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[ "hey guys today coming back school way saw tiny little dog usually whenever see stray dogs avoid themcause im scared tiny little doggo something made want go near it im going closer dog hear familiar tune annoys shit me thats realized school monthsanyway doggo dream cute" ]

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[ "created mess feel end nearlong story short got dui blowing underage college never trouble entire life court next week depending goes ill make decision job opportunities line education entire lifes work point society thinksim scumbag given back community holding blood drives events children etc feel world deserve anymore deserve itim scared losing hope future need leave earth" ]

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[ "depressive moods pushed away loved ones im afraid ill nowhey im m begin constantly suffering depressed moods came every couple months disappeared week so however ive current period months getting worse family love feel pushing away more girlfriend years love anyone anything ive pushed away broke reasons know ive pushed point oneright im sitting looking bottle bleach wondering pain drinking bleach worth release deathim truly terrified might me even know ive posted im desperate need anything tldr long depressive mood pushed away family friends girlfriend contemplating whether commit redflag now" ]

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[ "today sucks hate tuesdays especially today cold dark rainy quarter tank gas found exs assigned seatright fkn front meim anxious normal miss happy pen photo flashbacks reminding ex best friend essentially ghosted boyfriend current best friend isnt cant get back popped conclusion today fkn sucks" ]

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[ "bad idea confront rapisti raped months ago contact since ive posted ill put below little bit month ago raped say sexually assaulted im afraid admit happened me drunk cousin ditched one friends morning bar downtown almost falling drunk friend helped home im gay place consent anything been consented started kissing really control actions stopped convinced keep going really basically almost passed started sex point said yes anything push managed make leave month ive refused let even think pretty lengthy history depression ive feeling good lately want trigger anything like ive pretending happen know one day itll come crashing down ive ever thought it also attempted redflag past confront would say" ]

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[ "told bossive suicidal ideations couple weeks now come go days better days becomes dangerous drive work today told boss scared nothing would happen told mental health important would make sure tasks covered take time try help myself idea time have im pretty scared im going take time put strain coworkers feel better possible wont ever better live like this" ]

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[ "love garlic garlic awesome eaten many ways eaten seasoning man love garlic bread garlic pasta garlic rice awsome aswell forget fryied garlic even awesome" ]

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[ "part almost one saw post anxiety attack last night confronted girl today asked said because love you walked away guess made better still panic attack like rest dayim okay tho" ]

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[ "confusedive dealing fluctuating moods past month get really depressed straight after im really happy nowhere feeling comes back straight afterdont reason depressed amazing family supportive boyfriend great friends im really confused thats happening mind dont understand worst part past week moments felt suicidal wanted end all im scared eventually ill get stage wont scary anymore ill something hurt everyone around me dont know im looking writting this maybe someone else similar experiences could tell cope it" ]

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[ "drunkamplonelystill alive now happy new years everybody" ]

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[ "well shit decided tell boy crush since yr like girl one friends friends thought meant boy primary school class name spelling hates me explained him christian hates me fuck nothing christians dont worry family christian accept me" ]

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[ "hey anyone wanna chat need get smth chest also open hella bored hit up dms always open _____________________________________________" ]

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[ "friend disappeared back since accounts deleted would like help finding again tldr bottom so recently saw post guy wanted contact old discord pal also similar experience post worked simply hope mine could too name discord gloomy lunar met years ago know stupid post reminded this talked like months day got along really well suddenly text anything anymore aside that also know lost password know relevant met robloxi know stupid simple fun game met kept touch name account soulessbodyx reason deleted now know asked question lateyeah reminded this alliea even know remember me worth try xander used play magic training roblox tldr met girl roblox used play magic training together account deleted discord account name gloomy lunar suddenly uncontactable time alliea xander even know remember lolhey try" ]

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[ "im even really living nowat developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat like bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another years remembered good person" ]

