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Found out why she acted differently to me and yeah... So my crush was pretty distant the last weeks even tho we are friends so i asked her whats the problem. First she said that it was that i had a figth with of her friends but then she told me the reason that shes acting different is because shes getting different vibes from me the last months Different vibes I mean shes not wrong but it has a reason, in those months I started liking her | non-suicide |
I made a plan is there any reason not to do itMy life will never get better I accepted that its over | suicide |
Why do people use this sub as a place to date? Not angry, just curious behind the thought process. | non-suicide |
bro me and my friend won a game in among us in min and seconds as imposters It was so crazy :D Happened in the first round speedrun imposter lets goooo | non-suicide |
sonic is good asf literally everything about them is godly especially their milkshakes and cheddar bites im boutta bust | non-suicide |
I overdosed yesterdayIt wasn't enough and I couldn't force myself to swallow more, I'm such a failure... My husband knew but he didn't care, I feel so alone and stupid. I just hope this will fuck up my liver enough that either I'll die soon or next time it'll just be too fucked up to deal with another overdose. I still feel nauseous and achy something hours later so fingers crossed I guess? | suicide |
im honestly patheticive lived a completely average life by all means. my parents loved me, my brothers... i guess loved me, i dont know. anyway, im not really sure where it all started. i used to get bullied by this girl across the street, but im easily manipulated, so she'd be nice to me and i'd just be her friend again. that went on for, maybe , years? she was younger than me, but i was a really delicate kid, despite my size. she'd call me names and beat me up when i was just trying ti have fun with my friend. so, after i moved away k think that all stuck with me. i dont have trust issues or anything, but i dont see things past face value. if somebody is nice to me to my face i think "wow, thet were nice! ive made a friend" only to find out they hate me, and then repeat the cycle because, well, people are fake. well, i've got this group of friends (my only friends) who essentially do the same thing. they don't really hate me or anything, they just don't actively want to be around me. and that hurts. i'm really bad at making new friends and all, so i haven't tried making new friends. i'm currently sitting alone in my room, painfully sober and bawling my eyes out over people who want nothing to do with me. it makes me feel worthless, and i feel like im overreacting. i just get the general idea that i have no right to feel like this because so many people have it so much worse, and im just being a stupid girl and throwing a fit about some high school friends. but i've come very close to opening up a pill bottle, and ive run my fingers over the key of the gun cabinet far too many times to not talk about this at least somewhere. | suicide |
I've had animal crossing for a month now, and I haven't seen him sleep once. Is he ok?? Does he need a break?? | non-suicide |
Im tired of having to pick myself upThe title says it all. My life consistently feels like every time I begin to pick myself up from one event, something new happens. It feels like I committed a great sin in a past life and this current life is my punishment. Ive reached my absolute lowest point. I was recently dumped after spending almost years with the man I truly thought I would marry, and shortly after that found out he had been cheating on me near the end and is currently dating the girl he cheated on me with. I saw them out of a date the other day and it sent me into the worst panic attack of my entire life. Through all of my ups and downs he was the one person I always trusted to never hurt me, and he left me for a girl he barely knows. My grandma died last week, my moms health has progressively been deteriorating and Im fairly certain she has late stage cancer and just wont tell me since shes ridiculously secretive about her health and afraid for my mental health if I know the truth, and if she dies Ill be an orphan at the ripe age of since my dad died when I was a child. I only have one other family member and they live several states away. My closest friends have all moved away. Im doing terribly in school. I feel so lost and directionless. I tried to get in with a psych but the only place in my town that takes my insurance has an almost year long waitlist. The best they could offer was to give me a call if someone cancels. I feel like I try so so hard to use the coping skills Ive learned in therapy but there comes a point when its just not enough. This post is a mess but life just feels like an unending nightmare where I bounce from one trauma to the next scrambling for some sort of foothold but this time I have none. I have nothing to keep me going. Thoughts of dying are in the back of my head all day every day no matter what Im doing. I dont know exactly what my point is with this post, its a mess, and Im a mess, but maybe I just need people to talk to. | suicide |
Why is there now an online and hiding function What's it for why's it there I'm very confused | non-suicide |
my dog will have to be put down.i thought i had hit rock bottom, but rock bottom hit me back. | suicide |
