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[ "future dream id really like happen me maybe dumb hold something could possibly never happen want grow bloom person decided recovering getting better person want do try hope try me toosn always option me though hour ago almost set hanging recovering hardi wish everyone well sorry life brought us point rooting us alwayshugs decided stay now" ]

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[ "suicidal thoughts getting closer closer attempti hope means go psychiatric facility painful live need safe space" ]

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[ "feeling like nothing changei feel like im going feel miserable now forever good things going me yet im always unhappy great friends yet feel soulcrushingly lonely literally real responsibilities right nowyet im constantly stressed ive thoughts redflag since child right things going better theyve ever been yet im still miserable feel like nothing ever change eventslife keep changing misery ever present therapist took leave absence whole pandemic started supposed return april havent heard anything way contact herim sure come back everything going on course want prioritize safety months im becoming increasingly desperate ive tried many meds past years none ever helped including ones im currently on im tempted stop taking them im tempted give up" ]

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[ "broke gfim really scaredso today broke gf almost year best friend one friends had lot unnecessary fights also took care world got bit muchi sometimes short periods depression suicidal feelings pretty serious social anxiety many friends weve breaking months finally it cant say im relieved honest know better feel empty feel like anything told want remain friends want keep touch really itll hurt much says shell me want that want someoneme time want anyone me makes sense me feel like fault person way handle things like fights insecurities know feel lonely" ]

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[ "hey girl painted leonardo da vinci youre priceless is better cuz apparently yall dont like picasso" ]

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[ "feel empty feel like something missing me something need something makes happy something positive even make sence" ]

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[ "good show entertaining good marshal arts acting good story plot entire main crew nice job robert urich chuck norris jennifer tung especially big hand judson mills especially fine tribute robert urich latter days great actor truly missed" ]

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[ "family annoying always watching walking dead want watch anything else get mad me thats even worst partth time through watch litteraly anything elsegod damn" ]

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[ "redflag helpwould downing bottle tylenol pills drinking quite bit vodka kill me please recommend something thats common houses" ]

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[ "ever awkward position listen friend talk something interest scared tell stop man hoping good time stop talking even kept nodding" ]

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[ "prozac making suicidalim sorts horrible thoughts going head right now" ]

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[ "thoughts head empty mind quiet numb use rare opportunity sleep goodnight" ]

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[ "nothing fucking mattersdoes anyone else view similar mine im years old college biochemistry student track medical school ive got gpa right now everything feels completely fucking moot lot happy moments even bad moments view humanity existence anomaly tiny speck dust known earth hurdling several thousand miles per hour space were bound die eventually humanity wiped future almost trace existence afterwards even then probability life finding remnants infinitesimally small god afterlife far know cant go living life hoping ill happy still existenceim dead cant force believe crap like without good reason" ]

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[ "time talking overim holding box cutter wrist trying work power get with cant fucking deal life anymore give get nothing returnim fucking tired want rest greatim crying im weakling deserve alive anyways" ]

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[ "mean perfect breeding ground humans meant like covid bacteria stoff sorry beys" ]

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[ "parents house spring break nothing do suicidali friends literally lie bed stare ceiling went pc gaming cafe played games hours nothing else life worst part return university fucking hate even more working degree know get job go school lots stem majors agonizing swear thing take mind things video games went grocery stared charcoal consider charcoal burning redflag method someone please help me" ]

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[ "im feeling impulsive want stop talking everyone awhile quit eating much need eat much do wayyy much" ]

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[ "want run away home cant really like living family really hate starting get there explain situation dad left mom alone brother time fine left exchange when came back year later everything went sht mom never home neither brother home yell stuff even do always clean brother plus cook hes home leave one dirty cup table thinks yell mom always chooses side ive known long time mom favored brother become really obvious lately top that brother horrible girlfriend reference threatened kill suggested move party people could make it anyway cant take anymore today mom threatened send dog away even kill herwant run away cant take dog cause dont want leave mother also money soon start college mom pays dorm rent also scared leave dog home leave college reason previously mentioned" ]

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[ "good morning ladies gentlemen anyways recap last week ship got stuck canal another ship camecrashed ship got stuck might semi truckoh thing happened vehicle lesson week drugs unless prevent crashing cars boats case take whole bottle gonna need them also small orange bell pepper died super mario bros gg mr bell pepper f chat coming next week terrorist attack amber heard" ]