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[ "uh heyso ive feeling really lately even tho dont much feel about wish wasnt alive googling things redflag found post reddit group saying theres tons supportive people decided make account vent here maybe help idk uh im dont really much complain about life fine rn amazing parents amazing friends amazing girlfriend feel depressed anxious dont know do wish wasnt alive rn think need meds changed maybe upped seasonal depression setting in girlfriend coming see tomorrow nd time see eachother irl first time went see thats asked gfim scared seeing again realized im ugly gross transgender hates im scared idk dont even know gonna coming town dont think knows fucked am every day past weeks ive thinking would happen died rn would it want pain stop wish could sleep weeks everythingokay again dont know else im supposed say point feel empty nothing makes happy anymore wish wasnt alive" ]

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[ "lost virginity like sensible person always make sure around virgins locked basement times blood sacrifices such today started like day get up eat breakfast get ready school go make sure one escaped however everything went wrong unlock door walk stairs turn lights see one guy missing course immediately panic go police over would let everyone put jail situations exactly like one second hidden room basement move everyone case anyone comes investigate extremely panicked rush move everyone hidden room even thinking ill miss school remember check escaped know family lives start searching soon read nametag cage get extremely mad know realize earlier course one person always tries start rebellion even though give food water every days course ity escaped" ]

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[ "come on purpose two current faves tv meloni oz l osvu janel west wing hook nice little sleepercharacter study plots nothing fancy acting right mark tim busfield shows neat bits worth look" ]

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[ "hi againi posted month something ago wanting odas probably guess didnt enough pills damage able go days ive completely sunk again think harder take lifeim faithlessi dont conform religion absolute nonsense god would create pain theres many factors stopping able causing live grey painful purgatory theres palace skyyou im terrified death like people ive always viewed life pointless dieanyway end well occupy sized grave ive always really debilitating fear fear would ever show again ive put fact brain cant comprehend absence senses thats fear is life meaningless personalities formed world molds us world creates divides world full hatred world youre consciousness brought taken away everything makes us existence since existence continue exist long existence exists except usthe voice headsthe voice abide by voice whose silence want find solace in pill id take itnot im people would view illbut choose look grim ugly truth world live in say theres reasons live maybe time start questioning reasons deem suitable live life shit for theres nothing special consciousnesseverything ive got emotional attachment gone one day ill feel pain itwhy around thatwhy anyone around anything" ]

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[ "haha yall theres fires live one miles away yea seriously im might lose everything thanks fucking idiot point im ready die" ]

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[ "mom care me ive spent last three years life learning programming d modeling animation sound design become programmer computer scientist taking dualcredit college courses as highschooler today grade dropped forgot assignment already resubmitted would graded tomorrow mom came room mad yelling spending much time building stupid stuff code enough time doing school care me want do never has understand teenage angst life care ampxb want cry" ]

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[ "tryna flirtso um aha ha like frogs" ]

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[ "matador better upon reflection time one watching it seems light humor always mediumgauge never unfunny never gutbusting story simple thread characteristics plot often recycled features namely unscrupulous bad guy need pal straightlaced glasswearing good guy need security life team learn somehow complement others lifestyles also find bullfighting parallel story unnecessary simply cruel thing symbolism hardly potent enough carry itself however really good film though seemed thin unaffecting time wasnt subtle way connectingaudiencebr br i believe reason slowly surely gives audience something take though formula nothing new even humor main characters virtually characters it somehow met gotten know", "forget calling real thats mean mean though pierce brosnans filthy womanizing boozing hit man detached comical character hes grasped firmly writer definitely brosnan aggressively communicating much enjoys breath fresh james bondless air greg kinnears character seems quite detached scriptedness hes given certain unexpected footnotes moment due films lightfootedness pass us hit us moment later realize film simply analyze planes trains automobiles told stalely again truly saying somethingbr br the films climax sort wants partially thriller twists lightness possibly focus film though plot leading it no focus brosnan kinnear get unlikely relationship other strangely matador film regret loneliness brosnan deals loneliness regret every day though understand kinnear lenient accepting brosnan continually interrupting life slowly understood brosnan salvaging kinnear downtoearth version feelings means redemption last scene movie stays me it think films subtle sidestepping impact finally begins seep" ]