Why shouldn't I?I've been alone for over years, never kissed anyone, only thing I've done was hold hands, years ago. My friends don't text me, I have to message them first and when they reply, if at all, it's nothing, no connection no emotion. I cant drive, fail my test for learners and to scared of failure to retry. I work at a shitty job making shitty money, over worked under appreciated. The girl I'm trying to see won't even text me anymore. No life experience, barely passed high school. If I quit my job then I'll be back in my parent's house, years of trying to improve to be back at square one. If I do it there then my mom will find me and that's the worst thing she could find. I'm miserable and I cant change it. I want to write a book but I've procrastinated so hard in life I cant bother to make food % of the time and somehow still fat. My hobby is so looked down on, my parents laugh at me, and I'm so invested in it I cant but money anywhere else. The only thing I have goin for me are my cats. I don't treat them as well as i should. I'm a terrible cat dad. My th birthday is coming next week. Life is hopeless for me, no goal, no achievement, no love, nothing. So why shouldn't I? | suicide |
I feel like I am a dissapointment to myselfI've never belonged to any group of people ever since I was born and I was bullied through my first years of life. I'm addicted to gaming, extremely lazy and I've lost all my motivation. I currently live on my own and work as a waiter, which is the most inhuman work experience I have ever had in my entire life, because people treat you like a slave and don't care about your mental or physical health. I also have insomnia, I can't sleep at night so I just play video games all night or watch some stupid videos on YouTube. I haven't found a career I want to pursue in, I have no hobbies except gaming, I am really anti-social because people have never treated me well, I am not good at having long and active conversations and I just think that I don't belong amongst others. I also haven't felt love for someone after th grade. I am quite emotionless. I just feel nothing. I have a massive depression and I am very frustrated because I can't change my life because it just seems to lead nowhere. | suicide |
Im scared of developing feelings because I'm scared of losing the ones I love I just lost a group chat that was really close we met each other in real life too. And I think I have lost my best friend for no reason so I have been very fucked up lately | non-suicide |
Sunken FriendshipsSo, I lost pretty much my entire support group- minus my mother who already has so much on her own plate as things are. Although there's no suicidal ideation currently- this is the same time as last year that I attempted suicide, intentionally crashed my car, and was found in the woods by a bloodhound team after stripping naked and trying to "get lost" and poison myself. Well. I'm thinking about that time a lot and how this year started out with signing a Baker act but is very different because I'm living with family but I totally wrecked my friendships because I would start nosediving, abuse drugs, and take it out on them verbally; always unprovoked. It is totally my fault that I lost them, I accept that we'll never be as close as we were because I made the sick choice of gambling away respect with people who cared, and I believe irreparably burned the bridges by breaking promises, disrespecting rules, and hurling insults while intoxicated. I don't even have a brother anymore but that is the one irreparable relationship that isn't my fault-- but I'm not getting into that. Depression and my other mental ailments will be a part of life forever now, so how do I go about avoiding another dangerous spiral without the support? How can I make relations healthy and keep them that way? I won't be able to live a life of quality if I'm so negative and self loathing that I convince myself not to give things a shot. | suicide |
I can't take it anymoreI don't know how else I can say this anymore, but I just can't take it. Over the last few months, a series of events have happened, and I've spiraled. I don't know how far, and I don't think it'll ever stop. I don't see a way back. I felt so happy and one by one everything was taken away from me, friends, trust, happiness. I won't even start on my family, because they mean nothing to me anymore. I tried to explain to them how I feel and the stress I go through as a highschool student, but they just don't seem to care and belittle everything I saw. It also doesn't help that I'm a compulsive liar and lie at every opportunity I get, and probably that's why they don't believe me. But I just know that I can't take it anymore that's all I know. Well for now. | suicide |
idkNever had any friends, never had any ambitions, years of solitude led to my personality dying out due to the lack of social encounters. I don't know who I am anymore nor why I am alive. At this point my mindset differ so much from the norm that people would find it hard to wrap their head around my perspective on the world. I can no longer function as a part of my society thus I see no point in being alive. | suicide |