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[ "anybody wanna talkfeel free message id like talk anybody else going it im years old seem nobody turn emotional support igim best opening id love listen anyone willing talk" ]

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[ "someone vc w discord im boredhell idc tf dm" ]

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[ "gave free award wrong person comment section disappointment immeasurable day ruined" ]

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[ "want die im afraidlong story shortim sex addict iv always careful got regular std tests found long time girlfriend gave herpes shes worry wort causes constant outbreaks last years depression never sex mentally destroyed me strong meds outbreaks year hardly ever sex dont want give anyone else iv settled relationship im longer able live life always hoped for wasnt scared id kill self tomorrow never really could expected life go way hide depression really well personality fun happy person ever met hate get std test started dating years ago plan kill times week months since iv sex feel like im going mentally shut able go work more im scared google redflag ideas thats really thats stopping more" ]

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[ "noose drawerhi deeply convinced die im bad core belief thats deeply rooted me past months lost tried build leaving toxic home recovering it much hope anymore died house ive done past five years never destined work out lately like im back there act guilt toxic one im beyond getting better deserve it resolved finish job made noose planned act im afraid one check dead body want neighbor find two weeks smell want leave note friend whats left moneyim afraid hed find early interrupt me" ]

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[ "eu referendum result last straw xpost rmmfbim male english not proud it worst year life graduated university managed get decent grade barely tried leaving got call centre job left month due pressure customersemployers causing numerous panic attacks day months later got temp job basic admin middle management fired weeks later panic attack november since self confidence hit rock bottom meaning job interviews could manage or bothered get come across terrible candidate and theyre wrong become partially dependant cannabis im antidepressant shit broke arm uk democratically decided leave eu cant see future myself redflag mind past months im starting seriously consider it im aware many people worse positions stronger depression suicidal thoughtsim verge redflag im thinking lot tldr got degree tried different jobs failed both ive got confidence cannabis dependence broken arm useless antidepressants which cause insomnia go them uk decided leave eu based bigotry fear blind patriotism want live anymore" ]

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[ "wrote something down would combined enough kill mei overdosed times beforebut nothing seems ever work careful calculated stealing random pills relativescopied notes svelta mig tvr til rjr vikur fyrst gera etta allt tman maga paracetamolacetaminophel mg hjartamagnlacetylsalic acid mg quetiapin actavis mg dimenhydrinate mg prednisolone actavis mg wellbutrin veit ekki mg concerta veit ekki mg alprazolam mg tylenolibuprofen gr kkan kassar af sru sterkt fengi poki yfir hausinn herbergi ea elliarrdal" ]

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[ "found combination lock store donations guess combination ill give helpful award digit code numbers ill try numbers get home go on place bets" ]

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[ "dont really wanna live past next birthdaymy birthday coming months ill turning every birthday depressing supposed die years ago nobody even cares im still anyways fact birthday literally ignored throughout whole life ive one decent birthday bittersweet memory lies anyways ive basically given life dont really see future me future envisioned years came crashing destroyed sense reality im also stuck right now parents basically holding hostage feel like loser failure lie people question ride bus dont job still live parents like im lazy stupid dont even know would first thing come mind things cars expensive housing state horrendously high actually problems parents psychotic easier explain ride bus save money gas say im living get enough money apartment fact job once car once apartment too lost things mental illnessfucking stupid idiot im stuck parents wont let get job car mental help rather stay suffer homeless again ik", "im weak rather die point plus ive winging awhile planned dying years ago ever since failed first time future planned bf refer abusive ex severely damaged me lot people severely damaged me wheres punishment wheres damage ive tried think it feel fucking angry it guess caring stupid again also feel like reason killing time stupid last time killed myself ex abused shit felt worthless im scared life people everyday fine cant fucking normal im pathetic" ]

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[ "one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated" ]

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[ "well bois finally said yes restraining order luckily covid instead feet feet" ]

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[ "see say freddys nightmares cheesy ripoff obviously know good tv see it episodes packed drama blood freddy creative way kills people love freddys nightmares hope get episodes dvd best episodes are saturday night specialschool daze love stinks think series sucked entitled opinion remember opinion means nothing freddys nightmares always one best series ever come accept fact soon enough like watch deny brilliance" ]

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[ "want real school back online school tiring like fall asleep every single day took away pe class online school restarted march cant socialize online school focusing ability fell floor and probably took grades along restart online school cant play chess friends break start online school" ]