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[ "educational show focused emotions interactions relationships produced detroits abc affiliate syndicated markets nationwide past week detroit public tv hour clip show part pledge drive wow memories resurfaced remembered show segments id forgotten remembered instantly soon theyd begin hot fudge holy moley detective tomato pies facebr br for public television special search hot fudge comin atcha concert" ]

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[ "asked crush read title happy able share feelings said feels way officially dating yet update soon" ]

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[ "indian fact religion made drink cow pee young age chances might turn atheists future sourceme" ]

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[ "pretty depressed todayi pretty depressed today went therapy yesterday told depressed laughed nervous laugh woke morning got coffee going motions think might last year one loves feel like living repeat mean less shit another years fuck no" ]

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[ "twitch subreddit bad tried making post asking help apparently violated rules stating reddit username looking tutorials hating twitch must soso idk please hate me opinion im saying this dumb" ]

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[ "suicidal years getting tired everythinghi everyone appreciate stopping giving post read giving much information can im worried giving much case live ukim male ive wanted kill years off right much feel like going finally feel like life useless pointless life nothing take extra space planet im alive still know much would devastate friends family ive reached point want die anyway regardless also think selfish feeling feel guilty feeling like this used self harm growing used feel kind rush it people life know this stopped gaining girlfriend began feel top world weve broken since still friends know still love theres much now im alone again feel like life extremely pointless feel though redflag nothing speeding process think anyone would ever want again especially since even want anything me ive spoken friends doctors helplines redflag honestly feel though helps much that im really sure wanted posting honesty guess wanted advicedo steps take know move breakup know go killing myself not almost feel like need told it honestly know anymore thank you" ]

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[ "count suicidal know fucking scared pain actually go anythingi want die want final minuteshours filled excruciating pain things pills knives id never able that idk guess needed say something want go sleep wake up sorry waste everyones time" ]

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[ "may seem like care still hurts man imbiive already come everybody everyone took really well said back shiz still do though gotten habit using gay like serious insult word like bad thing im like guys im right here even sayoh u dont ur gaywhatever im like dude serious almost like completely forgot ignoring something post stuff dc say ggaaayyyyy proceed wonder dont talk much anymore like know guys care doubt mind do show least respect" ]

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[ "soul hurts muchim lowest point depression suicidal thoughts mind time keep searching ways kill cant take action it currently im experiencing worst feeling ever dealt mentally pain anymore no starting affect physically im tried living like this want alive anymore hope ill snap kill soon finally free depression anxiety trauma know im better dead still cant kill im nothing coward" ]

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[ "wanna go wendys hq ask piece mcnugget town walk ask piece mcnugget bug mac" ]

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[ "girlfriend broke wella hours ago girlfriend informed two weeks japan away me feels different cant keep things going us love her quite bit obviously shows far often im looking fact go sleep soon deal thoughts wake tomorrow days without one thing best part life quite time now far much difficulty justifying it apologize diatribe feel awful want wake tomorrow" ]

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[ "little story long lost friend gone nowso earlier week found one long lost pals elementary school died even know really friends thats besides point writing this kinda bugging week others childhood died first one actually really knew know happened think might self inflicted im sure probably matter either theres reason im writing this facebook page put cant believe many people coming figurative woodwork say goodbyes even me probably talked years more story share touching reading everyones thoughts makes little sad hes read them cant tell much loved point feeling like hopeless nobody would miss gone would might best friend someone played times kid thought since still think want know much meant give us another chance say nice things to instead about you" ]

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[ "ever feeling dumb remember people genuinely think trump worse hitler stalin compared people genius" ]

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[ "need girlfriend give girlfriend shes mine thanks food" ]

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[ "dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont get hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call ever feel suicidal am suicidal doubt make end week dont wanna make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever just call her please need dont know dont want see dont know elseplease" ]

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[ "moment im skinny skinny imma make many thirst posts bc imma confidentyes nothing stop" ]