Heres a story of my middle school crush When I was in th grade I was kinda ehhh. I didnt look good, but I still had the same personality! I had a friend at the time who was WAY prettier than me and when I told her about my crush she asked him out and they started dating. Needless to say, she wasnt my friend anymore. They broke up and then he goes I heard you had a crush on me. And then my ex friends friend was like yeah why dont you ask her out. And then they both laughed so hard they were literally crying. I was extremely embarrassed. Well now lets fast forward to high school. I had some what of a glow up, but I was still the same me as ever. I was smarter too! I ended up having the same math class as him and he didnt understand what was going on so I had to help him. Enough being said, he was like I shouldve asked you out in middle school. I like you OP. And then I kindly rejected him. I think he still likes me till this day, but Ill never forget how much of a fool he made of me. | non-suicide |
This Is Me. The REAL Me.Alone. Trapped. Uncared for and unwanted. A few words to describe my life. I've written a few things on reddit about how I hate my life and shit, and people comment on them saying "you cant give up." "you're only doing this for attention." "i wont leave you." blah blah blah. Well here are somethings for those people, I gave up a long time ago. I'm only here because I know I'll be in more pain than if I die. There is no way in hell I'm doing this for attention. Damn it you sound like my mom ass hole. You say you wont leave me. A lot of people have told me that before. All those people have lied and left me. I know you're here for now, but soon I think you'll leave. Even you can't thats not true. Don't get me wrong, everything this girl has done for me is more than I could have ever asked for. I love her but I've loved a lot of people, friends, boys, etc. and all have left me at one point or another. So when the day comes that she does leave I wont be suprised but I'll miss her dearly. I have convinced myself that death is the only way out of all this pain I'm in. I still believe that and I'm pretty sure I always will. "No it's not. It does get better. You just got to hold on." I'm done with that bullshit. That believing in a fairytale ending doesn't erase my past. It doesn't erase the day I found my dads secret stash of chewing tobacco, or when I first cut myself, or tried to kill myself, or thought about not eating and throwing up whatever I did eat. If you knew me you would never guess these things about me. People always tell me what a happy person I am. But I'm not. Thats the truth. | suicide |
Where are the text post boys at Everyone in hot be using images. | non-suicide |
How do you know if you should get help or not? And how?At what point is it enough that you should get help? How do you know if is a legitimate problem or just negative thoughts? | suicide |
Looks I'm going to kill myself in a few daysThat's all. I'm sorry you had to waste your time reading this shit. | suicide |
Everyone thinks America or Russia will start world war but little did they know... My sheep army grows..... | non-suicide |
Why do my history teachers always give assignments on the communist manifesto? I get that its an important document, but despite how many times they insist the wealth of nations is important too, they never really go over it. | non-suicide |
Car Dance [Car Dance]( | non-suicide |
This is sad. The story of this girls break up. I dont need any karma, go and suport her. | non-suicide |
I Don't Want To Go To Work I Hate ItI hate to . I have no motivation to go. I have minutes left to get ready. I'm still lying in bed if I don't go I won't have money obviously, but everything just feels like boring and dull. I have nothing interesting in my life. | suicide |
I FORGOT I HAVE AN AWARD sho wants it :Dd YOU can have it yes you!!! | non-suicide |
Uh ... not to be vain or anything. But do any of yall recognize my username Im betting its a resounding no | non-suicide |
Does anyone know where I can get a cheap iPhone s or something similar? I've been stuck on a bad Android and that's all I can afford. I'm from the UK, London specifically. Just want to have a slightly better phone and not spend too much. I don't use it too much anyway, mostly Tinder and bank apps. Thanks! | non-suicide |
What is there to look forward to?Everyone tells me there is so much in life to look forward to and worth living for, and that I'm currently too dark to see it. Please tell me what there is to look forward to that is worth it; I want to know what to fight for...I'm genuinely curious and need to know. | suicide |
Why do I get caught every time I try to commit suicide?I swear mt inability to lie has caused so many attempts to be failed and I am so sick and tired of it. It probably doesn't help that I have so many therapists (individual, group, family, case manager) and doctors (psychiatrist and person who administers an invasive therapy). I just keep draining money in this and not getting better. Anyone else feels a bit regretful getting help because it just complicates things more ? | suicide |
Bisexual and pansexual are the same thing ___________________________________________ | non-suicide |
my dad is taking me to barnes & noble as a christmas present!! idk. idk why im like super happy about this but i get to spend time w dad and like an hour picking out books and maybe getting some funko pop figures!!! woo!! | non-suicide |
Not me enjoying toasted butter bread when I know I should be heading off to school minutes ago Lmao i'm going to be so late | non-suicide |
Never forget You are perfect. Don't let anyone else make you think otherwise. Only you know what you're capable of. Be yourself :) | non-suicide |
Anybody ok with talking on snapchat or something ? For real I am kinda bored and would like to meet someone new and pretty much talk to that person about movies , games and stuff. If you wanna talk , you can dm me and I will add you or I will give you my snap. | non-suicide |