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[ "finallyim finally gonna meet dead parents wonder happen people around me last words haha laugh myself im loser" ]

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[ "give things weeks school need stuff holidays suggest things and im studying" ]

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[ "movie parts every around minutes long based true story life joe bonanno telling see events notice heard different it movie make tied chair till end think possible watch row notice watched row next day row acting movie ok scenes awesome general could bather movie acting special effects glamor one show real thing story key movie one look spectacular rambomatrixtitanic movie skip one good thing movie follow main story long boring love scenes different interrupt something important crime business bonanno" ]

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[ "survival instinct prevents ending emotional falloutis anyone else frightened pain unsuccessful attempt hurt cause loved ones im meant feel blessed people care unlike people last thing im hanging onto think parents eventually understand death good thing would wanted go also think articulated adequately would able live without regret thinking could done something different ultimately life become less meaningful years everyone forget anyway probably selfish thats level apathy im at" ]

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[ "im completely alone foreign country im afraidive lost fiancee drug addiction had moved china kicked habit reality situation kicking in today best friend basically brother started hate something did last person left world ive suicidal differentim afraid go home live fifth floorim afraid ill throw window" ]

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[ "life cant everyone rightmuch like everything else world things everybody couldnt life itself maybe im cut life" ]

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[ "important question pls answer anyones birthday one june exactly" ]

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[ "know whats really sad weeks ago camp hanging supposedly straight guys supposed sleep tent playing around acting gaylike which appreciate since im gayim likeokay everything fine topic gays came up dude like think gays expected positive answers considering acting night instead got worst possible results ever agreed belong hell moment heart broke why wtf wrong them slightly tried hint arguments statement slightly accidentally myself avail quickly moved another topic atmosphere getting quite heavy day still act gay tbh im kinda attracted one guy occasionally gives hugs tells pick lines then tell one back instant keep head im pretty sure straight thats dilemma dont know actually gay hard read guys acting gay idk every guy high school acts gay least cant read back anyway please send help guy doesnt want leave mindhes got cute funny great hugger cute funny great personality feel like wanna forever person made felt way since previous rejection help im trying keep optionsgod fucking damn it gay hard" ]

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[ "slugsoul shenanigans feel like shit" ]

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[ "like snapcheddar reddit memes snapchedit reddar memes hm either way im aware dank world ripe snapcheddits it boys" ]

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[ "think quote least correct wrong sticking past days depression started years ago bullied school staff surface sound bad treatment went genuinely left permanent scar me emotional turmoil put young age saw quote twice day kept sticking realized true feel like emotionally matured past point young happened stuck past years still throw tantrums fear alone naivete even methods self harm childish still feel like child literally feel process emotions like child does know even move past trauma think will emotional state including depression everything brought it changed years maybe things feel like getting worse dealing bigger problems able emotionally handle older get biting chew year old problems alot different almost year old problems want get help bad even know start myself let alone financially stuck here you emotionally mature past age traumatized at" ]

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[ "thinking hanging late september medication life badcannot fixedhi im antidepressants felt good told doctor want go mg mg eventually meds month became different person depression came back doctor told go back mg did month feel mostly normal recently started feeling suicidal never happened before set deadline hanging dont know meds life badim already mg" ]

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[ "give reddit name someone send pictures sheep dont use u ping see" ]

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[ "cant come familyhi made new account post others would find main account really want happen anyway around five years ive kept large sercret family im bisexual much attracted gender so come relatively great family minus mother grandmotherim extremely close to said numerous times everyone family anyone gay thatd particularly mind shed still love us great know found actually support gay people all father incredible guy makes jokes mocking gay people often makes little bit harder talk theyre like this managed open friends around year ago extremely supportive odd them high school grew apartive cut connections them one talk anymore theres much building life including this becoming much want spend rest life like this honest think can ive thinking redflag much lately everything final straw mean got close oding last night im lost know do" ]

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[ "husband wants divorce disable schizo useless spouse blame him think much want dieposted schizo subreddit relationship troubleshttpswwwredditcomrschizophreniacommentsevmnwhave_any_tips_for_schizos_in_relationships_with says want continue relationship felt close years over wanting help move kicking anything sat hours talking kept thinking much want die strength start over im broken now edit looks like going spend thanksgiving alone told want go hang family cant spend time around people losing ghosts" ]