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[ "agree jerry underrated space movie of course many good lowbudget ones underrated remember correctly solution mystery sort variation but ripoff computer controlling spaceship actually man somehow turned computer like hal tried disconnect mind mechanical parts him hal led disaster least one funny moment christopher cary character cant find food finds abandoned pet bird theres kind ominous moment obvious thing happen all" ]

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[ "day moving on lol shortened title long read anyway day started distracting playing games minecraft call duty games person mentioned yesterday nice person like lot first friend ive ever made reddit well nothing much happened day tomorrow attending church seminar things getting bit better me feel comfortable time goes by especially right met new friend say im already healing fast take time ill back tomorrow ciao" ]

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[ "join meet room teachers meetgooglewrsgcjpnupauthuser try join would funny" ]

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[ "wasted strippers booze hotels past yeari inherited money blue k going strip clubs taking strippers hotels short trips weekend feel like idiot complete douchebag" ]

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[ "comment gender want know ratio bc feel much different think fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller" ]

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[ "ththth grade boys video games work place hangout teenagers long ive worked or attendee theres strange obsession video games middle school boys fight theres things go rock paper scissors shoot doesnt work one gets it like near throwing punches games shorten attention span really dont get it someone please explain" ]

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[ "really wanted spend new year friends perents asked fuckin today st december noon plans friends new year party sorry kinda gave got angry every time asked ill celebrate another new year watching netflix room go sleep almost immediately midnight" ]

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[ "saved life dont know feeltoday called police attempted redflag really know feel it texting family hates us worry stop forever know feel" ]

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[ "parents buying new apartment thoughts immediately went could jump kill myself basically titleim fucked omg high apartment is anyone curious httpsimgurcomajsfxzghttpsimgurcomajsfxzg" ]

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[ "im sad thats it thats post" ]

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[ "somy last post months ago unsure exact date know around months and last im going unsubbing here maybe ill resub later date im definitely ill come back help people way people sub helped me much changed generally feel betterim sure why something changed know what something has feel slightly better now actually feel okay knowim woodsyet im getting there know theres plenty obstacles actually looking forward encountering them im starting relish challenge like said idea changed still go work am come home sit room watching tv phone want say thank everyone helped even tried help difficult person help know that ive always thought everything alone real man never asks help wrong matter matter male female trans idea are matter hard exterior soft need help sometimes cant everything ourselves thatsokay now im leaving sub thank again everyone helped least tried appreciate it tldr im feeling better leaving sub" ]

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[ "one wearing mask started online school seen single fucking person mask school enforced policy california one top states cases lack decency responcibility really goes show fucked species is" ]

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[ "dont know anymorei feel bad unhappyim fortunate compared lot people friends family go school sports overall relatively normal life guess could say days feel fine work distracts me days especially im alone feel empty unhappy theres lot things going some little big combined reason feel way recently ive alone time keep thinking everything thats wrong cant stop contemplated self harm almost today keep thinking killing myself dont know wrong me" ]

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[ "life hardim feels im lunging around vessel everyday im watching spectator purpose life friends one two best friends irl mom dad everyday get literally hardest thing do second saying im going go something ever following it past five years im stayed stuck stasis life bee absolutely miserable cant tell im lazy depressed anymore gotten bad buti friend wont let give tells im worth something even absolutely nothing im show gratitude thanks quitesatan bestie" ]

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[ "lets discuss politics opinion politician position issue x good meanwhile politician bs position bad vote politician a" ]

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[ "carbon dioxide detector pudding helmet jan opening jar dry oat boot moving back forthnolan mom slippery salmon slipperyoh slipperyoh lemon stuck anus salmon tuck shirt jan" ]

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[ "tad know see horrible answering dms answer dms motherfucker" ]

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[ "stupid regular office job slow fast paced wage slave factory jobi completely incompindent everything do since grade school everyone expect id somebody come find reason week quite everyone else listen teacher suspect dyscalculia since drop cummnity college failing manitory math course times still live home mom dies ill homeless pray every day death never comes failure god let die" ]

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[ "fifth day christmas payday gave me fiiiive buulllets leeeeft ammo need amooooo" ]