kinda forgot i had a social life outside of reddit lmfao i just told my friends im alive | non-suicide |
People keep saying "It gets better." Really, when?It's been at least years and I'm still waiting; mostly it's gotten worse. Another one is "a permanent solution to a temporary problem." Only if my life is technically temporary does that apply. | suicide |
Still here but struggling...Ugh. I can't stand myself. My drinking is out of control. I have been pretty much smashed or close to it for the past days. I haven't cut again (positive) but my thoughts have turned morbid again. I don't want to live like this...I am struggling so hard to hold on. My kids keep me grounded...I barely can make it through the day. I drink to forget. The next mornings suck...but it helps me make It. Ty for reading. I don't want to be here on this sub (no offense) but I have nowhere else to vent. :( ~LG | suicide |
How can I buy a gun?I want to shoot myself in the head but I don't know how to buy a gun or how much it will cost to buy a gun | suicide |
I just found out that one of my friends genuinely believes that all people who listen to country music are racist The stupidity levels are off the charts. I like some country music so I guess I'm racist now. And no I'm not joking about this shit. Gonna go try to change her mind. I can't believe I even have to try to change her mind about this | non-suicide |
I hope I dont fail this timeI tried killing myself like a fucking ton of times and with me being the failure i am i failed. I dont have any faith in myself that i will actually fucking succeed this time but a person sure can fucking hope. | suicide |
anyone wanna chop off my nose? its daily nosebleeds smh. Im sleeping? nosebleed! im eating? nosebleed! im in the shower? nosebleed,its at a point that the bloodclot is holding then back smh. Its beat hard but will work,asking $ OBO can ship anywhere but antartica and north korea | non-suicide |
What happens if I go to the ER for being suicidal? I'm in Florida, so Baker Act?I have no money or insurance. I have been afraid to call my father to ask for money and didn't get far talking to my brother. I am late on rent and I guess homeless is next without help or suicide. Even if I had money, that wouldn't solve the loneliness and anxiety that has brought me to this point. | suicide |
Most days I wish I was deadI hate my life. I hate life. I hate people. I hate everything about life in general. We are all fucked. | suicide |
People like me dont make it farMy family.... Is not good. Its looking like I might face homelessness when I get the hell out I dont know what will happen. It torchers me that rich families gove their kids a free, -k ride and I have no hope for education, not even a roof over my head I can either die now or wait awhile and die anyways | suicide |
People I love keep losing their loved ones to suicide- Ive lost loved ones to it- so why do I want to follow suit?And yet, here I am. I feel beyond guilty. I see firsthand the pain that it causes. Not just see, Ive *felt* it. But even then... I wrestle myself every. single. day. I cant have one single social exchange that isnt exhausting, not even with family. I constantly feel like Im doing or saying the wrong things. Even people that I know already love me... what if I do or say something to change that? It just feels inevitable. Ive been in therapy twice a week for roughly a year and a half and I havent been making much progress. Though, I was assaulted in October of and havent addressed that trauma at all. Today I spoke with a trauma counselor and made the decision to receive trauma counseling once a week in addition to what Im currently receiving. Im withdrawing, I almost never feel safe, I trust no one (even the people I love most), I constantly question who I am, I constantly question if I even know what love, trust, life, etc. all means. Im trying. But when I was younger, I can remember being able to picture a future and having goals. Wanting things. And now I just... dont. And I dont know how to just magically change that. | suicide |
I was taken as a fool So I was in this summer camp last week and one night we got to play songs to the speakers. I being the l funny guy I asked them to put "Never Gonna Give You Up" for the meme and the lady running the camp asked me "How do you know the song? Have you heard it in Fortnite? " I will proceed to not go to that summer camp ever again | non-suicide |
I thought I saw you in the | non-suicide |
Should I stop trying to make contact with my friend? They take at least a week to respond to emails, their responses are short and low effort, and they never initiate contact. Kinda tired of trying to make contact with them, especially considering I have much better friends who actually respond. | non-suicide |
Im scaredIm scared of living. Way more than i am of dying. Life terrifies me. Its too much emotions and feelings and i just feel to much. I feel like i cant take it. Like my heart literally cannot cope with another thing breaking it. Im dissapointed in myself, cause at i always thought i would be a completely different person than i actually am. And yes im young, but i have lost the hope for life already - there is no getting that back. I really hope i find it in me to end this sometime soon. I really hope so. I dont ser life bringing me anything but misery, and i cant take any more. Im torn apart, and ive let everything that has happened to me affect my life to the fullest. No job - no education - no friends - isolated from family. I need to end this somehow - but how? How can i get out easier than i think? | suicide |