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[ "sure reason live enough anymoremy partner years went lovers best friends their choice mine longer trust made bad choices past i cheated understand viewpoint entirely still madly love them know go on miracle cheated still together trying work it honor trust paramount me know cheating destroyed things im cheater immediately regretted came senses killing option thought partner want make sad figured maybe regain shred honor living them make smile living punish did im sure keep going anymore barely able keep going before thought things mend wrong partner deserves world longer give that want best friend cant make happy give trust like loving relationship can like used have know do think soldier anymore could never bear sight someone else even though know would happier cant anymore im scumbag honorless piece shit cheating deserve die anyways" ]

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[ "well almost everything done tomorrow rest world go test leaners permit drive except one final drive wise captain said may fortune favor foolish" ]

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[ "someone take blue cheese smells bad want it" ]

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[ "looking norwegian speaking friends play games talk either already speak intendwant learn much norwegian can already know bit dm want" ]

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[ "helpi adhd know good self diagnose know itmy family doesnt take seriously though ive looked almost symptoms anyways also anxiety diagnosed im relaly anxious next school year anyways mom tried get diagnosed adhd kept nagging got forms give teachers forgot give one form take doctor guess one concluded didnt adhd confessed forgot give forms said wont go back doctor get diagnosed get really bad headaches whenever im faced much work focus one right told parents wanted try grapeseed extract read good focus yelled me really dont want help way marks low last school year want fucking kill myself people adhd dont belong earth cant function it feel like burden everybody know cant schoolwork go living ill probably fucking bum dont know do killing makes sense honestly im pretty worthless really cant anything without getting fucking migraine help" ]

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[ "merry christmas thats merry christmas" ]

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[ "im bisexual friends say theyre default settings referring it dont think homophobic think is prove is" ]

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[ "well boss officially hates mei work last week last week doctors office building absolutely one here meanwhile everyone else vacation weeks except me stay dreadful office hours think thats fair im struggling significantly mental health pm came office late times got cause barely get sleep nightmares hallucinations today came lateim anything answering phones sitting hours boss angry talk im late hired here definitely convinced full hates me suspected know everyone literally hates meall family thats zero friends im school cant even focus anymore depression thoughts getting bad im really ready now" ]

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[ "dont get itwhat point living know rest years plagued misery lonelinessokaymany us keeps going im running things keep going im getting tired people thinking depression something want want this want feel normal whatever normal is" ]

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[ "hello name ang years old struggling battle redflag depression quite long time now right going rough period able get bed sleeping crying feel meaning life pointless point human life dumb miss able feel something feel lost idk release pain trying something dumb point feel point here sort comment appreciated thanks lost life" ]

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[ "things got better middle school thankfully sad literally years young child when life supposed good rough still affect life day home life wasnt super bad school living hell excluded everything still day tend view world harsh unaccepting sorry rant sad cruel teachers students elementary school bullying elementary school directly caused many mental health issues" ]

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[ "solumnotes care one depart pain unshared sentient beings shatter light glass marines reign supreme insignificant seem soul share another human being empty shell full life mediocre hellish strife parasitic nothing more times eradication yesterday tomorrows war" ]

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[ "called jewish slur hate public schools full racist homophobic antisemitic as well religions guy m constantly says horrible things bus causes problems every single day today got angry making fun jewish songs told shut responded calling kike thats like saying nword person" ]

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[ "im tiredfor last weeks ive tired like walking miles miles miles barely keep eyes open matter much sleep im still exhausted life bad friends wonderful family shit theyre problem want keep going im tired feeling second best im tired exhausted numb im tired" ]

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[ "feel like im gonna die man allergies suck nose plugged both nostrils barley breath throat hurts hurts breath mouth im basically gasping air every couple seconds cause cant breath want fucking die hate much i cant breathi feel like im going to die in my sleep" ]

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[ "know live sober throw away account going written like slop would like apologize first that abusing drugs alcohol since feel like cannot deal life sober state started using heroin two years ago bi polar young lady needed put manic mind rest amazing although using lot less due resent overdose substituted alcohol pills again matter always self harming myself whether drugs cutting starving always need harm body cannot cope taking advice reading here past months keep telling kill today ill wait till tomorrow weekend see feel im end cant keep going tried get help many times clinics hospitals never seem help resent doctor drop health insurance dropped me stop taking meds last summer due well poor student medical bills overdoses attempts even process mother kicked recently bare watch anymore cant even talk really fathers passing anyway even want die feel to cant live like anymore thank reading" ]