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[ "i male edit i want see works like one redditor said female" ]

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[ "prochoice forumscause subreddit fucking joke" ]

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[ "hangingthinking drop hanging balcony terrified it also worried loved ones cant handle life almost" ]

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[ "might sooni dont really wanna explain everything girlfriend think gonna break tomorrow im getting tired life everytime gives something takes away knocks way back down happened much im starting loose hope" ]

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[ "lost job wagoni lost job couple weeks ago year sober fallen completely wagon drinking heavily two years ago ended homeless drank whole bottle vodka tonight ive drunk every night two weeks straight tro name keep listening everclears song strawberry fall now never get up feel down never get back up need help struggling downing bottle pills right now think need institutionalized keep fantasies commiting crime get put away while really know right now cant go again guess fucked again please help one turn to" ]

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[ "mind often months ago online friends family found gay i knew already comes place people really accepts gays worrys suicidal hope hes ok" ]

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[ "regarding on post me posts comment raid shadow legends im pretty sure started influx posts bad __" ]

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[ "dad becoming evangelion fan rewatching it liked saw hes watching beginning me doesnt usually like anime sister watch kinda poggers" ]

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[ "hey hows everyone doing day posting row check everyone im gonna untill im longer teen tell doing today anything interesting happen wanna comment want know love you" ]

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[ "it timehey guys ive done necessary preparations deactivated social media accounts left scattered notes places visist leave im sitting beside gramps gauge say goodbye people knowwell ill wait till everyone home asleepso uhyeahid like chat while" ]

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[ "question american uk teenagers also differential equations integral calculus graph theory highschool easter european thing" ]

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[ "im donei vaginismus lost faith friendship care life anymore would like die" ]

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[ "ughthis typical life sucks kind cry help beautiful fiance amazing career pays better should penthouse apartment overlooking city skyline close friends look me what nowhere go here getting made happier fiance starting doubtus years pretending im depressed caused expect fine time accomplished everything ever wanted harder cover thoughts tapping distracting workschoolgym problem friends look you like talk weaknesses im sitting here alone wondering bother culmination years striving better person actually am alone understood" ]

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[ "held loaded gun head tonightim average american white priveleged male job make great money lot friends serial monogamist entire life engaged before since engagement broke seeking mental relief forms relationships eating put close lbs made things worse recently broke girlfriend years never love comforted me since ended ive tornado lost lbs months gym diet decent single life tonight everything came crashing down open woman relations shut down nothing abnormal deal rejection fine triggered something scary feelings self worthi hate typical american soul crushing office job idea life supposed about hate american dream slaving away office order afford buy stuff dont need yet say anyone im ostracized made feel worse shortened version everything going didnt get responses text messages put didnt balls pull trigger need outlet" ]

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[ "want goi feel like handle this know do worst part me fact id leaving beautiful dog behind love much ive apologizing hour now taken care of hurts much hell never understand im gone becomes upset acts see day ive endured much sake years life partner treats well understand words actions me faults financial support me realize mental gymnastics go back forth it gave word moved him hed support me fulfill everything asks becomes upset supports me sometimes taking advantage him sometimes enough him ask keep word things ask anything else already feel like support enough could wrong ungrateful spoiled misguided knowim sorry unorganized brain puking cry help" ]

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[ "absolutely like film lot entertaining feast bizarre stunning images theres dialog only background sounds noises something completely differentoriginal enjoy obscure bizarrethen might like work art ik looks like film made first camera ever made in time strange humanlike beings live perform bizarre habits god killed razor gave birth mother earth mother earth impregnated gods semen act fellatio gives birth son flesh bone follows inhuman acts ritualistic torture rape murder purposes knoworwe" ]

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[ "ey yo boys homie kamren needs big tiddy gf help out already got best girl world man two anime body pillows singing sad song sad playing guitar poorly get man girl" ]

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[ "im year old loser girl love hates nothing left live forim piece human garbage ive literally done nothing good hate person lived hates me wanna kill every day miserable dont futureim waste life point" ]