Reddit broken it fixed now | non-suicide |
i am ready to do it i want it to work this timei have tried before but it did not work i want to know a way i am sure i will die | suicide |
Ideas for making money from home as a teen We all are struggling to make money. r/slavelabour and r/forhire aren't super teen friendly and I'm not sure what sort of jobs I can get online. Help a brother out with some ideas, please! I can't leave the house. Ideas I've had so far: trying to get my parents to invest in cryptocurrencies (alt coins) with some money I have saved, making art and shipping it online, writing blogs, streaming, youtube, making websites for people, data entry, music writing, tutoring online, social media managing for other people, the list goes on. We need more! Please consider adding SERIOUS ideas so that we can all benefit. Edit: If this post got some real traction, it could help hundreds of teens! Please try to put forward serious ideas so that we can all live better lives while we are quarantined! | non-suicide |
Ugh I hate being trans so much fjfjfjskkdkdkdkdkksls Everything about it sucks ass, fuck you mom you killed the wrong fucking sperm and ruined my life for it | non-suicide |
I'm tired of having to worry about everyone else when I hurt this much.I just want to end it. | suicide |
Life is disturbingI want to die almost everyday for the last years My only method is choking myself with a foot usb cable wedged in a door hinge. I got close one time Disgusting and disturbing things have happened to me. Terrible genetics also I almost died twice from heroin. But got revived at the hospital. Wish it was over then It helps seeing all your posts about being suicidal. Like theres other people out there to and lots. This page gets flooded with those people. Imagine everyone that feels that way not on this subreddit, hundreds of millions... There is no god... Looking at history across the world people have gone through hell and chaos. | suicide |
Trying to get my life together M ()I am very sensitive person who like to drink. I know thats not good combination but I can't help myself it makes my loneliness go away in some point but when I drink too much I just uncontrollably cry until I pass out. I am orphan so my parents can't help. I had once girl who was like angel to me , but she cheated on me , I found out because one of my few friends who told me then I just took my car and wanted to just drive straight in full speed in tree, but something in my mind stoped me , so I just wrecked my car and survived. After the crash I just feel blank like nothing could fullfill my emptyness in me, everyday is same for me , trying not overthink which is worst for me. Please if some good soul could help me, I very appreciated.. | suicide |
I almost fucking died today School starts off as normal, comes to around :pm. I get tired and put my head on the desk and start tapping the end of my pen on a metal bar/sheet that holds the table together. The PC PSU suddenly archs to my pen that looked like lightning. I freak the fuck out but still hold my pen. The PSU then makes a loud pop and crack and then all of the power to the computers turn off. The teacher looks confused and then asks if I'm alright and then she got management to come up and try and fix it. The PSU make a big white light and a bit of smoke and sparks and was literally, arching to my pen end and buzzing around. Holy shit it fucking scared me and I literally almost died. Still can't get over it. Pen still works tho | non-suicide |
Guys is covid- as serious as people say it is? Like I'm still not going to attend parties or not wear a mask but most of this covid shit is propaganda right? I mean , people die from car accidents every day and nobody is talking about them.. friends caught covid and they just had a fever for a few days and went back to normal. From how I see it if you have an autoimmune disease, are unhealthy, fat, smoke, or are old then you should be careful but if you're younger than and healthy I think your body will just fight it off like any other virus right? Or am I wrong? | non-suicide |
My close friends over the years : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . : . Its kinda weird cause Ive always thought another myself as someone with a small friend group but Im realising thats cause Ive never really had all my close friends in the same place | non-suicide |
About to Leave High School And Sad Im Still a Virgin (M) Thats correct. I am graduating this year and have not had sex. Im not sure if this is common. I just feel like I missed out on a key high school experience. I cant even blame the virus because, lets be honest, I wouldnt have made any effort had the virus not existed. | non-suicide |
