd | being witness or in multiple verbal abuse situations | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d7408s/being_witness_or_in_multiple_verbal_abuse/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-21T00:13:06.000Z | d73ekc | 3 | 3 | ptsd | I’m alone, and really not doing well | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d73ekc/im_alone_and_really_not_doing_well/ |
coffeemuffins | Lately my hypervigilance is off the charts. I always feel as though something bad is about to happen. I'm on edge all the time. I can't sleep at night. I'm afraid to be home alone.
I am also having more flashbacks than usual. Sometimes simple words and phrases trigger me. I have done EMDR with my therapist. She doesnt know why the memories and flashbacks are worse now.
I feel like I am falling apart. My therapist doesnt seem to get how bad I am feeling. I'm afraid I'll end up in the hospital again. | 2019-09-21T00:04:44.000Z | d73aye | 7 | 3 | ptsd | Dealing with hypervigilance and flashbacks | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d73aye/dealing_with_hypervigilance_and_flashbacks/ |
xpizzacrust | I have a friend I was close while I was experiencing my trauma. I coped by drinking A LOT. Everytime we talk at some point she will mention how crazy I was back then. It used to be something we laughed about but now after treatment and therapy and knowing how much pain I was in at the time it makes me so angry. I keep her at a distance and learned I can’t have her visit, we only talk in the phone every few months. I just ended a convo with her that went really well until at the end she said “and you so crazy and that’s what I needed crazy.” And it makes me want to cry. I wasn’t crazy I was hurting. It’s not funny it’s tragic. I don’t want to be seen as crazy anymore | 2019-09-20T22:13:20.000Z | d71zbn | 40 | 150 | ptsd | When people call you crazy for how you coped | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d71zbn/when_people_call_you_crazy_for_how_you_coped/ |
Linus_Oredsson | Some background first: My sister has had a very bad childhood. She got massively bullied by her classmates in school, had a very hard time studying school and in turn got bad grades. Our parents started getting very mad at her and screaming at her rather harshly. Me and my sister didn't have a good relation to eachother at that time either. All of this made my sister very depressed and she started thinking of self harm. After a few years of this torture she apparently (based of what I've heard from her and believe in myself) got diagnosed with PTSD. After a while she started meeting other people who understood and respected her for who she was. This is also around the time I opened up to her a little more. I guess I opened up to her because I also started to feel affected by my parents towards my sister and me (although still mostly my sister).
I started getting worse mental health as well, got worse grades, started feeling more and more disconnected from my friends and other classmates. I also started having some self harming thoughts of my own. My sister helped me through some of it, so I wouldn't really say I have the same self harming thoughts anymore.
One day I was sitting in the living room downstairs and my dad walks up stairs into my sisters room and starts screaming on her about something (can't remember what exactly). A few seconds into their argument I hear a big bang of someone hitting the floor and my dad saying something along the lines of "Ridicilous" in a sighing tone. Worried I go into her room to check what happend. She's lying on the floor clearly unconscious but with wide open eyes. Not knowing what to do I try to get contact with her but nothing. I had stuff to do that day so I'm forced to leave her there. Layter the same day she tells me that she had got an anxiety attack during that interaction with our dad. She also said she had had enough of our parents and our town and she was escaping to her boyfreind in Stockholm;Sweden which is at least 500 kilometers away from our home. Now I'm alone with my parents without anyone to talk to.
My parents started acting like nothing was wrong anymore and that almost all problems were fixed. I get increassingly uncomfterable around my parents and try to avoid them as much as possible. They keep acting like nothing is wrong even though I actively try making it clear to them that I don't want to see them.
I am currently having guilt thoughts over the smallest of things, having trouble controlling my emotions like I want to and I've decided to ignore my parents as much as possible because they won't leave me alone.
I have recently tried to figure out exactly what is wrong with me and I'm suspecting it could be a type of trauma or PTSD from my parents. I want to resolve my emotianal instability but I don't know how. Anyone got any tips? | 2019-09-20T21:57:49.000Z | d71sdw | 2 | 2 | ptsd | Don't know if I have PTSD or not | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d71sdw/dont_know_if_i_have_ptsd_or_not/ |
CurtD34 | Great idea! | 2019-09-20T17:28:10.000Z | d6y7at | 11 | 8 | ptsd | Pot Smoking Sheds for Veterans with PTSD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d6y7at/pot_smoking_sheds_for_veterans_with_ptsd/ |
kelseyiam | Hello! My loved one is currently undergoing Cognitive Processing Therapy and they're using something called ay PCL-5 to asses the amount of PTSD symptoms they're experiencing and document it as it decreases over time.
As I'm not in sessions with them, I'd love to hear an explanation of what the PCL-5 is (everything that turned up on Google was totally inaccessible to the everyman; it was mostly studies and research articles), maybe even how it was created and any useful info for supporting a loved one with PTSD. Thank you all! | 2019-09-20T13:54:24.000Z | d6v939 | 6 | 2 | ptsd | PCL-5 Scores in Cognitive Processing Therapy - Help Me Understand & Support Tips Wanted for Loved Ones w PTSD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d6v939/pcl5_scores_in_cognitive_processing_therapy_help/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2019-09-20T13:49:36.000Z | d6v6u0 | 1 | 0 | ptsd | Feel like something happened to me that I don’t know about? | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d6v6u0/feel_like_something_happened_to_me_that_i_dont/ |
MariaJane83 | Has anyone experienced fragmented, repressed memories from childhood and have since become aware of what they were repressing?
I have fragments of memories that feel like puzzle pieces to a puzzle I’ve never seen, and specific physical touches that are strong triggers but cannot place why. I literally go into flight or fight mode.
I’ve never told anyone about all this before because I was afraid they would say I was crazy and partially terrified of what Would be repressed if that was the case. | 2019-09-20T13:43:16.000Z | d6v3yi | 6 | 6 | ptsd | Repressed memories | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/d6v3yi/repressed_memories/ |