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[ "know anymorei cant picture going like anymore nothing make pain inside feel go away matter happy friends family make me love cant understand feel like started cut" ]

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[ "need know effective method committing redflagyeahyeah know itll get better people care wanna done gun else could try pills get job doneive heard slitting wrists successful way" ]

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[ "expecting movie suck got pretty good slashergore film death scenes adequately brutal teens decent penny mcnamee definitely best bunch rachael taylor looks like young christie brinkley bring much movie that kane good killer totally believable fearsome juggernaut saw twist coming miles away still enjoyed moviebr br but really stood direction gregory dark might actually career legit film ahead him aside overusing horror film speed camyou knowlike guys face shakes fast theres good shots here camera angles environments really emphasize kanes size making look even bigger actually isbr br if looking deep story characters aint it thats slasher films about looking good violence gory films go check out" ]

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[ "im gonna kill myselfits feels like everyone hates push everyone away nothingright idk im crying time cant hang anymore im killing tonight goodbye everyone" ]

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[ "cant manage really irritated incessant theres still hope nonsense find looking solutionmy latest attempt sort shit came abrupt painful end yesterday dont want live find information wise redflag isnt answer disgusting think people youll leave behind hurt bullshit shuffle misery people dont mourn while entire life mourning problem want find sure fire way die successfully peace without much chance interrupted living worse shape now wouldnt want cause trauma somebody going business eg train driver pedestrians etc know isnt place advice methods find aforementioned attitudes towards redflag totally misplaced forces people utterly brutal things order escape demons" ]

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[ "dream predicted end pandemic dream predicted pandemic end dream weeks ago details fuzzy important ones still there starts im somehow teleported future cant remember how find mesh school mall appears pandemic ended everything went back normal knew im future exactly my guess years instinctively wanted know pandemic ended started ask people one would give exact date over next thing knowim chased fbi agent ninja outfit i assumed time traveling running seconds jump big glass window second floor start ziplining uphill telephone wire eventually stopped chasing me end telephone wire small secluded bookboard game store walk store pretty unorganized back room theres small round table back room sitting table old man grandson invite sit him taking seat ask know pandemic ended old man tells pandemic ended january st grandson chimes says pandemic got worse october th didnt tell details that important part dream ends type premonition interpretation schools shut october th vaccine begin distributed january st" ]

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[ "advice human humans shut up gt think her seriously shut up lt gt right real reason posted this kidding shut lt gt comment take stick ass previous sentence part entire post thats meant taken seriously lt" ]

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[ "guys actually happened omg stranger offered candy told get van actually got kidnapped also im grave danger please help" ]

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[ "feel exhausted anythingcontinuing go life fucking hard dude tough ended could quit fighting hard want fight anymore" ]

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[ "possible speed heart disease muscle wasting disease specific heart break last year decided enough enough im trying alone long story short guys cant go like im wheelchair bound ive become burden family recognise anymore since lost job friends either married left im tormented nobody cares disabled men ive met disabled woman never alone ive lucky enough also heart disease ill die years met men survived scared see future may involve electric wheelchairs spoon fed dinner every female boyfriend married men find nurses want kill myself way speed heart disease md awful wish everyone made far best" ]

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[ "cant take anymoreim years old hirsutism crazy leg hairstomach hairarm hair chest hair cant take anymore wake feeling disgusting go bed wishing never fucking born hate one ever love me wrote redflag note case ever it want to cant stand anymore everyone else family normal monster life gonna get worse might well leave cant hurt family cant hurt friends cry sleep every night wish day normal hairy disgusting want pain end want stop waking feeling hopeless im starting think way wake feeling hopeless wake all wrote redflag note case wanna wake anymore im gonna lose everyone whats point reason im family friends ill lose too happen me deserve this didbi disgusting fucking gross god ive lost motivation everything want okay illnever able feel happy again im tired im sick want kill badly worst part hair growth gonna get worse im fucking done nothing fucking matters end gets worse im waste space want pain fucking stop" ]