wish I'd never been bornThrowaway account I use for very, VERY few purposes. I doubt I'm actually suicidal right now, but I don't particularly have any place left to post. Should be easy to guess that I'm trans, and while browsing /r/transgender today, saw this link: which linked back to this thread: And all I can think about now all day is how absolutely useless my life is, since I'll never be attractive, and being trans, can't have kids, so the likelihood of **not** being single forever, is extremely low. I know I have depression on some level, but anti-depressant medication (zoloft) didn't work when I tried it years ago, and neither did several months of CBT (cognitive behavior therapy.) Yes, I know therapy can take years to work, but at this point, I really don't see the point. (And I can't afford it either.) I'm unimportant and unremarkable, arguably a genetic mistake (because I'm trans) and a guaranteed reproductive failure. And in addition to all of that, I failed out college a few years ago, I'm unemployed, and all my friends are systematically abandoning me. So I'm perpetually alone too... and I'm a terribly weak person, and can't deal with being alone anymore. And I just want it to be over now, I'm tired of waking up everyday know that I'll never just be **normal**. | suicide |
Brown eyes are the prettiest and nothing will ever change my mind My friend has brown eyes and every time he looks at me I just feel like Brown eyed people all look like lil puppy dogs, change my mind. | non-suicide |
If you click here you gae Okay so ur gay. Thats all have a nice day | non-suicide |
I'm and I want to commit suicide painlesslyI'm already sure that I'll be the one who'll kill myself so please spare me the sob story. People are such hypocrites to tell me that "you matter" and spread positivity and shit like that. I just am so sick of it here. I'm planning to end it all after Christmas. I want to die not suffer more. I'm sick of people acting like they like me, for all I care they think I'm crazy. I seek help and still feel like over-reacting. And maybe I am crazy. I crave attention and love from people. Thats why I still wanna survive without getting brain damage and shit. This whole paragraphy is making no sense but who else can I talk to but people who feel the same way as I do? I've tried to do it several times but somehow my plans never suceed. I see no purpose in life so why am I even here? Just to suffer more? Dead or alive people wouldn't care so might as well get done with it. The younger I am the less people I'll meet | suicide |
Fuck people who leave when they get crewmate If that is you, fuck you. We just want to play a proper game and youre out there making that impossible. | non-suicide |
I have nothing and no one. (besides my mom who has said she doesnt know how to help)im . I have nowhere to go. no one to talk too. no education outside of half way through highschool. and no future. I truly feel lost. my life is wasting away. this is not an exaggeration. I dont know what to do. I dont know if I should end it all | suicide |
Im really afraid now because Im not afraid anymoreI know its confuse but I feel that I could do it at anytime and it really scares me... I keep thinking I must not kill myself, some time ago I was afraid from the pain and hurting my family feelings but right now I really dont care, the only thing that keep me alive is imagining my fiance alone with my dogs, struggling in life, it really breaks my heart and Im afraid to leave her. The fear of waking up one more day is higher than the fear of death.... I cant deal with life anymore, just there is no point, really... I want to go. I failed in my job in my fiances family company, I got a degree but cant find any job, everyone just keep telling me I dont fit, well I guess I dont fit this world anymore... I cant do anything right. If I had a gun I would be dead right now, for sure %. But in my country is really hard to get one. I called a doctor to see if I can get professional help but I dont have money... whats the point of this world? I might die because Im a failure and got no money to get help? It just no sense, it just make my mind worse. Idk in just typing random things, but I really need help, I want to believe there is another way to bear life... Sorry for my shitty English, Im not a native speaker. | suicide |
You ever feel like your stress and anxiety is building up and it's about to burst? That's exactly how I feel. I don't have many places to vent, so I hope r/teenagers will welcome me. I've been doing a lot more social interaction these past weeks and all my stress is building up (note, im on antidepressants, so I think my anxiety and stress is being bottled up). Anyway , thanks for reading if you do, I don't expect a lot of people to. Good day fellow gamers:,) If you'd like a little context, I have a post about getting put on antidepressants if you'd like to look at it | non-suicide |
What complements can you give a guy? My boyfriend always comes up with different complements and nicknames for me and I can't think of anything. I would like to know somethings guys would like to be called, or have said to them. | non-suicide |
Give it a month or sonot much else to it, I'm home over the easter holidays, may or so i'll go back to uni where i've got boxes of paracetamol (g) waiting for me, I just can't. I, I just can't anymore, sick of putting a fake mask on and pretending everything is fine, i just want nothing. Not I don't want anything, I want nothing, to close my eyes and never to reopen then. Just nothingness. | suicide |
Y'all got it lucky in America.Buy a gun easy af. In Aus we need all these regulations met and circumstances fulfilled. Just wanna eat some lead ya know. Why does it have to be so hard. | suicide |
superheroine black shadow warrior [ | non-suicide |