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[ "feel like im stuck ruthi all im years old live united kingdom near dover past hours ive feeling low unhappy liferight im final gcse exams im going get good grades ill probably getting dses worse try hardest enough im overweight loser whos best enough never seem lose weight ive tried several times past unfortunately always seems fail skinny perhaps id confidence feel like ill probably commit redflagim im stuck home pretty much everyday school finished friends teamspeak voip talk to couple friends schoolsocial life girlfriend heh me girfriend happening id like nice job wife daughter move canada think ive damaged much young child especially weight normal happy healthy weight teenager instead fat one goals life feel like ill never able achieve them feel like crying know do" ]

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[ "neighbor commuted redflag days ago need helpbasically fucking pussy decided comment hurtful things ig post resulted taking life whole town working together figure dude bring justice get permission family spread story would like yall help find pussy ass motherfucker help bring justice family ill let know information" ]

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[ "know anymorei feel lost right now cant help feel like im terrible person like one part complete sociopath sometimes empathy could destroy someones life without feeling thing scares me ive done terrible things past messed every relationship ive had think world would better without me want keep hurting people care about" ]

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[ "im doneim done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im done im doneim done im just fucking done" ]

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[ "minecraft dog doesnt know isnt coming back fuck" ]

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[ "comment favorite song ill try guess mbti it now" ]

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[ "feel like ive already completely ruined life beyond redemption im basically title graduated college years ago still able get job field went school for top that ive thrown away every opportunity every network had theres way get good job now crushing see peers lead successful lives me im going get blackout drunk tonight hang myself thats way feel relief now" ]

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[ "brother killed last year want thing nowhe lifelong depression i im early s female insane amount loss pain particularly last years recent loss friend thought would one person would always me wasnt gone without even goodbye ive tried couple times reach out apologise utterly cut off knew everything me cant see meeting anyone else depressed withdrawn would able trust anyone else anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going get better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want more also desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day too everyone else put simply nothing left live for im mental pain nearly time ive tried different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks months absolute most left worse state began them interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma this desperately want end pain cannot go like much longer cant want put parents second redflag would swap places dead brother nanoseconds he may thank that give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly could still another years way hold long" ]

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[ "got another creepy pm whys always crusty ass year old man child saying dumb shit asking nudes cant sum big titty ass milf shit nicely asks nudes wouldnt mind tbh" ]

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[ "tw redflag failed exam u feel like killing myself" ]

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[ "movie far better original jerk would highly recommend anyone like quirky humor incorporated almost many lines movie daytime discourse monty pythonbr br the card game hobos mr suicide scene dinner table distaste turtle soup original jerk choreographed ans staged like steve martin seemed like trying hard jerk spoof enjoyed anyone jerk family friendly unlike original jerk" ]

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[ "life alright summer break hell deal going back school genuinely know deal this endless agony redflag redflag boredom somehow get start school make winter seasonal depression top depression good combo genuinely feel hopeless really want go back school fell helpless please deal id rather die go back school" ]

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[ "reddit isnt helpingi created reddit feel understood people always suffer major depression mental illness suicidal thoughts come alll see sadness people ready give up ruins even normal moments already fleeting heart goes everyone dont know healthy come always see stuff maybe unhealthy us idk leave reddit ill feel completely alone again dont fucking know whats gonna help me anything really want happy" ]

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[ "according society imyearold boy pretty sure im turning week female im girl scout multiple occasions people come walmart selling cookies thought troop mates younger brother" ]

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[ "rant highs high lows very low creeping back in unable comprehend random chaotic mind right now way easy one bad guy hate abuser molesterwhat burns hes gotten away it hes happy new born sure forgiven him know never stop hating me existence reminder guilt betrayal inflicted me every time thinks me cannot accept fact wrong people defend her manipulated abused knowwell well enough know even touches self thinks him memories had good felt rush excitement deep regret it cannot stand fact story one loved her bad guy creeping back again answer leaving crazy world" ]

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[ "previous reviewer claudio carvalho gave much better recap films plot details could recall mostly beautiful every sense emotionally visually editorially gorgeousbr br if like movies wonderful look at also emotional content beauty relevant think glad seen extraordinary unusual work artbr br on scale id give reason shy away mood piece mood really artistic romantic film definitely think mustsee none us mood time so overall" ]

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[ "stay alive mean cope stress little one talk emotions general pain existence" ]

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[ "um tall guys curious feel like im short" ]

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[ "whats movie always makes cry want sad today guess" ]