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[ "cant anymoreim tired feeling way one believing me family believe me therapy freaking working neither medication everyone family thinks go talk shit but dont cant pretendokayanymore tiring pretending want die anymore wish dead never go im freakin failure probably even able get right cant end all im even worth it im complete failure" ]

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[ "death seem like best optionive weak little bitch life ever since kindergarten ive known going kill future asked mom whats point trying live die end got looked doctor deficiencies schools ive to ive friends sometimes more mostly less almost either moved tried fight me stopped talking reason tried kill pussied last second want family set back turned drugs im know want family sad around feel sad are" ]

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[ "one days last night tried talk girlfriend worryfeeling ive feel like attempt talk explain problem brains pushed away wanted talk feel suck talking feelings made things worse im even really asking advice do ive feel like ruin everything try help" ]

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[ "wanna hold gun headits car emotions erratic cant calm down google says tell two close friends any basically much less im comfortable telling im suicidal could actually help plus late idk text one person vaguely sleeping fine feel like cry wolf lotim dramatic attempted told today significant people think im fine bc say im fine make lot jokes whole thingim comfortable opening people around people see often allat all random person asks whats wrong really always feel suicidal lately im just im hyperventilatingi cant see would happen immediate future killed besides messy see awful visuals hanging neck weird look reflection id look like holding gun head thinking calling hotline really bad anxiety phone calls ive heard bad experiences good feel stuck wanna bring gun inside idk", "im scared also want stopped seeing therapist earlier month bc support around keep seeing him esp feel much worse trying work lot childhood trauma sitting days afterwards next appointment making sick really manic self harming lot option since normally feel better come whatever feeling another option texting im afraid awake either notify authorities since address im afraid get shower hurt im going straight gun want feel like think really want kill actively seeking ways avoid think scared upset really want alive single person really tell feel safe around validated idk found im" ]

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[ "possible hardest year life many redflag attempts posted multiple times never thought would able look around room see nothing self loathing aware people situation doubted myself possible feel happiness one never thought would feel look sky smile feelings real feel shit truth proven me feel kept long happines" ]

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[ "ealing studios perfect film fresh relevant half century later day releasedbr br as satire economic notions growth commercial need inbuilt obsolescence could scarcely uptotheminute film said hero literally wears plotbr br oddly parallels jurassic park messing environment literally turn round bite you spielberg shied away books brilliant central conceit tack nonsense children hmmmbr br in man white suit alec guiness plays idealistic young scientist comes cloth never gets dirty never wears out suddenly workers capital northern english mill working united never protection livelihoodsbr br of course ealing comedy been complex interplay vested should suited interests plays beautifully one one parties realize progress threat disposability waste keep looms turningbr brbut yes comedy albeit pointed one amid political ironies delicious performances good oldfashioned knockabout laughsbr br nonetheless biting satire endures dazzling white" ]

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[ "losing fighti feel worthless alone want burden friends family attempted redflag december found late nothing live for wish would over please help me" ]

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[ "seem good first kiss im gonna rant go basically quarantine cant really anything outside stay online met amazing girl days caught feeling asked started dating time grew closer closer together want meet person wont know ill house hour new year last minutes wed go roof look stars fireworks countdown begins wed stand up id grasp onto her pull in tell much love her give first kiss midnight new year" ]

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[ "wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post this im guy early s think around lbs ive suicidal least extent since maybe remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always been fucked head care anything enjoy little so guess started joke maybe ive fan eating since age so fat since guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed me honestly think id live longim scared cut wrist take pills part fear is im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes it maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain get pee nightme", "im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head am low opinion people eager become find spot back knife would fit best like idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable over like pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost like chance mean like one redflag pill taking would hard cyanide pill placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill tasty burgers lunch another dinner even so think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world", "one trust talk to ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery would take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read this doubt could help wanted to think feel little better writing down least talk strangers respond getting offended would dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies" ]

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[ "kinda want make another tumblr account sure id able maintain though considering already trouble maintaining twitter" ]

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[ "teacher gave assignement make meme worth marks dammm plot twist though meme reflect choose art museum cant repost meme exactly" ]