WhyAll ive ever wanted is for my friends to be happy. I try everything and i do as much as i can. I just want others to be happy. To not have to go through what i do. I feel like a selfish bitch. The smallest things set me off and i am really only here because of drugs and my family and friends. I just dont want them to feel bad. Its only a matter of time until something sets me off enough to make me end it. No matter what i do it always comes back. Something shitty always happens and i go back down. Why is it so hard to just be happy. To just care about things that are actually important. Instead i just make things worse over and over. Its not about what happens, its just anything. Anything that makes me sad, just makes me go back to being depressed. I dont want to end it. But i have no reason to be here. | suicide |
Guilti wont go into too much but, I've done something truly evil in my childhood that hasn't really bothered me so much as it has the past few years. I have always been distant and apathetic even as a child, I could never really identify with my feelings and have a great difficulty showing them. But within the past few years I've been feeling nothing but wave after wave of crippling guilt from my horrible deeds as a child. I cant apologize, I cant reverse the damage done and the moral battle in my head is tearing me apart. I can act like i'm a normal person all day just to lay down at night and fight away these evil urges and thoughts. or i just don't. I don't want to be the person i am and have the thoughts that i do. These conflictions between who i am and who i want to be are literally about to kill me and i refuse to carry this guilt. | suicide |
Hey there, I'm looking for drummers and Vocalists So I'm a guitarist, and I'm making my own song rn. I need metalheads who like Metallica, Megadeth and the like. I can play the bass, rhythm AND lead + harmony parts, i just need a drummer and a vocalist. Drummer should have: - Acoustic drums w/ recording system OR electric drums Vocalist shoud have: - Microphone - Metal singing techniques DM me if anyone is interested. I will send you the details of the song later. Thanks a lot. | non-suicide |
I just snorted tea tree oil Not what it sounds like Was in the shower, the tea tree face wash is fucking great, but fucking intense. I wonder who got the idea tea tree oil and face equates to good? So was using the face wash, and i inhaled through my nose at the wrong moment, and up went a stream of that potent frio flamas shit, took the A train up my left nasal passage. Burned like fucking hell holy shit and its minutes later my eyes and nose have a new nasty vomit flavor feeling and it hurts like shit ugh Sticking my pinkie the length of a Ticonderoga up my smeller and exhaling hard did absolutely nothing, nor did snorting shower water and honking like a goose a few seconds later do anything. Please help. It burns Not exaggerating anything at all Pray for me | non-suicide |
I'm hungry Probably should go stuff my face hole. Edit: Face hole has been stuffed | non-suicide |
Librium + ml vodkaIf I took approximately Librium (a benzodiazepine) and drank about ml of vodka would that be enough to induce a peaceful death? | suicide |
you can duck the fuck but you cant fuck the duck | non-suicide |
updateWater intoxication at : am with having drunk about a gallon of water in minutes who knew I'd be doing this. Well fallout and some chew and hopefully a quiet and peaceful death. Peace to all you beautiful mofos out there franklin turtle is out. | suicide |
i figured it out...although i know that when you guys are reading a post, you know that it's a triggering topic, but just in case. please do not read if you are triggered by anything weight related. anyways... i figured it out. i figured out how to barf up my food. not exactly the best experience, but good enough. i've been trying for a while now. i finally did it. honestly, i'm proud. although i know it's bad and i should stop... i still feel proud. i want to lose weight, since i'm disgusting and all. so i decided that barfing and starving is the easiest way to go. although i wouldn't mind leaving the earth either, not like i really care about anything here. welp... have a nice day yall :D | suicide |
There's nowhere to goIt's been years of depression and contemplaiting suicide, and I'm in the army now. No one gives a shit about me. All of my emotions are forced, I smile, laugh and sadden on que. I don't look good, and I can't form a good conversation, so to everyone I'm the guy you say good morning to and talk over a ciggarette with. I'm forced to be with them all day for weeks, and It's eating me from inside. I'm a lonely cunt who can't be alone and if anyone knew what I feel I'd be branded as the suicidal weirdo like so many times before. I can't get pills, and my only solution is to chain smoke and asphyxiate myself to half consciousness, when the deprresive thoughts close in. I can't do this anymore. Every minute that passes I feel closer to hanging myself. I want to live, I want to be happy again one day, find friends, learn in college and form a family. I don't want to die. Please help me. | suicide |
On my th birthdayA lot of people might be very disappointed | suicide |
I just wanna be princess carried I just want to be princess carried, Is that so much to ask? | non-suicide |
I slept through a f***** important test I SLEPT THOUGH A FUCKIN IMPORTANT TEST. Idk what I should do now I needed this grade to go to the next year. Please help what should I do? | non-suicide |
No context, part | non-suicide |
Why everybody saying "this is valid!" "that is valid!" Tf does that even mean? Your mom is valid, how bout that? | non-suicide |
I need to borrow someones life for a bit It wont be long, just for a few days.....or months idk | non-suicide |