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[ "life been worst past years rped abortion catholic family shot directly gun frienda man tried abduct meput truck sister went coma months clinically dead minutes physically abused everyway boyfriend figured seizure condition kill within years or lesswow whole paragraph think past years go things ill sad remember something random like abortion raped fact something unbelievable traumatic forgettable compared everything else wowwhat wrong me am luck like this like things done one person everything separate group people different parts country kidnapping thing happened days ago finally got courage work outgo run outside scared people second day years man tried kidnap mesomething life right something off feel like human guinea pig tested see far human pushedi want go crazy want control anymore tired want someone take body need anymore give up give this want anymore suicidaldepressed ever since remember certain point care hurting family need put empathy aside care myself game quit whoever win do please someone tell want alive want hurt family" ]

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[ "want end suffering pleasei want end really cant take anymore didnt ask brought world suffering waking hours" ]

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[ "muchive rough couple months recently lost mom live abusive father emotionally tears apart whenever talk telling death fault failure etc result speaking terms all child without relatives really family talk to sort exist school close friends all alone ive really bad person lately demons hate myself want kind person nobody returns favor give up forgetting love feels like ever expanding void heart used be im tired feeling like nobody cares mostly know true going tie loose ends tomorrow leave" ]

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[ "im tired tryingfuck thisim sick always fucking bad guy genuinely feel like make every effort everything right im easy target people take shit me cant ever person people want fuck it god damn even fucking try long anyway always knew gonna happen im sick people world worth apart" ]

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[ "iti planned kill thursday obviously go it mom excited christmas deals mental issues christmas always seems make things better her even little while leave christmas" ]

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[ "want die three yearsright now things easy like way things going friends care care me people relate to ive got good family life fun siblings loving mother im currently college getting high marks higher grades ever entire life pursuing subject really enjoy hobbies love interests love life feel like drag slightest", "im happy like really good right now really hope three four years courage hang myself world getting worse like holy shit world getting much worse working class little mind boggling despise country hate much fucking despise everything america every single capitalist lie gets shoved peoples throats convincing working hours week possibly survive normal justifiable living nightmare exist in currently field im pursuing good jobs cities cities exorbitantly high cost living dollars month small unfurnished hole wall apartment building naturally field work regularly hour days hour work weeks thats generally norm first thought unique shitty feature preferred industry really isnt everyone deal bullshit working conditions order meet bare minimum living matter field workdays meaningless keep getting longer longer wages getting worse worse affecting everyone younger are worse going it college debt something deal rest life what want ground dust rest adult life lay hours day one day per week off human beings live like this inhumane disgusting inescapable climate apocalypse going bring hell earth even wealthier countries really life honestly life about adds to brief flash freedom were teens were driven dirt feel like shit lives try tell people ways feel like shit even though everyone feels like shit trying convince theres mythic utopian life living wages afford everything need live plus savings disposable income fun work hours week which way completely unnecessary given dramatic rise productivity standards reality everything sucks real world honestly want deal that want live next three years life best can ever since convinced ill dead three years felt amazing ill try anything want ill take chances whenever please feels great feel fucking liberated amazing deal consequences anything want to live best whatever want knowing easy fun runs dry life becomes nightmare feels fucked up theres something cathartic always get jail free card allows whatever wish want lifestyle ive adopted go away want live free forever cant freedom gone im going kill myself ill happy it let world get me ill live die terms honestly cant see better way it wrong me love life really wanna kill three years" ]

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[ "hate brain so weeks ago got asked out said yes fun stuff weird tech rule house cant text often last talked two weeks ago im writing now a fact appears accounts mine blocked my hope dad find out b weird amount stress seeing have a dads drunkard oldest sister still lives age severely limiting fact shes one work house b since sawspoke last brain flooded negative hypotheticals ifs because trauma previous relationships honest hell earth especially check back account see text them see account changed dramatically digress whole lotta abandonment issues clinginess first world problems still move forth yes struggle talking long alsoyes thank reading did" ]

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[ "comedy humor skool bad parent bad minecraft good laugh" ]

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[ "huge cast gathered remake sadly box office failure notwithstanding great sound track cant say riveting entertainment cure insomnia nevertheless enjoyed film provided escape one afternoon good look us looking ideal life albeit fantasy expect corny moments thrills occasional laugh" ]

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[ "freaking fuck cant log back school laptop i cant remember password online school lots assignments hand laptop ive never scared" ]