my head is messed upi have a bunch of mental issues that i just don't want to deal with anymore i just want it to be done completely over the only thing stopping me is my lack of materials and objects that i could use to kill myself | suicide |
Does it ever get better?Its am and I just sat down with my third cup of coffee. Tried to sleep early tonight to get into some sort of routine but I ended up waking up hours later because of nightmares. Flicked the light on checked my phone not a single message or anything from another living soul. Decide to get up to my computer sit down check my ex's steam profile for the th time since we broke up. Wonder to myself if I will ever find love or if im worth loving in the first place. Check my friends list and see a barren wasteland. It was never that I didn't meet and talk with people but I have never found someone that doesn't feel like a person destined to pass through my life. I decide to watch youtube videos to get my mind off my borderline suicidal thoughts but low and behold I have watched every youtube video in my sub box for the last days. I then realized its the weekend and no more videos are really going to come out because people generally spend the weekend with friends or family. Atleast its dark outside and for a few hours it feels the entire world has stood still and people don't expect things from me. For a few hours its pure quietness. Thing is though when it gets quiet Im left with only my thoughts. I'm years old and my body feels like it can't go on anymore. I'm so alone. Supposed to be the best years of my life and I'm just watching the lives of other people while I myself am standing still and letting time and loneliness erode away at my mind and body. I don't know whats worth living for anymore. I'm tired. | suicide |
I used to **I used to be an adventurer like you, until I took an arrow to the knee.** | non-suicide |
What kind of abomination is that? So, I went out with my grandparents to a Mexican restaurant. I'm not a huge fan of Mexican food but I figured I'd find something. Well, I decided to get a cheese steak burrito. On the menu it literally said, "two burritos with cheese, steak, and cheese sauce on top. Served with French fries." Well as any normal person would, I thought the fries would be on the side. Nope, they put the fries *in the burrito* plus the burrito had other stuff that the menu didn't mention, guacamole, lettuce, and black beans. All of which I don't like. | non-suicide |
whats working at amazon like? I heard it's shit, but tbh i just want some money and i thought I'd get some of your opinions | non-suicide |
looking for some guidance.Hey, I'm a guy from Sweden who is thinking sometimes to suicide. I have not had too bad life, good friends and good family. The thing is that I always fail those who are around me and myself, I failed school overall after several times of promises to my teachers and my family. My mother asks herself how she could have raised me in a different way and crying for my failures. I know it's no big deal when compared to how hard other people have, but I can not see myself in a future where I will not fail with everything I do, even though I want to work hard and succeed in my studies, I will hide away my ambitions and flees to another world. I feel like a little fucking kid who refuses to eat their vegetables and even how much I want to eat the vegetables to reach dessert, I can not do it. Anyone have a tip or two that can help me? | suicide |
I ASKED OUT MY CRUSH! she said no | non-suicide |
Dropped out of school.It was hard for me to do but now there's no going back from my plan now because of this. I now have Ws on my academic record as a result of dropping classes. I've been crying for the past hour (not sobbing/sniffling but tears rolling down my face) due to the disappointment I feel in myself. My family expected me to transfer to UC Berkeley engineering but I can't do this anymore. I'm trying to make the most out of this and next week. Probably also going to make one last visit at the clinic I visit monthly this week. I'm going to take a personal visit to San Francisco this weekend. I've never been there and I always wanted to go there. | suicide |
About to blow my head off, in Missouri, family if you are reading this I am sorryI don't know if this is gonna work. I've posted so much to this sub the past few days. I am sure my phone will be looked at while I'm dead and my family will find this. I am so, so sorry it had to come to this. I tried so hard but I failed. I made so many mistakes and suffered in silence. I hope you aren't the ones who find my body. I have to do this for the greater good. Don't worry about me. I want all of you to have good lives without worrying about me. Please, keep my belongings. I have dollars in my wallet, please keep for yourselves and the other for my dying ex. Bury me with the lasting six bucks, since it defines the last time when I enjoyed life, when I was six. Please take in my pets, don't put them in any shelter. Take all of the electronics and keep them for the younger people in the family. Wipe them clean, so there's no remnants of my depressed ass on there. I was supposed to be an abortion. I almost died at birth. I was always ready for this. I was born to die early. It's my time now. Sorry you had to read this stupid shit, it's so pointless. Family, you can read my other posts for the motive. I am going now. Thank you SuicideWatch for letting me vent. I hope what's on the other side is better than this. | suicide |